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    #481
    What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

    I hate the way my thought process is completely scrambled the day after.
    I hate having 2 thread veins under my eye.
    While we may not be able to control all that happens to us, we can control what happens inside us.
    Benjamin Franklin

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      #482
      What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

      :bump:

      Oh, yes. That's a bump.

      I just read the whole thing!!!

      -S-

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        #483
        What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

        I hate AL, the creep.

        -S-

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          #484
          What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

          me too!!
          I have too much shit to do today and tomorrow to drink:sohappy:

          I'm taking care of the "tomorrow me":thumbsup:
          Drinkin won't help a damn thing! Will only make me sick for DAYS and that ugly, spacey dumb feeling-no thanks!

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            #485
            What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

            The past few weekends, it has been harder and harder to keep from having the first glass. Having read this today, and seeing myself in so many of the posts, I know I will be just fine!
            BHOG
            BHOG

            ?Alcohol removes inhibitions - like that scared little mouse who got drunk and shook his whiskers and shouted: "Now bring on that damn cat!"-Eleanor Early

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              #486
              What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

              I hate that I thought I was so smart when I thought up ( to "hide" AL) by......

              -putting it in water bottle, transporting it in my lunch cooler, so I could have a cold one after work without putting it in the refrigerator

              -buying it at different places so no one would know how much I did it

              -buying it early in the AM when no one else shops

              -trying to hide it in my grocery basket/ bag

              -depositing empties around town

              etc... etc... etc...
              I hate I was so stupid to think I was the one who invented the sneaky sneaky.
              -S-

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                #487
                What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                BHOG, me too. I know what you mean.

                Have you checked out the Newbies Nest? It's helpful for some people. There is also a Newbies Roll Call that is helpful for some.
                -S-

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                  #488
                  What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                  paulywogg;1478460 wrote: me too!!
                  Yay !!!!!! Paulywogg Yay!!!! Yay !!!!!!!!
                  -S-:cheering:

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                    #489
                    What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                    I really hated "the look" Mrs. BHOG would give me the next morning. It meant I had really screwed up, and would be paying for it for days to come. So naturally, I would jsut go have another drink...at 10 AM. And then the arguement would start, and go on and on.
                    So glad it's over.
                    BHOG
                    BHOG

                    ?Alcohol removes inhibitions - like that scared little mouse who got drunk and shook his whiskers and shouted: "Now bring on that damn cat!"-Eleanor Early

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                      #490
                      What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                      I hated making those phone calls to a friend... what did I do last night?

                      I hated that sometimes my brains shut down but I was still drunk and walking around fucking things up like some weird alkie zombie

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                        #491
                        What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                        I hate that my whole body goes red, my feet get extremely itchy and the next day I have diarrhea if I don't consume 2-6 Immodiums before I go to bed.
                        I hate that I have no idea what 2-6 immodiums a day was doing to my body that already has a gastrointestinal problem.
                        I hate that I gained 65lbs from drinking over 6years,smoking weed,binge eating,drinking copius amounts of crystal light to stay hydrated, drinking energy drinks all day at work to stay awake.
                        I hate that relationships crumbled becuase of it.
                        I hate that I became my abusive alcoholic step father.
                        I hate that I've hit my boyfriend while wasted.
                        I hate that I still did it regardless of all these reasons.
                        I hate that I hallucinate when I drink to much, and always cry run away and become mildly violent.
                        I hate that I almost got friends arrested for trying to "abduct and rape me" because I ran away and they chased me and when the cop asked, I forgot their name.
                        I hate that I would "get changed" and forget to put clothes back on and stay up till 6 am on the computer naked untill my parents found me. I hate that the computer was sometimes off and I was sitting their typing to no one.
                        I hate that I let men take advanatage of me when drunk.
                        I hate that a 40 yr old man made out with my brain dead carcass on a bus when i was 16.
                        I hate black outs when Im still awake and then "opening my eyes" to things like old farts molesting me... even though I was awake the whole time.
                        I hate that I brought booze to class in highschool.
                        I hate that my drinking enables other peoples drinking.
                        I hate that I couldn't make friends with out alcohol.
                        I hate that alcohol is legal as a means of controll via the government, keep the poor, poor and the stupid, stupid.
                        I hate that I was everything I hate.
                        I hate that I stopped painting, stopped writing, stopped all my creative outlets because I couldn't do them drunk.
                        I hate that I went to my grandpas for a month and was wasted everynight bymyself crying on the floor with our dog.
                        I hate that I thought it was a good idea to practice driving to make my grampa happy. Thank god I came to my senses before I crashed his car.
                        I hate that anytime my friends came over they would bring booze, because I was the "party girl"
                        I hate that my friends constantly want to trade services for booze, instead of pay me.
                        I hate that after telling my bf to hide it after I drink too much I would find it or threaten him to give it to me.
                        I hate that it seriously harmed my health.
                        I hate that I was constantly a grumpy bitch to my coworkers clients and family.
                        I hate that the longest I ever didn't drink for was 19 days in the past 4 years.
                        I hate that the best I've ever done is 15 coolers in 8 weeks
                        I hate that I used to drink that in 3 nights.
                        I hate that I cut myself when I drink.
                        I hate that I have little scars all over my arms and legs that I have to constantly hope no one notices.
                        I hate that I have to blame my darling kitties when they do.
                        I hate that I know they don't believe me.
                        I hate that every single time I drink I go from, happy, sad, to despair, to blaming others and seeing red and imagining hurting people, to feeling guilt and shame and imagining killing myself instead or self mutilation.
                        I hate that drinking ruins lives.
                        I hate that I had influence on my little brother thinking it was okay to drink when he was 11.
                        I hate that my family bonds over beer and whiskey.
                        I hate that I lost 6 years of my life.
                        I hate that I didn't have the strength to make choices to make my life happy and deal with depression and instead ran away and made them worse by nursing the bottle.
                        I hate that I was so stupid I didn't even realize it.
                        I hate that my list is the longest.

