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    #406
    What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

    I hate that just over a year ago I was on such a high after being 3 months sober
    thinking I can handle this now...it's not hard...I can have 'a drink or two'.
    No indeed, it's not hard - it's hell.

    I hate having to go thru this again, and I hate the doubting myself-I'm stronger than this.

    I hate the fear of losing my new life to AL, and all it's stupidities listed above by myself and others.

    I hate that I am a functioning alcoholic. I hate that I fear it will get worse. I know it will. That's why I'm back.
    I hate that it took me a year to summon the courage to do it.

    I hate that my goal is January 1st 2011, and not right now...this minute.
    I hate alcohol, and it's seemingly unweilding grip on me.
    DLA
    Of all vices, drinking is the most incompatible with greatness
    Sir Walter Scott
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      #407
      What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

      Actually, I love that I fear it will get worse.
      It will. No doubt about it.
      I'm putting my toe back into the pool
      DLA
      Of all vices, drinking is the most incompatible with greatness
      Sir Walter Scott
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        #408
        What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

        SpiritGirl: I'm starting on Antabuse today. I'm freaking out here, but I'm going to do it! I always say that my only option (to not drink) is to not HAVE an option.
        "The Pessimist complains about the wind; the Optimist expects it to change; the Realist adjusts the sails."

        —William A. Ward

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          #409
          What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

          bump!

          I really want to read this thread now....and I think it will be good for other newbies!

          ff

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            #410
            What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

            another newbie

            what i hate:

            losing physical sensation
            waking up at 3am and not being able to get back to sleep
            forgetting conversations
            saying stupid things
            getting fuzzy headed
            getting emotional, maudlin, depressed
            being afraid someone won't like me if i don't drink
            being afraid someone won't like me if i do drink
            the disappointment
            the headache
            the loss of being in the moment

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              #411
              What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

              What I hate
              the loss of control
              the lack of sleep
              the weight gain
              the fact that my kid brings me a beer
              all the time i have lost in this world because I was F#@%^&g Drunk

              day 4 of AF

              Best to all of you Sparks

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                #412
                What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                The fear. The god awful fear in the mornings. No please tell me I didnt do/say that and of course I did.

                The appalling loss of dignity.My younger self would look at me now in absolute horror.


                Drylifeahead I just read your comment *turning the computer on to check the 'sent message' folder. The anxiety is so strong
                and then the sick feeling gets worse when I read what I actually thought was clever and
                smart the night before....'business ideas'-to my BOSS

                Im actually holding my breath on your behalf reading that.Its the stuff nightmares are made of isnt it? Hope there was a happy ending for you with that one.
                I am a sobriety tart. AA/Smart/RR philosophy, meds/diet/exercise/prayer,rabbbits feet/four leaf clovers/horseshoes. Yes please.I will have them all thank you very much.Bring them on


                There is no way the bottle is going to be stronger than I am.

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                  #413
                  What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                  Pride before Fall;974434 wrote: Speaking of hitting ourselves with rocks: I hate when I drain near-empties from parties the night before so the flat, warm, sour contents don't "go to waste." How gross is that.
                  Sadly, that was my first experience with alcohol, my parents would have a cocktail party and in the AM before anyone woke, I was seduced by the smell of the juniper in the gin and tonics and drained everyone's empties. I think I was 10.

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                    #414
                    What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                    I hate feeling ashamed of what I have done or said.
                    I hate making mistakes I know I would never make sober.
                    I hate driving important members of family and friends who I love away
                    I hate being controlled by the next mouthful.
                    I hate being out of control
                    I hate the depression
                    I hate the isolation and the way I feel
                    I hate wanting to close the curtains and not see the world
                    I hate the lack of energy I have after drinking
                    I hate that I know what peoples perception of me is
                    I hate im risking my life and livelihood for such a waste of time and money
                    I love the fact that this is the first time Ive ever written anything down and its actually making me feel better???.Day 2 AF?Onwards

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                      #415
                      What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                      Hi Pint,

                      Loved reading your post as most of them apply to me too.

                      You sound as if you are really ready to beat the beast.

                      So how are you doing ?

                      Luv Flo
                      Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take.

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                        #416
                        What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                        Gosh Pint you post really struck a chord with me! Good going on day 2.

                        Hi Flo how are you doing?

                        x

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                          #417
                          What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                          I hate the fact it makes me vunerable when I`ve had a drink, during the day nobody would dare say something that would offend me but feel they can if I have had a drink and I am that befuzzled by then I haven`t got a leg to stand on oh dear .
                          I`m doing really well thanks Chelsea thanks for asking :thanks:
                          Love Flo x
                          Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take.

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                            #418
                            What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                            First post (4th beer)

                            I hate all the times I got drunk and was mean to my wife. Her shortcomings are nothing compared to mine.

                            I hate reading this thread and knowing it's me. At least I'm not the only one anymore.

                            I hate that AL convinced me he would take my pain away but thankful when he double crosses me and makes it worse.

                            So much more to add. Made it through last week weekdays. Have to try again.

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                              #419
                              What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                              Hi More,

                              Well you are certainly in the right place if you want help, look no further we will help you every step of the way HONEST.
                              Walk away from your beer don`t you dare open that 5th can lol
                              I think you should post in the Newbies thread as you won`t get seen so much on this thread so please write there in a moment and then it won`t be just me trying to help and all my lovely friends will be there to help and guide you too.
                              Look forward to seeing you there
                              Love Flo xx
                              Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take.

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                                #420
                                What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                                I hate the immense guilt after drinking
                                I hate lying to my wonderful wife
                                I hate always driving drunk even though I've had an impaired
                                I hate the horrible headaches
                                I hate the anxiety I feel the next day
                                I hate the depression
                                I hate feeling powerless
                                I hate the thought of never drinking
                                I hate fact I can't stand the thought of life without drinking
                                I hate being weak
                                I hate not being a good husband
                                I hate being a disappointment to my family
                                I hate myself cause of drinking :upset:

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