What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[techie]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Alicia - Welcome. I've hated all those things too. You are in a good place here. Lots of caring people that share the stories, lend their support, and do NOT judge. Read, post, and ask as many questions as you can.

[betty boop]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

techie;871940 wrote: Alicia - Welcome. I've hated all those things too. You are in a good place here. Lots of caring people that share the stories, lend their support, and do NOT judge. Read, post, and ask as many questions as you can.

Ditto what Techie said ......

:welcome: to MWO ........... this is a fabulous place, you now have a 24/7 notwork of friends that totally understand how you feel and will be here for you ...... please stick around and keep us posted on your progress ........

Love & Hugs, BB xx

[prancy]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

BB, I just used your link and read your detox thread. That was quite a ride. I am impressed.

[not tonight]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Alice welcome, you are not alone. This is a great place for support and information. Just read, post and ask.

[alicia in trouble]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Thank you techie, betty, Prancy and not tonight. I have been using the boards since Sunday and reading voraciously. This place is amazing! Day 3 for me now which would be normal for me anyway as I wasn't an everyday drinker. I used to just drink at weekends but it got worse over the last two months and by Tuesday or Wednesday I would be getting something for a few drinks after work.

If I can get past the weekend AL free that will be a big acheivement for me. Thank you so much for your kind words and support. For someone who has been trying to cope alone and hide her drinking from all around her, it is great to be able to talk freely about it! :thanks:

[Hippopotamus]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the fact I it took me 20 years before I worked out I had a problem with drink.
I hate the fact I was blaming my health problems on everything except the most obvious thing - too much alcohol.
I hate the fact I have driven when well over the limit and I hate the fact that I know that makes me no better than someone who has run over and killed a child.
I hate that I've wasted my talents because alcohol has taken the place of doing anything.

I love this forum and love the fact its not too late to turn my life around.

[Trying46]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate that I cussed my mother out for the very first time in my life and I am 46 years old. I hate that I made a fool out of myself and embarrassed my family on July 4th. I was saying mean things.

I AM DONE WITH IT THIS TIME!!!!! 4 days sober today and I will keep a reminder everyday on what I did this time.

I am going to take the kudzu. Already read the book and still have it.

[Mariner49]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

This is a great thread! What I hate about drinking:
~I hate saying I won't drink today-then drinking.
~I hate not remembering things I said and/or did the day before.
~I hate when my wife asks me to cut back on my drinking and I just keep on as is.
~I hate the trouble that drinking has caused me (the DWI for example).
~I hate to think about what the alcohol is doing to my liver.
~I hate not going places or doing things because I'd rather stay at home and drink.
This list could go on forever, but that's all I can think of right now.

[itsmytime]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate how it takes over your body and soul. I quit for 5 years in the past and thought I could start drinking moderately...4 years later I am back to square one. I am not prepared to lose anything because of the evil liquid called alcohol.

New here, - day 2 AF.
thanks

[rebirth]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I have to bump this one as I forgot about this thread. This definitely kills my cravings

[Pride before Fall]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Newbie having a go...

I hate feeling ashamed all the time.
I hate that I go into another room to pour/open a drink so no one sees.
I hate how excited I feel when I leave work that I'll have a drink soon.
I hate that my kids and fiance know this.
I hate that I edit an alcohol abuse research newsletter then go home and get trashed.
I hate that I say and do things that hurt friends when I'm drunk.
I hate that I don't do anything in the evenings any more but drink.
I hate that I'm modeling this to my children, no matter how hard I try to hide it.
I hate that I used to be strong and pretty and am now weak, tired, overweight.
I hate how anxious and disappointed I get in social situations where there's no alcohol.
I hate how much I drink just to "get ready" to go out.
I hate who I'm turning into.
:new:

[SpiritGirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate that I joined MWO over 2 years ago and I still have not gotten it.
I hate the feeling that I am never going to "get it".
I hate being FEARFUL of never drinking again. Why can't the fear of continuing to live like this be more?
I hate being afraid of making an appointment (dentist, doctor etc) too early in the morning because I don't know if I am going to be hungover that day.
I hate missing most appointments that I make for the morning.
I hate all the times I've cancelled things with my friends because I am too hungover.
I hate thinking that buying only one bottle of wine will not be enough for the evening.
I hate how quickly I drink a glass of wine now. I used to SIP it.
I hate trying to pretend that I remember a conversation I had the night before - trying ever so hard to "pry" information out of a person so I don't have to admit that I don't remember.
I hate that I read text messages from the night before that I don't remember sending.
I hate some of the things I wrote in those text messages.
I hate waking up in the morning wondering IF and what time my kids got home the night before. What kind of mother am I?? Horrible!
I hate hating myself most of the time.

[Doggygirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

SpiritGirl, I can relate to everything on your list. I too had a real big fear of the idea of NEVER DRINKING AGAIN!! A slightly different version of that has helped me immensely. I really don't know for sure if I will ever drink alcohol again. There is however, one thing I DO know. I CAN NEVER DRINK SAFELY, EVER. Thinking of it that way has helped me deal effectively with not drinking, one day at a time.

After 60 days AF I relapsed. I realized right away what a huge mistake that was. But it took me 8 months of sheer hell - wanting to stop but not being able to stop. I know that feeling of frustration you are experiencing. (and all of this was after YEARS of saying "I won't drink today...." and then drinking anyway as early as the day would allow)

If what you are doing isn't working, be willing to try something else. Be willing to go to any length to get sober. If I can do it, I know you can do it too.

DG

[Pride before Fall]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate being FEARFUL of never drinking again. >>

Spirit and Doggie Girls, I so know what you mean. Why can't I be "normal"? No champagne at New Year's Eve, or my kids' weddings--never? How weird is that going to be?

The best answer I could come up with was that for some of us, after the first drink, we aren't choosing to stop or continue anymore; AL is. "First you take a drink, then the drink takes a drink, then the drink takes you. --F Scott Fitzgerald

Better to be the teetotaller at my kids' weddings than drunk stupid and humiliating them, I guess.

Hang in there, Spirit; there's no such thing as a straight road. {{{{big hug}}}}}

[not tonight]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I really don't know for sure if I will ever drink alcohol again. There is however, one thing I DO know. I CAN NEVER DRINK SAFELY, EVER.

Wow! That is it in a nutshell for me. I have been thinking lately about long term sobriety. What will I remember about the bad times in order not to cave into that "I can have just one drink." This is it.


Thanks DG! Have a great weekend everyone!