Another soggy and overcast dawn in the uk but I'm on good form anyway!
Day 30!!!!!
Someone was saying in yesterday's posts about us all being at diferent stages on this journey. I can honestly say that so far it has not been at all as I expected.
I didin't expect the early days to be as physically difficult as they were. Then later the range and intensity of the emotions that hit me were beyond anything I thought myself capable of. And I certainly never expected to end the month 12 pounds heavier than when I started.
On the plus side I have been surprised at how resolute I have been at quitting for good. The desire to be drunk is there often but there is always a little voice telling me that it is never going to happen. I want to thank everyone who has posted about their lapses because I see that as warnings about how I may feel in the future, the pitfalls I have to be wary of. I know I will need to be careful no matter what day I am on.
June is when I really start testing myself. I have hidden away for this 30 days avoiding most socialising. From next week it is back to a more normal life. So I will be back here posting about how difficult or straight forward it has been.
My first big event is going to Avril Lavigne with my brother. We don't live close to each other so he doesn't know about any of this. One of the things about not seeing people regularly is that they don't appreciate how much you have been drinking. They know that when they see you they have a big night out but they don't realise for you that it is just a regular day. Don't know how I am going to broach this with him.
Anyway time to get ready for work. Apologies if I haven't been very supportive of everyone lately. I have been in a very strange place if you know what I mean.
Maybe if we start getting beautiful dawns again, considerate, cheerful Loppy will make a reappearance.
Take care all, thinking of you all and hoping that today is an easy one for you all.
One last thing... DT I am still jealous!!!!
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