What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[Cinders]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate how drinking makes me feel so lonely and isolated. It hurts.

[Doggygirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate Al constantly trying to whisper in my head. I believe that the further down the AF road I get, the less persistant Al will be. NO drink is worth coming back (again) to this place where AL is so loud and obnoxious.

DG
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[Wobbly PoP]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate telling myself that I quit in the morning and then on my way home from work in the aft I pick up yet another case of wobbly pops and drink them all. I am messed up?

[retteacher]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hated saying over & over again: "I'm going to stop today..." only to start up again in a day or 2.

[sasha]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Oh! You are so funny...

Larisa;337640 wrote: -running out of booze before I'm passed out - having to drive to go get more
-not having any on Sunday when the liquor store's closed and I thought it would be nice (!) to have a sober day
-not being able to commit to things with friends because I know I'd rather drink
-lying
-having to get chores/errands done fast so I can drink
-not doing chores/errands because I want to drink
-30 pounds on my ex-lean, athletic body - who is this???
-my teeth wearing sweaters in the morning
-throwing up
-being broke
-lying
-constant dieting that doesn't work anyway
-trying to act sober on the phone
-screwed-up sleep schedule
-constant dehydration
-lying
-fuzzy head
-forgetting entire conversations/trying not to let it show in subsequent ones
-bathroom issues - both extremes - nuff said
-guilt
-trash cans full of more wine bottles than the liquor store and enough corks to get the cast of Lost off the island
-realizing I spent 3/4 of the weekend passed out, and it was beautiful outside
-being a slave

I could go on and on and on. I know we all could. But I have such high hopes for this program. I started the cds, supps, etc, and topa not too long ago - so far no side effects except for Diet Coke tasting nasty (175 mg). Woooohoooo! I love this place. Sorry for such long post. I have - ahem! - strong feelings about this subject.

What a great list! I was laughing and almost crying at the same time. Best of luck to you!
Sasha

[Doggygirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate knowing how badly I have abused my body. I hate the fear - wondering if I stopped in time for my body to heal, or if I might face life altering / shortening consequences.

I want to think about this very seriously every time I get all whiney *wishing* I could have a date with AL and resenting that other people *can* and I *can't* AL TRULY IS POISON!

I HATE PUTTING POISON IN MY BODY. I HATE WISHING TO PUT POISON IN MY BODY.

DG
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[CS04]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Waking up with yesterday's clothes on (including the underwire bra). Or, worse, putting pajamas on at 4 am in case hubby wakes up before me and notices.

[Tiny]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

drinking wine after having 15 AF days under my belt... I drank for no reason... I hate drinking for no reason...

oh and CS04 sleeping in an underwire bra sucks!

[CS04]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Tiny, I crashed at day 14 too...must be something about that halfway to 30 point. I'm not going to let it derail me, though. Hope you're doing better.

[Fresh Hope]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

This is the best thread I have read at MWO and I think most of them are great but this thread really does it for me!!

1. that I contribute to my depression because I drink
2. that I contribute to my weight, 40+ lbs to lose, because I drink
3. that I contribute to my 18 year old?s binge drinking habit because he sees me drink :upset:
4. that I contribute to my 24 year old?s binge drinking habit because she sees me drink :upset:
5. that I contribute to my boredom because you can?t go out and drink someone might figure it out
6. That I deny my self good health
7. that I am actually in this sad state since I do know better, see below, and did not start this habit until mid-forties!!

? I am the daughter of 2 alcoholics
? Step daughter of an alcoholic
? Sister of 2 alcoholics
? Niece of 3 alcoholics
? The granddaughter of 2 alcoholics
? The wife of a sober alcoholic (15 years) that I helped/ forced to become sober and now I can?t do it for me... for him I had no AL in the house for 10 years, I gave up our social life because he felt uncomfortable with all of our friends, he didn?t want to explain no AL, so goodbye social life. Now it is really too late to re-enter social scene and most people that drink, (and that would be almost everyone we have ever known) are not comfortable around him because he doesn?t drink. Getting off track here, but I was the perfect supportive wife, he worked hard at AA, wouldn?t occur to him to drink now and he knows my habits and says nothing, actually rather an enabler, wine store runs etc,. Long story to say can?t do for me what I did for him...HATE THAT about myself! :mad-door:

8. Hangovers
9. Lying
10. hiding
11. sneaking
12. wasted time
13. Headaches
14. shame, shame, shame :headbanger:

Thank All for this thread!! :thanks:
FH

[Cherbear]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Wow, reading all these has brought tears to my eyes because I see me in ALL of them.
Unbelieveable!!! we must band together and stop the fight.
the thing I hat the most is saying I'll stop and then re-start... ugh

[endgame]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Going to work hungover, still half-drunk, trying to act normal, wondering if anyone can tell, constantly clearing throat, trying not to slur/stutter, worried that you won't be able to stop yourself from puking on your desk, or that people will notice you puking in the washroom, avoiding conversations because you're worried that someone will notice how messed up you are, getting absolutely nothing done - and then going home and passing out.

[Melissa]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I have read page 1 through page 6. Tears falling down my face!

I get it.
I wish that I didn't
... I wish NO ONE did!

Keep the faith guys!!

[toughintexas]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Fresh, tell friends that hubby has an ulcer, or gastitis, or whatever and that's why he doesn't drink, its never too late to regain friends, or make others that don't drink, if the only friends you have are so into drinking, they probably have a problem too! I totally understand your situation, I too, never over-indulged and only started in my late 30's, and I have an ex-hubby, that I got sober! Go figure! I think you may be bored, and using alcohol to medicate lack of interaction out in the world! Hubby should help you as you helped him, ask him, tell him! I too inherited the condition, its just like having diabetes, or something else, its a disease, BUT, we can cure this one! You will do this, and you will do better if you change your "habits" and get out and do something else, outside of the house....volunteer, go to an adults class on something you'd like to know about, serve meals at a soup kitchen, whatever! You can help your kids by example in the positive too, don't beat yourself up over that, they could've inherited the problem, even if you never abused alcohol ever.....Beat the Beast! Become what you Believe! Love you and glad you are here!

[Evie.Lou]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Sign me up for most all of the reasons stated above and add that I hate the idea of a God Damned bottle is stronger than I am !!!!!!!