What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[skinny cow]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

A very excellent and important thread. here's my two cents (or sense)

having to go to different stores to buy alcohol because i'm embarrassed the what the salesperson will think
sneaking extra drinks in at weddings and dinner parties
carrying around vodka in my purse
finding empty bottles in weird places
my husband finding empty bottles in weird places
not remembering going to bed
the lying
the dissapointing
turning into my father and sister
losing my spiritual connection

i must recheck this list next time i want a drink. and this is only day one for me

[Red]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hated coming home in the middle of the night to my husband after being out for hours and trying to "hold it together" and act sober in front of him....


ooh! And the damn guilt and shame I would feel the next day. (did you guys feel that way too?)

Also, when my mom would travel 4000 miles to visit me and I would start drinking in front of her at like 8 am.

[CS04]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

The shame, the remorse, the "this time I'm REALLY gonna get my act together" (which fades by 4 or 5:00), the "what time did I go to bed last night," "why is the vacuum cleaner out -- what got broken...."

[dlw]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

ALL THE ABOVE AND DITTO TWICE

[Delta Moon]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

bumpity bump

[last call]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the charly horses from being dehydrated
I hate the look the liquor store clerk gives me
I hate always being panicky
I hate my distorted face
I hate finding 15 empty vodka blts. in my bedroom
I hate waiting for the liquor store to open at 9AM
I hate not being able to write BC I'm shaking so much
I hate skipping dinner, so no one sees the shape I'm in
I hate waking up at 3AM and not being able to go back to sleep
I hate feeling like a loser
I hate pouring vodka into water btls. so nobody knows
I hate falling off my bike and gettiing all banged up
I hate losing things-gloves, keys, hats, jewelry etc.
I hate not being able to think straight
I hate how my family overlooks me on occasion
I hate how my son doesn't call me enough, if ever
I hate the money I have wasted
I hate having judgements against me
I hate being alone
I hate not having any friends left

[Cori]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

:new:

I wrote this out about 45days ago

Remorse
Lies
Lack of Controll
No Memory
Regret
Embarassment
Money
Prisoner in my own home
Aches and Pains
Weight
Paranoia

Can you tell I really need to stop?

[Delta Moon]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate how AL has destroyed my marriage.................

[shelley]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

thinking that ive been enjoying myself all this time when really ive just been completley miserable. how can you be enjoying yourself when you spend social occasions worrying about when the booze is going to run out and eyeballing the clock because you know its only 10 minutes til the shop shuts........

[shelley]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

i hate constantly worrying about what i have done because i cant remember

i hate hiding in the toilets at work because i feel so ill and lying to colleagues
i hate waking up alone because ive pissed my boyfriend off so much that he has slept on the couch
i hate not being in control
i hate stinking of stale alcohol
i hate the way my bedroom smells of alcohol when i wake
i hate that there is so much more to life that i have missed out on
i hate the way my boyfriend looks at me when i start drinking heavily

I HATE BEING A BINGE DRINKER:upset:

[Livewire]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

2008 for me was the year of the rollercoaster. I relapsed so many times I’m not even sure if I stopped!

I hate the depression.
I hate the anxiety I get at 3am in the morning in anticipation of the hang-over.
I hate the red, bloated face and matching eyes.
I hate constantly eating mints at work.
I have being unable to focus at work.
I hate hiding bottles around the house.
I hate the look on my wife’s face when she finds ‘yet another’ half bottle of wine somewhere.
I hate throwing-up until I feel like I’m going to pass out.
I hate the look on my 4-year olds face when he sees my throwing-up.
I hate the missed mornings.
I hate the missed work days.
I hate being full of regret.
I hate having to drink in the morning to ‘recover’ from the nausea, shakes and anxiety.
I hate drinking in the morning and passing-out in the afternoon.
I hate the lies and deception.
I hate the amount of times I’ve relapsed.
I hate the health implications of heavy, binge-drinking.

But most of all, I hate that I want to change but seem unable to.

Day 1 (again!) for me today.

[gkej0507]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

:new:

I hate wanting to change but not being strong enough to
I hate the headaches
I hate the insomnia
I hate the morning sweats
I hate yelling at my kids
I hate putting every gram I lose with exercise back on with alcohol
I hate eating crap when I'm drunk
I hate the thought that I could leave my kids without a mother because of alcohol

I HATE BEING WEAK

[shelley]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

i just cant seem to stop now i keep thinking up more things i hate...

the thing i hate most is that alcohol makes me take no pride in my appearance whatsover. getting up too late to shower or put make up on, not washing my hair and just scrapping at all back into a ponytail, wearing unironed clothes and not having much of a wardrobe as i'd rather spend my money on beer. othre girls always look so nice and prisitne and theres me with my greasy hair and beer belly. i used to be an attractive uk size 10 but now that girl has dissapeared... and i HATE IT!!!

[aprilmoon]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate:

Getting bruises that I have no idea how I got them

Passing out and waking up to realize I had a lit cigerrette in/near the ashtray that could have burned the house down.

Avoiding friends because I would rather drink and be alone while I do it.

Being a total hyprocrite at my church.

Having my husband tell me that he woke up at 3:30 AM and couldn't get back to sleep for my snoring and the gurgling noises I made.... knowing that I had just got to bed at 3:25 AM.

My husband having to drive himself to the ER during a kidney stone attack because I was to drunk to drive him.

So many more I could add....this is a good start

[aceofbase]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

feb

I hate backsliding and blaming it on stress.