What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[Doggygirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

:welcome: Emmy! Another former coffee cup boozer here. See? We're NOT alone!

DG

[SpiritGirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate not brushing my teeth before I go to bed...

I hate not washing my face before going to bed....

I hate not looking / feeling my best...I want my kids to see me at my best...


I have been reading and posting on this thread for months... I still get inspired regardless of how many times I read it...This is day 5 for me.... Im grateful for that ....(I WILL brush my teeth tonight..ha ha)

[one2many]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

BUMP!

[drylifeahead]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Thanks so much for the bump!!! Great thread.

I relate to 99?% of all the things posted. Here's a few! of mine.

*I hate the yellow in the whites of my eyes when I've been drinking
(always the first hint the night before I went way overboard, well no, the second third or
fourth omg)

*I hate the extremely dry skin from always being dehydrated

*I hate when my boyfriend would find the cans I'd hidden 'extremely' well during my drunken state
Yeah ok

* I hate thinking..where'd that $20 go, only to realize I made a run to the beer store
the night before when there was no!! way I should have been behind the wheel.

*I hate that I smoke my lungs out when I drink, and almost cough one up in the morning from it

*I hate looking in the mirror in the morning and wondering 'who the hell is that
looking back at me?'

*I hate waking up 3 days in a row with the same clothes on, too depressed to even wash my face

*shopping at different beer/liquor stores and HOPE they don't alternate staff between them

*the deep dark black depressions when I wake up and realized I overdid it AGAIN...

*turning the computer on to check the 'sent message' folder. The anxiety is so strong
and then the sick feeling gets worse when I read what I actually thought was clever and
smart the night before....'business ideas'-to my BOSS

*hearing my dearest closest sister say to me 'I love you but if you ever act like that again
I'm going to beat the sh*t out of you'

*not being able to ever walk into a nice bar/hotel whatever, because I made a total ass of myself the night before


*that I've called those dial a bottle places when I was running out, but still clear enough in
the head to know I should not drive. Erasing the dialed number on the phone because b/f would know I was a total loser..then waiting with anticipation for the arrival...HURRY before b/f gets home..drinking it all, and waking up thinking now why the Hell did I do that, amongst other thoughts!!!


*buying double what I normally would thinking it would carry me through a couple days, waking up to the sickening realization I had drank almost all. Did this too many times.


*breathing and almost tasting the beer soaked lungs. This is hard to explain..can smell it or taste it with each breath

*always having the 'flu'. My picture should be beside the description of the flu. Booze sick more like it

*using mouthwash in the morning because if I dare brush my teeth I will throw up. Brushing my tongue is out of the question until late afternoon if I hadn't started drinking by then.

*having an undercooked or!! way overdone meal because I'm drunk (trying to act sober of course)

*the 'no son, I can't afford that xbox game you want so badly' but I could sure as hell afford to buy the booze night after night after night....shameful

*that the 'edit' button we all have in knowing what to say when, completely shuts off when
I'm drunk, and the dread of slowly waking and 'remembering' what I said. Please God please let it just be a dream. Walking, or should I say dragging my ass out of bed into the
livingroom to the man I love who now won't speak to me.

Day 6 for me now. For all the above reasons. And my sanity, health which I pray I haven't ruined, and my dear boys.

DLA

[one2many]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Very Very honest post DLA. Bravo.

WELL DONE on day 6!! Awesome!

[Leelou]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the fact that I havn't been on this site since January,
I hate that I am still dealing with what 95% of what this thread is about, which I thank you all for sharing, cos' I don't feel so isolated
but all your posts will help me with my necessary changes I am about to embrace.:l

[DeeBee]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Never give up Leelou!!

[Doggygirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Today is always a new day. WE CAN DO THIS!!

DG

[oasis11lg]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

it helps knowing i am not alone in what i hate....thanks for your coments

[hellocookie]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

:new:I just started reading posts here and the tears began flowing....there are so many things I hate about my drinking...but most of all it's me! I can't understand why I can't begin even day one. I decide in the morning that I am not going to drink in the evening but, once evening arrives that thought just flies out the window. I just hate this, I feel like a loser...I figure "Oh I'll just have one, well...ok..maybe two"...the next thing I'm up to four. What the hell can't I count! Then the next day it starts all over again, of course with me feeling like crap and guilty as well.
Thanks for listening!

[MerlieMcFurley]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

tassimo;691461 wrote: These are great..i can relate to all. My biggest fear is when my kids grow up, will they just remember me drinking??? I'm hoping it's not too late. Today was my first day not drinking. Off to bed soon, hope I can sleep.

I've read this entire thread up to this point this evening. I am drinking. I hate what this is doing to me and my family.

I did not drink for 18 years after becoming a Christian, and my children grew up knowing that I did not drink. Now for the past five years they've seen me drink, drunk and acting horribly foolish. I wonder if they will remember that I didn't drink while they were growing up, or if they will just remember this horror of the past five years.

I do so hate this portion of my life. I know I will "get over it" as time progressed, but right now this is really really difficult.

[being me]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

:new:I hate the shame I feel when I know that I have goone too far.
I hate the shame of having to look at the people that I have gone too far with
I hate that I would rather end the relationship than have them look at me and remember my stupidity.
I hate feeling foolish in front of my children because they want me to stop
I hate that my children would not want me to dine with them and their friends in case I emabarrass them
I hate that I can be so strong in everything else but I cannot control this habit

[puddytat]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Carrying a small bottle of "Purell" brand hand-sanitizer around everywhere ... and lathering it on liberally in front of others.
... because the hand-sanitizer smells kinda-like vodka. A decoy.

[drylifeahead]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate how I USED to be able to multi task. Was a pro...now, not a chance. Things are slowwwlllly starting to get better
but I've really damaged my ability to focus on more than one thing at a time.

I hate that the incidence of Breast Cancer is more pervasive if the woman is an alcoholic. I am an alcoholic, and I hate that
it probably would still not have stopped me if I had read that years ago.

45 AF days today for me. I re-read this thread, great inspiration to fight the good fight!!

DLA:h:h:h

[shirazgirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Oh, there are so many to list.
The self loathing the morning after, I try to convince myself that nobody hates me more then me.
Waking up to find my husband in the spare bedroom because I've most likely been mean to him.
Checking my cell phone the next morning to see who I might have drunk dialed or texted (and having no recollection of either).
Having a client call me on a day I am hungover and barely listening to their needs over the phone because being awake is almost unbearable.
For making an ass out of myself and knowing it but not remembering exactly what I did.
My husband asking about "sexy time" the night before and not even knowing it happened (disgusting, I know).
Looking in the mirror and being completely disgusted with my bloodshot eyes, grey skin and bloaty everything.
Wishing that the trash truck would come in the house and find me on pick up day and throw me away.

THANK YOU. My life is so MUCH BETTER SOBER. ( I don't think I'm as funny at parties though :-))