Thursday 22nd May

[Janice]

Though I'd quickly start today's thread. Don't know where Loppy is this morning, I need a weather check!!!

Hope everyone has a good AF day....I'm looking forward to seeing my husband, he's back home this afternoon after a few days away. Just rang the hospital, mam has had a settled night but I think she'll be in a couple of weeks and......this year, she may well not go home to my brother's care, its going to be a hard decision but one that will have to be made. My brother's doctors are concerned about him.

Looking forward to reading your posts later.

Janicexxx

[Loppy lugs]

Thursday 22nd May

Morning Janice & everyone

Just got up. I had a really bad day yesterday, so did what I did in the first few AF days and retreated to bed and slept it off. So a very early night (late aftrenoon) and a lie in which is very unusual for me.

I am due to have a really stressful day today and have not been looking forwad to it but.... yesterday afternoon I started having wave upon and wave of panic attacks. I know everyone keeps telling me that now I am sober real emotions will surface. For the record I am so not enjoying this bit.

Anyway I see we ended up with two threads yesterday. I'll read them both and do a proper post this evening.

I also genuinely mean to post when I am feeling bad so that people can help at the time rather than hide away, try to deal with it by myself and then the next morning say bye the way.....

Weather check.... Very middling but then I missed the dawn.

Catch you later.

[Pamina]

Thursday 22nd May

Hello abbers,

Janice - so sorry about your mum. You are in my thoughts.

Loppy - hang in there. Don't have any words of wisdom, just know you're not alone with the emotional rollercoaster.

I had a close call yesterday. Had an episode of emotional flooding and reached for a bottle. Luckily I'd stocked up on a non-alcoholic grape juice drink. It had been sitting in the house for 6 days with me ignoring it completely. Until I guzzled it all down yesterday. But hey, it wasn't AL, so I'm still on day 10.

In haste, Pamina

[cowgal]

Thursday 22nd May

thursday!

good morning Janice, my thoughts are w/ your mom also.:wings:

Hi Loppy, good to sleep in sometimes, I totally enjoy it, good on you staying AF even though you had a rough day!:goodjob:

Pamina, great for you staying AF yesterday w/ the close call, congrats! Awesome job on day 10 :goodjob:

everyone else to come, have a great day, best of luck to you all!

I am currently still struggling in more ways than one, but this too shall pass.....................

love and hugs!!!!!:l:h

MA

[Cinders]

Thursday 22nd May

Good Morning Abbers,

Janice, I know this is going to be a rough time for you with decisions about your mom and worry about your brother. Make sure you take care of yourself and spend some time each day just pampering yourself. You mom and brother are lucky to have you around and sober means you will be able to make the best decisions and communicate to the doctors, etc, about them. On the upside, really glad your hubby will be home. I know how much I miss mine when I am out of town.

Loppy, I have been going through a rough emotional patch myself. I was sick and then traveled to my current client. The airport and hotel in the evenings have been HUGE triggers of mine and my emotions have been all over the place. I went to an AA meeting last night and it did help a bit. However, the meeting is late and I am exhausted this morning. Oh well. This, too, shall pass. At least I am still sober.

Pamina, we have not met, I do not believe. :welcome: and glad you are here.

Mary, thinking of you.

Char, :h

Kathy??, I dont see you here much anymore. I do see you posting on other threads though. So sorry to hear about your kitty.

Well, I need to go and post on the ODAT thread and the subscribers daily. I have cut way back on my posting due to time constraints but please know everyone, I care and I am so grateful for everyone here. Without MWO and you guys, I very likely might be unemployed, divorced, in the hospital or dead. Not joking.

Have a great day,
Love,
Cindi

[4theboyz]

Thursday 22nd May

Good Morning Abbers!!

Sounds like we should be opening a lemonade stand with all the lemons coming our way today! I like to add some fresh raspberries to help sweeten the drink.

I am going to build on my momentum of 11 great AF days and toss a bit extra positive vibes over here to help push this day along as another *Great* AF day!

Stay strong and AF Abbers!!

[retteacher]

Thursday 22nd May

Hi Everyone: I'm doing well. For those of you who are having a hard time, I give you a lot of credit for staying sober throughout it all. I, as an alcoholic, must realize that difficulties are a part of life, & I can & must ride them out sober. Good for you Cindi, MA, Loppy, & Janice. Pamina, those close calls can so easily turn into a drunk-fest. Thank goodness it didn't for you. Give yourself a pat on the back. Remember back to all of the times the emotions did lead to drinking. For me, it wasn't pretty.

I'll check back later if possible. Mary

[charlee]

Thursday 22nd May

Morning all

Mary, glad you are doing well...For those of you struggling or going thru difficult times, I wish I could offer up some wise words. I can't...Mary is right, they are just part of life and how we deal can make or break our sobriety.....I still take it ODAT, still make no promises for tomorrow, just get thru today. The todays add up. I still have my pity parties, still have crap to deal with and if I thought a drink would help or make it go away I think I could be right there. I know it won't. Normal people somehow deal with horrible situations every day without even the thought of a drink. I am an alcoholic...I will never be normal (??)....so...it sucks for me, to bad Char, move on....
Hope everyone has a good day.......Think I'll hit the tanning salon!!!!

[DogLvr]

Thursday 22nd May

Loppy, Pamina and Cowgal - I hope you are all feeling better today and congratulations on making it through last night/yesterday.

Janice - good luck on making it through this rough patch. I posted on your other thread - and hope that you power through this like a winner!

