Thurs 29th May

[vinophile]

Thurs 29th May

Good Evening all,
Day 3 here and feeling better although I was indeed wobbly last night. We are all at such different stages of our AF journey. I'm so encouraged, Beck, that you say it gets easier after a few weeks. I really needed to hear that tonight.!!!!!
So many of you are such "pros" at being AF that it's easy,while reading through the abs threads, to forget the down in the trenches hard work each and every day was for you guys in the beginning. I'm still struggling(obviously as this is my 30th day three,at least) and I so appreciate your guidance and words of wisdom.
I'm such a planner that ODAT is hard for me to grab onto but I'm going to have to work on that. I often sabotage a midweek night fretting about a weekend event, which in the end is not such a big deal .
Maryanne and Cindi, I think I might try AA again. You both seen to get quite a bit from it. Each meeting is different so maybe I'll try another location. Thanks.

Have a great evening. I won't drink tonight.

Janet

[Determinator]

Thurs 29th May

back in internet range for an unknown period of time! Looks like many are doing great and some are just hanging in there...remember we really are stronger than we think we are. Just believe that and keep slugging through the rough spots.
This is our last night on the ship and then off to BC and Seattle. Living on board a cruise ship is like living in a bar. Al is absolutely everyplace you look. it's constantly on everyones breath and it's on every tray. it's promoted with such aggression that it's truly frightening. i've managed to do this trip without taking antabuse either. wow! I've had it close at hand mind you. I really feel like I've graduated from a huge test. Not that I will let this make me feel cocky and overconfident though...I know that itself to be a trap.

we saw dolphins today and they were just so amazing and cute.

be well friends!!

[july232007]

Thurs 29th May

Janet,

Great to see you posting. The midweek fear of Friday was a killer for me for a long time (years). I think the other part was: what was I going to do when that time came? Even early into AF days I wondered what I would do on Friday and Saturday night. That passed around 90-100 days. After that I just did what I do now on any night.

I have done some incredibly boring stuff that a younger me would have scoffed at. Ah, youthful arrogance. I also have done some selfless things I'm proud of. And, I'm involved in activities that are qualitatively different now that I don't drink. I like being sober all the time. The base line of AF has become quite comfortable and I have grown accostomed to it. Not overnight but in time.

Good night friends,

July

Day 308 AF