Sunday 18th May

[Janice]

Hey Loppy where are you??? Come on girl, its a beautiful sunny morning, must have been a great meet up!!!!

Well got through last night's dinner party! The food and company was lovely and we had a great night. Our husband's are work colleagues and the guy really loves his wine....good wine....really good wine. He kept trying to get me just to have a drop of red with my beef, I kept saying no, in the end I just said "I stopped drinking in February, I was worried I was drinking too much and would up like my mam." He didn't offer me anymore after that!

Thanks for the support yesterday.....the pms too. Mary, you have a way with words that hit the nail on the head and bring tears to my eyes. I know its coming up to a year and in my mind I'm thinking "well, this time last year I was....". I know I'm "allowed" to have these feelings, I've just got to ride through them.

Anyway, hope everyone has a great day and we have a good positive thread today!!!
Will be back later.

Janicexxx:l

[Cinders]

Sunday 18th May

Janice,

I am so glad you made it through dinner last night okay. :l That must have been a bit rough and you prevailed!!

The grandkids stayed up until 11:00 pm last night and I imagine I am going to have one cranky little girl today. The good news is, she will probably go to bed really early for her mom and dad tonight. My daughter and SIL get home from their honeymoon sometime today!! Yay!!

The weekends are just way too short for me, everyone. It seems like I just got home and am now getting my clothes ready to pack again.

I love my work but I am just plain tired of all this travel.

Oh well. Enough about me.

I hope all are doing wonderfully this weekend. I am so grateful that you are here to talk about your day and your lives. It helps me so much to read about everyone's trials, tribulations and triumphs.

You help keep me sober because I get to hear that others are going through the same things I am and it makes it a little bit less lonely and scary. :l

Thank you all for being here.

Love,
Cindi

[retteacher]

Sunday 18th May

Cindi: I read your post from yesterday. You sure are a wonderful grandmother. Those grandparent nights are going to be the ones our g-kids will remember for the rest of their lives. My g-sons were here last night for a big, raucous dinner last night: great fun! Could we ask for more? Had I been drinking, I would have been anxious for everyone to leave so that I could get on w/it.

I'm only beginning day 3 & am trying to genuinely appreciate the good things that life offers the sober Mary. Thank you everyone for being here. As erratic as my program has been since I came here April of '07, I would be a complete lost soul wo/MWO. I was genuinely losing hope before finding this site.

Mary

[time2change]

Sunday 18th May

Good Morning
Janice, Cindi and Mary- Good Sunday Morning to you all. I want to just say that all three of you are an inspiration to me and to many. Although all of you are at different stages of AF you are all willing to share your victories and struggles. That really is what MWO is all about. So for me and for many thanks.

Today is day 19 for me. I guess I should be happy about that, but since last month I made it to day 20 before I blew it I feel like I need to be on extra guard the next few days.

Well, to all of you who post and read here today I wish you a great AF day.

[Loppy lugs]

Sunday 18th May

Afternoon folks,

I have been up for ages honest!!!

Actually I have spent hours composing an email to a friend of mine who I have been avoiding since I got myself into this mess. Or more accuratey since I started trying to get myself out of it. I could tell she has been quite hurt that I won't chat or go out lately but there really is only so much me to go around and at the moment I need all that energy for my mess not helping other people with theirs (MWO excluded, same mess if you know what I mean).

Anyway, I have yet to hear back but I told her I really valued her friendship but that at the moment I really needed to be selfish. I told her everything that had been going on and how I hoped the future would work out for me. I finished with that I really hoped that she would still want to be my friend when I come out the other side of all this.

Well I couldn't say fairer than that could I but I am still feeling a tad insecure at the moment.

Changing the subject, the meet up yesterday was the best thing that has happened to me in ages. I was so nervous but BB is lovely and made me feel at home. It was also bril to meet the others, although quite a few people couldn't make it in the end. As my first alcohol free outing in so many years it was great to do it in such a safe environment. I now feel confident that I can start going out a bit. Probably not a night at the pub, but dinner etc. I had such a good time and laughed so much.

We also kept the 2 minutes silence for Bear which was very moving.

Janice day 82! what can one say. Sorry that this is a bad time of year for you, mine is September. Can't say it gets easier but each year it is a bit different. Sorry the words aren't really working here, just not coming out the way I mean them to. Think bigs hugs and empathy and you'll get what I really want to say.

Cindi, loved last night's post about the grandchildren. It made me so nostalgic for the days when I was a little girl at my maternal grandmothers. She used to tuck the blankets around me so tight that I couldn't move and squidge the pillow up arounds my ears and give me loads of kisses. Thinking back I can't remember ever feeling more loved or secure all at the same time. Your kids and grandkids are lucky.

Right, time to get on with the housework. Hope everyone has a great day.

