What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[changemylife]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

SpiritGirl;558631 wrote: I hate how flirtatious I become to people I would not normally "flirt" with...

I like this fact

I hate the fact that I have to think about drinking. I don't think about breathing, but I am addicted to air!

[southernbelle]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Thank you Peacenik....! I am three days AF and started tapering before that....have really been drinking lots of water during the day, hot tea at night....I am well.....the only reaction I have had was a slight headache last night....I never have headaches, so I don't know if that was withdrawn....but I have really been praying so very hard for forgiveness, and for healing....I really want this demon off my back....I never had much to drink until I was 40....and then after a divorce, stressful profession, and three children to raise.....well, I used it for medication....an now at close to 60, it is too much medication...and I have tried to quit before, but now with this much emotional help. MWO is great, I have learned so much and everyone has been super! Thank you again....H

[retteacher]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I'm so glad this thread is here. I need to know that drinking is bad for me emotionally, spritually, & physically. Mary

[wellseasoned]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I HATE feeling so bad about myself and so disconnected from my feelings. Numb and sad. YUCH!!

[aliciabutterfly]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

i hated that way other people saw me...as the perpetual party girl, Peter Pan in Delta Gamma letters.

[Seacailin]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate blaming my daughter's cat for breaking things, only to have my daughter tell me that I broke these things when I was drunk. No recall at all. Scary.

[Providence]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate

- Drunk dialing people and actually talking to them
- Knowing that they know I'm drunk again
- Hiding my drinking, if I'm going to drink I might as well not hide it
- Letting my house, yard and life get so very messy
- Pay a therapist and not yielding the advice
- Thinking I can just drink on the weekends
- Have the shakes so bad on Mondays that I have to drink tons of coffee to slow down
- Not remembering ANYTHING I've done from 5pm Friday till 5am Monday
- The way I smell after I drink so much
- Thinking 11 liters of wine in 48 hours is OK
- Bruises I don't know how I got
- Having no other interest in my life but the glass when it's full
- Waking up every 2 hours to drink a little more to go back to sleep
- Waking up every hour and half when I'm trying to sober up

I hate that I can't fix myself and go back to the way I was when I was just a social drinker

- Knowing I can't drink one or two
- The way it controls me when I think "I'm in control"

I think that's enough for now.

Great Thread - Did a lot for me tonight.

[peacenik]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

providence, this thread helps me alot...memory can get fuzzy after a while, but this brings it all right back to focus...i'm thankful for everyone's input!

peace!

[veritas]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate hating myself
I hate the nausea in the morning
I hate waking up with a hangover and wondering how long it will last
I hate not being able to turn my head in the mornings
I hate the feeling of dread because I cannot remember the night before
I hate sipping from other people's wine glasses when they leave the room
I hate stumbling across hidded bottles days after a binge
I hate the feeling of oppression as the alcohol wears off
I hate waking up fuzzy headed after a midday binge and knowing that I have half a day ahead of me.
I hate reading my posts after a night of drinking
I hate feeling anxious because I am wondering if the people I spoke to knew that I was drunk
I hate feeling fearfull because my children want to go out and need me to stay sober
I hate choosing a place to eat out around its alcohol availability
I hate being invited out by teetotalers and going into a panic

24 days AF today.

[Joanna]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate feeling like I am a different race to those who can just have one or two drinks.......
and I hate not remembering when I changed from being one of those to one of what I am now!

[A Work in Progress]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate being vulnerable to the idea that "having one or two drinks" is so important and wonderful that I might risk my life for it... I have done that before, and I am determined NEVER to do that again.

[Doggygirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

A Work in Progress;563333 wrote: I hate being vulnerable to the idea that "having one or two drinks" is so important and wonderful that I might risk my life for it... I have done that before, and I am determined NEVER to do that again.

Wow - what a great perspective to put that in. And that notion of "just one.." is EXACTLY what I gave up 60 days AF over the first time around, and then it took me about 8 - 9 months to get back on the wagon. And when I'm drinking, I drink heavily and certainly risked my life over alcohol.

Thank you for sharing!

DG

[aliciabutterfly]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

i HATE that i slept with people i wouldn't even want to sit next to on the bus.

[Joanna]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

DG and WIP

That fantasy about how gorgeous the first one or two might be...... I didn't own up to it fully on the other thread WIP but yes I can see it now! Got to break the connection between the pleasure centre and those thoughts.....put summat else in there instead. Off to have another cup of tea......

[A Work in Progress]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Joanna;563514 wrote: DG and WIP

That fantasy about how gorgeous the first one or two might be...... I didn't own up to it fully on the other thread WIP but yes I can see it now! Got to break the connection between the pleasure centre and those thoughts.....put summat else in there instead. Off to have another cup of tea......

Our minds are sneaky, that way, aren't they? The AA phrase that sounds so antiquated really has a lot of truth to it: "cunning, baffling, and powerful." And the road to relapse always begins with seemingly innocent "apparently irrelevant decisions" (that is Alan Marlatt's phrase, he uses it in the relapse prevention work he does), and some of those decisions early in the relapse process have to do with the thought processes that we allow ourselves to engage in...