I had a minor panic attack last night: was cooking dinner and hubby came in, picked up a bottle of wine (he usually only drinks beer) and asked if I'd like a glass (I haven't told him anything about this goal of mine). I said I was OK - he seemed surprised - poured himself a glass and left it in the kitchen while he ran to the store for one of my missing ingredients. :eeks:
I was freaking out! It was so beautiful sitting on the counter. I quickly turned to the fridge and took a spoonful of ice cream
I walked his glass to the living room - so it wouldn't be tempting me anymore in the kitchen - and it WORKED! awprint:

Long story short - I am now starting 22. That kind of test wasn't what I was expecting on the big Day 21 (supposedly the habit breaking day).

[on my way]

Thursday 22nd May

Good morning all,

Guess I have lemons too, another sinus infection. I'll be off to the Doc in a few minutes. Mary & Cindi are right, it's all part of life. I just wish my face did not hurt so:H
I think this is day 5, wish I got more excited about my anniversaries and mile stones, just not the way I work. I have a lot more fun celebrating others. Hope everyone has a great day!! Or at least a better day

On my way

[Beck]

Thursday 22nd May

Good Morning everyone,

Made the good decision to put my run in right after I take the kids to school. Not letting me stuff get crowded out anymore. I know some of you are having a rough time - good on you for hanging in.

Right now, my routines are shifting and I realize I am going to have to make some adjustments. My kids have been playing soccer for the past few months - 4 girls on 3 separate teams. Had been driving to every soccer pitch in the county nearly every night. Nothing like having to drive to keep me sober. Soccer is done...I'll have to adapt.

Loppy, the emotional rollercoaster is rough - but it is part of the process and the ride will level out.

Janice, take care - I know how difficult this time is for you.

Pamina - I still rely on NA beer sometimes.

DogLvr, sometimes removing yourself from the situation does help.

Cindi and Mary, I know you are having a bit of a rough time. The travel must be hell, Cindi. Be well.

Char - glad you are here ahead of me. Still gets rocky sometimes, huh???

4tB, read your posts yesterday. Stay strong.

Okay off to have my day,
Beck

[Mohun]

Thursday 22nd May

Morning all. 42 days AF now. Went to the pub last night for chicken wings (and a diet pepsi). Friends were all drinking, but it didn't bother me and me not drinking didn't bother them. My bill came to $5.00. That's way cheaper then the normal $30.00 it would normally have cost.

Good job to stay on the path Pamina.

Too bad about the sinus infection OMW. It will pass.

That's a toughy doglover. Good for you to pass on temptation. Keep it up. Although you should tell your hubby something about why you are not drinking.

Mo.

[Determinator]

Thursday 22nd May

Happy thursday ABoriginees!!

looks like some challenging things are amongst us. Good time to take inventory, count our blessings and keep our guard up!

I'm in new territory now and it's exciting and creepy all at once. now on day 106 with my previous record being 104.

be well everyone and don't hesitate to reach out if you need help. that's why we are here

[Hannah]

Thursday 22nd May

Morning all! Well, probably afternoon for most?.

Slept a little better last night. Still not a full night, but feel more rested today. At least not hungover!

Doglvr - I applaud you for what you did. It would have been so easy for you to at least take a sip of your hubby?s wine - that is a true test of determination, and you passed with flying colors. Have you tried any AF wines yet? They definitely are not the real thing, but look the same in a wine glass and sort of satisfy the ?ritual? part of pouring a glass, and holding the wine glass stem.

I also rely on AF beer quite a bit, and I wasn?t even a beer drinker before. Go figure.

My first real test may come this weekend. I am hoping my son will be coming to visit. He is not much of a drinker, but he is easy in that he mainly drinks beer. I can buy him a regular six pack and not feel any temptation to drink any of it. We typically did keep some beer in the house for him, and a six pack would almost be getting skunky before it got drunk, as hubby and I never touched it. The real test will be in buying some real wine. My Mom, Dad, and sister will be expecting it to be there. So I will buy only a 750 ml bottle, and hopefully it will be all gone when everyone leaves.

My antibuse arrived in the mail today. I have tucked it into a drawer, and will use it in cases of real temptation - as in, if I just don?t thing I can keep myself away from that real wine, I will pop into the bathroom and take some. More nervous about taking the antibuse than the temptation to drink, though. I think I will be fine, especially as I can drink AF wine and no one will know the difference.


Have a good day all, this is such a great and active thread. You sharing and fellowship makes this journey so much easier.

[Loppy lugs]

Thursday 22nd May

Well an evening post from me, that makes a change!

Firstly today was every bit as bad as expected but as everyone has been saying "this too will pass" and it did. Admittedly I only started feeling human about an hour ago, but now I feel all buoyed up. Actually I feel amazing.

Janice, hope everything is ok with the family, suggest hugging a husband to make you feel better. He is home now isn't he?

Hannah, The insomnia bit hasn't hit me at all. My brain is doing the exact opposite, when the going gets tough it sends me to sleep. As a drinker I didn't ever sleep for more than a few hours, so go figure!

Mohun, well done on your AF lifestyle. Your friends acceptance must be satisfying.

Doglvr day 21 and you broke the habit, you resisted. Good for you.

To everyone else, thanks for the support and words of wisdom. I know I have still got a long way to go but I truly appreciate the encouragement.

July232007... Day 300 Wow!!!!!!

Hope all others having bad days, have good evenings and if not there is always tomorrow.