                        I am glad that I am only 23 and have realized I don't need alcohol or clubs to be "cool" and "glamorous"

                        I'm painting, tutoring, learning punjabi, seeing old friends, quitt drinking energy drinks, smoking, smoke less pot, drink minimal pop and juice and attempting to quit drinking again. Im spending time with my family and pets, and when Im 50 I won't look like a 70 year old crack head.

                        Im so glad I have a friend who took my to my first Na meeting and helped me turn my life around
                        Fuck faith, you change your life. Be strong.

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                          #492
                          What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                          Dear I became,
                          It took a lot of courage to write this post -- to acknowledge all the damage that AL does to ourselves and to others. I also salute the fact that at 23 you recognize alcohol for the useless poison it is and are working to rid yourself of this addiction. I am now 55 years old and wish I had the good sense you have.

                          There is a group of us (in the Starting Out section) working toward an AF October. Why don't you join us. Also, the Newbies' Nest is a great place for people just starting out. And, a lot of people start their own tread, an accountability journal if you will, as a way of posting their progress.

                          I have tried to quit probably 8-9 times during the last three years. This time feels different, I'm up to 75 days AF. Every morning I wake up grateful for not drinking the night before.

                          There are many people on MWO with years or months of sobriety. They have been very supportive to me in this journey and I believe you will fiind the same.

                          Look forward to reading about your progress.
                          Free at Last
                          "What you seek is seeking you." -- Rumi

                          Highly recommend this video
                          http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html

                          July 19, 2013 -- the beginning of being Free at Last

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                            #493
                            What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                            I hated hating myself...every morning!
                            I hated worrying about every possible disease I would eventually get from drinking.
                            I hated feeling utterly alone, even with people around.
                            I hate that it LIES to people and makes us believe that we will be miserable without it.

                            And I love that I learn more and more about people who are refusing to give up or in to alcohol today!!!

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                              #494
                              What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                              I hate not remembering things the next day.
                              I hate waking up at 3am with anxiety so bad my arm is numb and it feels like a heart attack.
                              I hate that society portrays alcohol as cool.
                              I hate that tv doesn't show the truth about how drunk people act.
                              I hate that society treats addicts like lepers.
                              But I love my new sober life.
                              No matter how far you go or how fast you run, you can't get away from yourself. ....said at an AA meeting. It stuck with me.

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                                #495
                                What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

                                OMG IBecame!

                                Your post is deeply deeply inspiring. :h
                                I'm so glad you started writing again because you clearly are gifted. Whe got t the part about you're only being 23, I was up and cheering like at the end of Rocky!! :yay:

                                I really hope you make MWO your new home. You are invaluable here already. :l
                                On My Own Way Out Since May 20, 2012
                                *If you think poorly of yourself, you can fail with a clear conscience.
                                https://www.mywayout.org/community/f11/tool-box-27556.html tool box
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