Tuesday 27 May

[Cinders]

Tuesday 27 May

Hi, everyone. Jumping on late myself and hence cannot address everyone as hubby will be expecting some dinner.

I had a very difficult day today and managed to get through it without AL!!! Of course, AL isn't an option with the Antabuse BUT every single time I get through something that I would have used AL to get through, and I do it sober, is one more day I learn a little bit more about staying sober.

Vinophile, although my husband doesn't drink at all and would quite honestly ban anyone from bringing alcohol into our house, my daughter is faced with a similar issue.

I encouraged her today to get a sponsor at AA and ask about how to deal with this issue.

I do know that the Angel that came my way Saturday said that when she was first sober, her husband at the time was an alcoholic. She woke up one morning and found a bottle of tequila on the kitchen counter. She called her sponsor and asked what she should do.

Her sponsor told her, "pour it out, throw the bottle away and leave a $20 on the counter in its place." Hmm. Interesting idea. That is what she did and it saved her that day.

Love,
Cindi

[retteacher]

Tuesday 27 May

Cowgirl, Vinophile, & Aunty Mame: We're all at the starting post. If we're strong, we'll be where Janice & Charlee are. Today is one of those rare days that I feel absolutely nothing could induce me to drink. Someone could plop a big glass of vino or vodka/tonic in front of me, & I wouldn't be tempted. I couldn't feel better & am so thankful that MWO is here...particularly this thread. Everyone here is so supportive & tolerant of my struggles. I want you to know that I feel very committed (yes, I know you've all heard that from me already), but I really feel like I absolutely cannot & would not take a drink. It's poison in my system.

The memorial day weekend is very hard for me. My first husband was killed in the VietNam War in 1970, & that is just something you never, ever forget. Yesterday, my husband of 36 years spent a quiet day together. We tried not to turn on the TV, as taps & 21 gun salutes really get to me.

Again, today I feel very strong & grateful that I have you all. I write this w/tears in my eyes.

Love, Mary

PS: Janice, congratulations on the 90 day mark.
Charlee, you've been a quiet & steady inspiration.

I love you both.

Again, Cindi, many thanks for the great plane story. I go back & read it again now & then.

[Cinders]

Tuesday 27 May

Mary,

I feel the optimism in your post that has been missing for a while. This makes me feel great about your June abstinence.

I walk the abs path with you. One day at a time and with the knowledge that I must always stay vigilant with this.

One sign in my AA Home Meeting room says, "Learn to laugh again but never forget you cried." I always look at that sign and think.

Love,
Cindi

[Doggygirl]

Tuesday 27 May

Mary, I didn't realize you lost your first husband to the Vietnam war. I am so very sorry. I can't imagine the depth of sadness you must feel at this time each year. I'm so happy that you have a loving husband who sounds like he must understand how difficult this time is for you. I'm so glad you are feeling strong and confident today. We will keep marching forward for sobriety, right?

cindi, that is a good suggestion about replacing the bottle with $20. Mr. Doggy is not a drinker either, but I'm sure that suggestion will come in handy as it seems to come up a lot - what happens when one stops and the other keeps drinking?

Vinophile/Janet, it's great to BE back. I feel so good when I'm sober - so what the Sam Hill is my problem anyway???? I know that bloated / yuk feeling that comes from eating and drinking too much all too well. (sadly!) Congrats on climbing right back on the wagon.

I finally made a doc appointment with a lady MD who also takes a holistic approach to see what's up with my hormones. *warning - cover your eyes boys* I think I'm dealing with some menopause / hormone problems. LOL - this doc was recommended by my vet!!! My appointment is Friday and I'm very interested to see how it goes. *Ok boys - you can open your eyes now* So...I've got some reading to do so I'm armed with a list of questions. If I go over my 30 minute initial consultation, it's $5.50 for each additional minute!! :egad: Supposedly she's worth it.

Off to make some dinner and then wrap up AF Day 6!

DG
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