Tuesday 27 May

[Loppy lugs]

Sorry folks overslept.

But birds singing etc so the world a pretty wonderful place.

May so nearly over that I am looking forward to setting myself new challenges for June including staying AF.

Haven't had a chance to read yesterday's post so wil come back again later.

Back to work but have a good day anyway.

[Janice]

Tuesday 27 May

Morning Loppy and all who follow........well yesterday saw a major milestone for me, one that I've never reached before and even if I do say so myself, I am rather chuffed with my little self!

Its taken a full year at MWO, a third attempt of that "switch" going down, the odd life crisis, and sheer determination but I've got 91 days under my belt. Its ironic that as I reach this milestone, mam is still very ill but this only reinforces the need for my sobriety...... there is no turning back; this is my new way of life and I owe this to my health, my life, my family......myself.

If ever there is a doubt or a "moment" when I'm tempted to have that first drink I just look at that bottle and see it as one big con. For one moment I see exhilaration, in reality as Allen Carr so rightly tells us, its devastation. I don't want devastation in my life anymore.

As we approach the end of May and the beginning of a new month, I know there will be a lot of people who will be ready to tackle Al and get their lives back. We are all different, from different parts of the world and what works for one doesn't work for another.

Whether its one day at a time, the "abstinence pledge" or any other way, one thing we all have to do is make that decision, accept full responsibility and do what it takes, what works for us. For me, it was accepting that alcohol could no longer be a part of my life, not just for today but tomorrow as well. I'm fully aware that the little monster still exists but I no longer worry about him.

So, if you are struggling out there, and you're not happy with your life right now.......you DO have a choice, this IS something YOU can control, make that decision and make June your month. Day 1 is the most important milestone there is so why not get a kickstart and make today Day 1??

Well sorry for going off on one there!!!!! Hope everyone has a good day. Will check back later.

Janicexxx

[Miss Behaving]

Tuesday 27 May

Janice;333208 wrote:
As we approach the end of May and the beginning of a new month, I know there will be a lot of people who will be ready to tackle Al and get their lives back. We are all different, from different parts of the world and what works for one doesn't work for another.

This is one of the things that I have really come to appreciate about this site. The fact that there are people all around the world who are struggling in the same way that I am and who are managing to learn how to deal with it. It is such a wonderful antidote to the feelings of being isolated that I have had for so many years as a result of drinking. The fear of what people would think about the "if you only knew what I was really like" person behind the competent, hard working, kind and careful exterior. And the feelings of failure that I had every morning that once again I had drunk too much the day before.

I've been trying to break past my "cave in at day 4 or 5" pattern. The last couple of times I've tried I haven't felt confident that I could do it. This time I have a kernel of optimism that I can, and I'm working on turning that kernel into something much bigger during the course of the week. I know I'll get lots of support here to do it and I'm enormously grateful for that.

mame

[4theboyz]

Tuesday 27 May

Good Morning Abbers!

Janice, I am so happy for you, your 90+ days and all your posts serve as an inspiration for me and I look forward to applauding your 1 year!!

I had a fantastic weekend, goofed off a bunch with the kids, glad to be back at work though as I need to calm down a bit.

Have a great AF Day everyone!

[retteacher]

Tuesday 27 May

Janice: Thank you so much for your inspirational post.

Aunty Mame, you & I can do this together. There doesn't have to be a cave in day. Let's get a jump start on a perfectly AF month of June. I'm getting my lemonade, soda, etc. ready.

Today I'm taking care to the boys & then taking my dog to his obedience class. There's a full AF day ahead.

Mary

[Beck]

Tuesday 27 May

Hello Everyone,

My long weekend turned out to be crazy busy. Didn't get to log on in the mornings as I had expected...

Had fun though, spent Saturday at the air and space museum then took the kids by the new house. Sunday, we all went to the beach and Monday family BBQ. The only time I really wanted a drink was a the family BBQ - something about being with the family that I'm from makes me want to splash vodka in my lemonade...good thing I didn't actually have any vodka.

Janice - 90 plus days for you and you sound so upbeat. Glad you weathered the doldrums and came out on the other side happy. You should be chuffed.

Loppy - in for another 30 days - good for you. Not always easy but well worth it.

Mame - 4-5 days is tough. always for me.

4tb - glad you had fun with the scouts this weekend. when I worked it always felt like a break to go back to work.

Looks like we will have a bit of rain today - no matter really as my plans were already scuttled by a sick kiddo.

Beck

[Mohun]

Tuesday 27 May

Congrats on 90 plus days Janice. That's quite an accomplishment. I'm about half way there with 47.

Beautiful day here (rained yesterday). Time to go do some gardening!

Mo.

[charlee]

Tuesday 27 May

Morning all
Janice great post!! Accepting I cannot drink was also the turning point for me. I fought a long, hard battle with AL. It wasn't until I finally surrendered to the fact I was beaten every time and I was fighting a loosing battle. I needed to make a choice either to keep getting into the ring and continue to lose, or throw in the white towel and go forward. I was scared to live my life without AL, but I knew I didn't have to many "do-over's" left in me.
I have been AF for almost 7 months and AL is with me everday. It is so vivid in my mind the horrible way I felt for a few hours of bliss. A feeling I never want to forget.
We are all different and will all have our own methods of finding a way out of this abyss. Choices...all about choices.
Hope everyone has a great day!!

