What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[Mish]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate it that I can't clean my teeth after a binge for maybe a couple of days and all that fur builds up on my tongue. I hate knowing that soon I'm going to get that toothbrush right in there and brush it off, right to the back, while I retch and gag and belch. Disgusting!

[newbie25]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

tip of the iceberg

* that Clear Eyes hasn't worked in months
* that I haven't seen my bedroom floor in a year because of dirty laundry
* that I never fold my clean laundry and it eventually falls off my bed and becomes dirty laundry
* that I've betrayed other people's secrets
* that I don't read like I used to
* that I think I am "high functioning"
* that most things seem boring to me without alcohol
* that I am boring to me without alcohol
* that I've chosen friends based on drinking compatibility
* that I forget the intelligent things I say late at night
* that most things I say late at night are not remotely intelligent

Day 3

[sobergirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I'm new here and can completely know how much AL has wreaked havoc.
How many times I've been late or not showed up to my son's basketball game because I'd rather
stay home on a Saturday night with my wine.
I am heading into my first weekend sober and am nervous but optimistic! Will keep coming here for support and help.

[newbie25]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Hi sobergirl,

I am on day 6, and it is getting better. Are you taking the supps? I think that is the only way I could do this. Highly recommended!

:welcome:

[southernbelle47]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

You go sobergirl!

We're with you!

[sobergirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Thanks! I am getting the L-glut tomorrow and ordered the All in One powder. So, will jump on them as soon as I can. Any other supp suggestions? This site is great!

[Pride before Fall]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

that I think I am "high functioning" >>

Oh, yeah...I'm familiar with that one.

Thanks for the reminder, NB25, and congrats on Day 6. Almost a nice, round week!

[Peacefull]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate how much of my soul AL robbed from me.....getting it back on my 33rd day.

[sobergirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate how as much as I know how bad it's affected me, I'm sitting here on a Friday night trying so hard to resist it's urge.

[Britches]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Delta Moon

Delta moon I so agree with you, I am a newcomer and am glad I found this site.

[sapphire1]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Welcome Sobergirl, Newbie and Britches:welcome: YOu have landed in a very loving, supportive group of people who know just how you feel and are here to help. Many on here have years of happy sobriety and can help us alll with our own. What I hate about al is the terrible anxiety after a binge when the world seems hostile and grey. I hate the destruction to my life, the lives of my children and family. I hate the way it is portrayed in ads as something glamorous when in fact it is evil and vicious poison. I hate the way it robs me of my self respect, pride and thoughts of others. I love sobriety:h

[BradyKelly]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

newbie25;967863 wrote:
* that I haven't seen my bedroom floor in a year because of dirty laundry
* that I never fold my clean laundry and it eventually falls off my bed and becomes dirty laundry

Wow. I am not alone, and this is even when sober. :H

[HoldingPattern]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

With hindsight, the commonness of our experiences seems obvious; yet, when caught in the grips it feels like we are alone and unique in our misery. On the surface, this thread is pointing out the ordeals and pain shared by abusers of alcohol (and giving us all great reminders of why not to drink). But just as powerful is the implicit message of hope and transformation potential it holds: that so many who have been exactly where you have been (or maybe are right now) were able to recover and reclaim their lives. You are not a special case that has no hope: we all have hope!

Ok, back to the main topic:

So it's strange, but before I read this thread I had never connected the gagging-while-brushing-teeth thing to AL! Never even crossed my mind. But I have noticed with my recent progress on being AF that this no longer happens to me anymore! Much better.

Other things to hate:
- that AL occupies so much mental space. It would SO NICE to have even just one day where AL never entered into conscious thought...
- how it rearranges your priorities without you even noticing
- when you finally notice (or stop denying) that AL has changed your priorities, yet you think to yourself, "ok, I'll just have to accept that", instead of thinking, "ok, I'll have to change that"
- that you'll continue drinking AL even when it doesn't even feel good anymore and you that later you're going to feel really friggen' terrible.

That last point was one of the things that catalyzed my motivation to really start addressing my problem. I remember clearly a couple occasions where I had just poured a drink, picked it up and looked at it with a grimmace while thinking, "I already don't feel great, and this is gonna' make me feel terrible, so I might as well get this over quickly..."

WHAT?! That makes no sense. That's like bashing yourself on the head with a rock for no reason. But it seems completely reasonable when you're in "the grip".

[rebirth]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Great post holdingpattern!

[Pride before Fall]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Speaking of hitting ourselves with rocks: I hate when I drain near-empties from parties the night before so the flat, warm, sour contents don't "go to waste." How gross is that.