[Lila]

Sunday 18th May

Good morning everyone,
It is day 19 for me, too. Last nite I was thinking Well, I have the habit down, why not a classy bottle of wine, and just one glass? But I didn't because of you all.
My kids are waking up, I have to run!
Lila

[Beck]

Sunday 18th May

Hello Everyone,

Wonderful to hear how well everyone is this morning...

Janice, pulling through your challenges - Did I ever mention that when I move into my new house (in 3 weeeks!!!) there will be around 350 bottles of Italian wine in the basement? We lived in Italy before returning to the states and that is the amount we shipped back. My husband is not much of a drinker...if I were still a drinker that wine would last 6-7 months. I see giving away a lot of wine in my future.

Loppy, good to get out and good for being selfish - if there were ever a time for selfishness this is it. I used to feel guilty almost when I was taking my "me" time away from the girls then I realized that the drinking was selfish - whatever I needed to do to recover was a positive step/

Cindi, sounds like fun. I had no kids last night. Was odd. For mothers day I asked that the kids not complain about each other to me for one day. 15 seconds later my 13 year old said "this is hard" - You sound back on track and grateful for it.

Time, keep on guard but I' sure you will surpass your previous best. well done.

Mary, I'm happy for you getting back on track.

As for me, today should be a quiet one - a run, maybe a hike, pick up my scattered kiddos.

Beck

[Popeye]

Sunday 18th May

Hello All.
I'm feeling a lot better in myself this morning.
Life is good.
I hope you all have a peaceful Sunday.
Day 4 today

[flyinhigh]

Sunday 18th May

good morning

Hello all- Sunday morning here and the birds are chirping....

This weekend was really tough for me, but once again I was able to find solace in the arms of mwo members.....It is so wonderful to have this place to come to for support. How lucky are we to have found this site?


May afer's.....I have a question....what happens at the end of May?
I am feeling that I have set myself up with a goal that has an end. I keep thinking about May 31st, I will return from a week long camping trip and I KNOW I probably will want a cold beer. I am already struggling with the ideas of do I "reward" myself or do I pat myself on the back and turn to June now? I don't know which one I want. I am feeling nervous about the end.....

I am on day 21...

flyin'

[on my way]

Sunday 18th May

Good morning,

Its pretty here this morning but think rain is in the forecast. I've had an interesting week and am back to square one. 50+ days and I blew it. Didn't do anything naughty or embarrassing....thankfully. Just the fact once I start I need 3 or more glasses reinforces that I can not mod. So day 1.

Hope all are well. Been very busy this week so I've been catching up on some of this weeks post. I am so sad about Bear. What a wonderfull man he was, my prayers are with his family.

So glad you Grandmas are having such a great time with your g-kiddies. Grandma love is pretty special!

Hope you all have a great week!!

on my way

[time2change]

Sunday 18th May

Flyin

You are doing so well. I can't tell you what you should do, but please enjoy your AF May without looking forward to after May. When you get there you will know what is best for you.

PS I'll be right behind you watching.

[Muddle]

Sunday 18th May

Good morning. Sunday is Day 7 for me. Yesterday, I was supposed to go out with a friend and decided to have 2 glasses of wine for an occasion. However, his plane was delayed in New York, and he didn't end up coming. So I stayed AF. How is that for Serendipity? It makes me more resolved not to make exceptions, but keep on going.

[retteacher]

Sunday 18th May

Flyin': I try to take my sobriety one day at a time, but I know that I'll never be able to mod. I try not to think about a future wo/alcohol, but I know there's no other path for me. All or nothing is how I approach booze. Mary

[Mohun]

Sunday 18th May

38 days and counting. It just gets easier and easier to get out of bed in the morning.

Listening to the grandchildren stories makes me want to dump, (I mean drop off), my 3 "darlings" at their grandmothers for the night.

I am jealous of the people that could attend the UK meet. Someday I hope to attend one somewhere.

:goodjob: to everyone.

Mo.

[Janice]

Sunday 18th May

Flyin...only you can decide what happens. When I first joined my aim was to do 30 days, then moderate. I did 42 then decided to set myself some "rules" and introduced drinking again. My rules were :
*no drinking weekdays;
*no more than 2 glasses per night;
*no topping up the glass;
*no drinking alone (my GP said to treat drinking alone like having an affair);
*no white wine, red only (I drank it slower);
*no drinking before 6pm
*no drinking in the bath (my downfall!!!)

I started off okay and stuck to my rules for the first 2 weeks but then I lost Dad, life got difficult and then...guess what, bugger the rules!!! It wasn't long before I was back on that slippery slope! I tried to moderate again after 50+ AF days in October/November.......the same thing happened, well actually it didn't cause I didn't even bother with any rules!!

Now, I totally understand that if I was a "normal" drinker I wouldn't need those rules and I totally accept that I cannot drink....in May, June, July, etc etc.

Do take care and think carefully.....each of those 21 days of sobriety have been hard earned.

Janicexxx