[Doggygirl]

Tuesday 27 May

Hello Loppy, Janice, Beck, Mo, Mame, 4theBoyz, Charlie, and all to come, and anyone I might have missed!

Janice, CONGRATULATIONS on your 90+ days of sobriety. You have dealt with so much stress in the last year, and I am so happy for you over this accomplishment. Thank you also for your very wise words in your post. You are an inspiration to me.

Mame and Mary - you can do it! (the 4-5 day barrier)

Mo, Congrats on 47 days - I want to be walking in the place where you are by early July!

Charlee congratulations on almost 7 months - WOW. Thank you for the reminder that we DO have a choice - each and every time AL comes knocking.

It's Day 6 AF here, and feeling good. Thank you again to everyone here at MWO for your never ending support. You all help make sobriety possible for me!!!

DG
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[on my way]

Tuesday 27 May

Nicely put Charlee. I agree, it is a loosing battle. Excepting that fact I can't mod and knowing life will go on without al was a somewhat grim but honest reality. I am much happier when booze does not have grips on my mental and physical self. I keep reminding myself of that and hope I can keep plugging away.

We had a busy weekend, soccer, travel and my sinus infection turned out to be an abscessed tooth. The whole side of my face hurt, kinda made me feel like I had a killer hangover all weekend. Did not enjoy that at all. So I'm waiting to hear from the dentist, for the root canal I have been putting of for 6 months (yup, I'm stupid like that)

Doggie, is the a shepard pup over your shoulder?

Al free day to all!!

on my way

[charlee]

Tuesday 27 May

OMW...putting off that dentist thing....I can't tell you how many appointments I have broken over the years between the gyno, my eyes, and yes, the dentist. Went, but not consistentley. I always blamed it on someone or something else, needy hubby, work schedule, whatever...truth be known these are the people that look at you just a little to closely and I was sure that being the professionals they are my alcoholic haze would be quite evident. Procrastination is payback!!!. Going to have 2 wisdom teeth and a molar pulled this afternoon........
Promise to me....Make and keep my scheduled appointments!!!

[cowgal]

Tuesday 27 May

late post

Hi all, jumping in AF starting a little early for the June month though, need a few days practice first maybe??!! Had a HORRIBLY AL-ridden weekend, hubby loved having his drinking buddy back, something I need to address at my AA meeting tonight, how others deal w/ and unsupportive spouse who is "in your face" w/ it, having a blast (or at least acting like it!) and I always join in.......................I CANNOT AFFORD TO DO THIS ANYMORE!!!!!!!!! My health/heart/soul/mind cannot go on like this anymore..............

I am jumping in w/ both feet, feel like I have been trying unsuccessfully for years, and almost fruitless in trying again, but have a loving sponsor who says I am worth it and can do it...............so back again MWO and AA, need to do this.........

love you guys,:l:h

MA(feel like a puppy w/ it's tail between it's legs.......:upset::upset:...........)

[on my way]

Tuesday 27 May

Charlee, sadly the soonest the dentist could get to me is middle of next month. Mine sent me on to a specialist. Guess I'm special:H

All the good pain killers make me sick to my stomach....that is probably a good thing. So, I will be taking a lot of advil. Dentist told me a couple of months ago I needed this done but the tooth felt better, so of course I put it off. I am a major dumb a**!!

Lesson of the day!! Do not procrastinate.

omw

[Doggygirl]

Tuesday 27 May

Charlee and OMW...I'm right there with ya. As Mr. Doggy likes to say about me..."She put the "Pro" in Pro-crastination." Thanks for the sad reminder that I better get to the dentist before my teeth fall right out of my head. I can totally relate to the fear (especially with dentist in your face) of being "discovered."

Cowgal, I'm sorry you had a rough go of it over the weekend. You ARE worth it!! You deserve the peace and happiness that I know is out there for us if we can just dump the dang Beast!! It's good to see you again and I'm looking foward to catching up.

DG
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[vinophile]

Tuesday 27 May

Hey All,
I'm another late check-in and after being away for a few days I got "busy" and couldn't sign on (because everyone was around me) when I wanted to here. So, I did drink Sunday and Monday and am back on day 1 again. Along with the wine, I consumed a lot of weekend food so I'm feeling hefty from what I ate and bloated from what I drank....yuk!!!!!
Although, I'm disheartened by being back again on day 1 I'm grateful beyond belief for the good company I am in here.
I'm sorry I can't address everyone as it's late and I have to prepare dinner,of which I will hopefully eat very little.
Doggygirl, I'm so happy to see you back. You are so motivating.
Maryanne, you and I will be the cabooses on this abs train but we can do it. I blame my husband for "leading "me toward the wine on many occasions but I know it's my problem, not his. I am perfectly capable of saying no and he's certainly not pouring it down my throat. I'm curious about what feedback you get from AA regarding this.
Bad storms are passing through so I'll end quickly before I lose this.


Janet