What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[mere]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate drinking because I become a shell of a person, I hate that I gulp it down like a freaking lunatic thinking I can't live without the s**t. Sneak another full glass after gulping half down when I'm alone in the kitchen. Didn't wake up when my highschooler would come home and turn the light on (gawd that one kills me!). Go on vacation and just stay drunk, walking but drunk and spending money on things that the next day wonder why in the world I bought that. Forget what I've promised to do to friends/family. I hate drinking because I start feeling sorry for myself and think drinking will make it oh so much rosier by myself! I hate drinking because I drank in my daughter's downstairs where I was a guest and was so sick before going to the airport and she confronted me - gawd it was awful.

[okkslady]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

1. Spending Money on alcohol that could have been used for my son or even new shoes for myself!
2. Having people not want to hang out with me anymore because of my actions while drinking (lost many friends)
3. Waking up on a Sunday hungover and foggy....seeing other people enjoy their sunday with family and friends...
4. Choosing partying with friends vs. Hanging out with my own child

[angel77]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

A. Forgotten conversations/ people say "Yeah, you already told me that."
B. Waking and desperately checking my sent messages and recent calls made list on my phone.
C. Hundreds of dollars wasted
D. Friends no longer wanting to know me. I don't blame them
E. Taking wine from my parents bar and lying straight to their face about it
F. The embarrassment on my younger sister's face when out with her due to my action whilst drinking
G. Days of sunshine lost as I am laying in my bed with a bowl feeling like death warmed up. Too sick to move.
H. The person I become when I drink
I The feelings of regret, guilt, shame,

[Panno]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Losing a friend too young and dying a slow painful death...its not worth it ... RIP J x

[K9Lover]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Feeling like crap at work the next day.

Like I do now.

[BradyKelly]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

1. Waking up at around 2am and lying waiting for the bottle store to open for that fixer-upper. It was a very long wait.
2. Leaving my friend's house by just standing up, taking a beer, and not saying anything like thanks or goodbye. That was the clincher.
3. Working at home, it's quite easy to be at the bottle store at opening time and down two beers on the way home. That was so that I could work.
4. Drinking my first four beers in under 10 minutes on those really shaky mornings.
5. I don't get bad hangovers, but those morning withdrawals are one of the things I hated the most.

[Raven.joy]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hated the shakes and the tremors too

[Peachy]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate when it makes me throw-up! Prior to age 21, throwing up was due to a virus, flu or sun poisoning on one occasion. After 21, all alcohol related except for one bad reaction to general anesthesia....I'm over 40....
I hate when on a couple of occasions, I tried to hide slurring over the phone.
I hate when it makes me feel giddy at first and then down in the dumps later on.
I hate it when I take my dad out to lunch or dinner - he can stop at one or two drinks - I can do at least one more and then I drive him home.
I hate that I had 3 beers at a local concert a week ago- then drove to Duane Reade's and bought a 12 pack right afterwards.....Wanted to keep the buzz.
I hate that I try to use it for comfort, reminding me of better times, or transporting me to a "happier" place in my mind.

[K9Lover]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate that 4 days later I have bruises all over the left side of my body from slipping and falling in the shower while blind drunk. I cringe everytime I look in the mirror. But I am also reminded how much I hate alcohol!

[rebirth]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate how I still have a visible burn mark on my hand from four months ago. It's like a permanent tattoo

[sapphire1]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Everything, whats not to hate
It robs us of our money,our self respect, conscience, friends, family, jobs, health both physical and spiritual,
It puts us in a darkened room with the curtains closed, in the same clothes without showering for days, wont answer the phone, the bills pile up, the fear piles up, the sadness piles up,
It takes the delight out of a beautiful flower,
It takes away our interest in the things we used to do,
It makes us tell lies and sell our souls,
It makes the world seem like a strange, alien place, that somehow we dont belong to,
It brings dark shadows in the middle of the night and hideous hallucinations that take us into the belly of a hellish world

[Chillgirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the scars that are still left on the inside, but I'm working on them

[Mish]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Oh Saphire, great post. I really relate to being too anxious to get myself into the shower and staying in my pyjamas day after day. I'm a personal hygiene freak... what happened to me?
I hate the looks my daughter's friends from years ago when I was a real mess give me at annual events...they KNOW. It was really bad for a while. I hate it when I remember reading one of her school assignments about "My Life" and reading "My mother is a sad alcoholic."
I hate it that I can't take that time back and do it over, better, stronger, cleaner, healthier.

[ronaldolover]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate that I have done things I am too ashamed to admit
I hate that the reason I drink is so I can forget about those things
I hate that I black out and have to be told what I did
I hate telling a story and having someone tell me I told the same story twice already
I hate waking up with a "migraine" which is really a hangover
I hate feeling like a complete loser every morning
.....which is why I am AF and will continue to be!

[RedFingers]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

What do I hate about drinking? The same thing I love about drinking.....the high.
Its so damn addictive, but I have to remember, that light headed feeling is my brain cells dying!
That rush of a high is rushing me to an early death!
Those stress/reward drinks, they're pulling me under and keeping me away from a sober AF life because I will just keep going back! I'll find an excuse if I have to make one up! Enough already!

I hate alcohol and Im pulling away from its grip!