What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[spottydingo]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the money spent, years wasted, health lost.
I hate the lack of focus in my life and the fact that I haven't achieved much of my potential.
I hate the disappointment on my dog's face when he realizes I'll be spending another day on the couch.
I hate all the classes, dinners, weddings, flights, concerts, events, family gatherings, etc., missed because of hangovers and the lies we've come up with as excuses.
I hate laying in bed or on the couch all day, especially when its beautiful.
I hate going on vacation and then not doing much because I'm hung over.
I hate laying in bed feeling like the earth could swallow me up and I wouldn't really care.
I hate having to alternate the places we buy wine and who buys it (me or hubby) so its not obvious we are going out 2x in one evening, though I'm sure our neighbors must wonder.
I hate when hubby and I fight over something completely stupid.
I hate that I made a drunken idiot of myself in front of my family the night before my sister's wedding and therefore could not enjoy her wedding ... my father has still not forgiven me for it, nor have I forgiven myself.
I hate the insidious feeling that comes over me at 4:30 because I want some.
I hate that AL makes me hate myself.

[Peacefull]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the awful anxiety that I always experience the next day

[CS04]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Bumping this for newbies....and for myself to reread.

[peacenik]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

SpiritGirl;337398 wrote: 1. I hate the smell of stale alcohol in my pasty mouth the morning after.
2. I hate forgetting conversations I have with my children.
3. I hate going into work late with blood shot eyes.
4. I hate the dehydration the next day
5. I hate the 30 pounds I've gained.
6. I hate the puffy face and bloated hands and belly.
7. I hate staying in bed on a sunny beautiful morning because I'm too hungover.
8. I hate the overwhelming guilt that wakes me up too early in the morning - gnawing at my heart like a dog with a bone.

I could go on and on...I wish I could quit...

did i write that?

i also hate hiding my wine on the porch and slamming as much of it as possible while my family was in another part of the house

i hate sneaking to the hotel bar and slamming a few shots (i don't drink hard alcohol, right?) before going to dinner with my husband who thought i was af

i hate cracking that second bottle of wine knowing i won't have just one more coffe cup/ gulping mouthfull!

i hate driving 30 extra miles to go to other liquor stores so people in my small town won't "talk"

i hate alcohol for how i act when i ingest it

i hate it for helping me gain the 40 lbs i lost back

i HATE HANGOVERS

i hate that i'm scared that my husband will read this and feel totally duped by his alcoholic wife

whew

[ezzmae]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Some universal hates out there.

I hated the taste of stale AL in the morning.
I hated being paranoid someone could smell it off me.
I hated being hungover.
I hated the money spent
I hated the time not better spent with my kids.
I hated the bloated face.
I hate the beer belly (this one is still not gone).
I hate the worry about the damage that I was doing to my body.
I hated the fact that I was grateful to actually wake up at all.
I hated the depression and the mood swings.
I hated the weekly weight swing and overall weight gain.
I hate lying to my family about taking sleeping pills.
I hate not answering the phone past a certain time.
I hate the fact that my husband can moderate but if I have a drink with him it turns into a binge.
I hate lying awake in the middle on the night wondering how I will stop.
I hate the million promises that I made on mondays only to break the next saturday.
I hate the fact I was sneaky enough to build my friendships so that my weekends were free to drink.
I hate the fact that nearly every decision made in the last 8 years has been based around AL.

Most of all I hated the person that I had made me become.

[peacenik]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

bumpity bump

[keg]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Oh this has helped me accept how I really hate drinking (so WHY do I do it!!??) I HATE:

Putting my kids in harms way (driving them around after drinking)
Having to hide the drinking
Forgetting appointments, conversations
Dissapointing my husband
My fat bloated belly
HANGOVERS!!!

[Seacailin]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the Anxiety that I feel that keeps me drinking
I hate the nausea, bloating, diarrhea
I hate the lies and guilt
I hate the aching and exhaustion
I hate disappointing my family and my dog.
I love being AF 69 days.

[Beaches]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Lots of great stuff here and here are some repeats for me:

I hate losing memories of the night before
I hate waking up the next morning trying to peace together the previous night
I hate not talking about anything the next day that I may have talked about last night and forgot
I hate not remembering who put my kids to bed or when I even fell asleep.
I hate waking up in the middle of the night to put on my PJ's so I just look normal in the am.
I hate being a prisoner to my house and making my kids prisoners too.
I hate chugging instead of sipping wine to get it all down before hubbie sees me.
I hate hair of the dog.
I hate having to have a drink to feel better and then start the whole damn cycle over again.
I hate drinking therefore I am AF.

[SpiritGirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I have been reading this thread for months now, and it never ceases to stir me .... Inspiring and reminding me of the sad affects AL has on many of us...

1. I hate the constant broken promises I make even to myself ( Starting TODAY, I won't drink for 30 days). I think I say that every Monday. I"ve lost credibility even with myself.

2. I hate "pretending" the next day that I don't feel bad. After all, I didn't drink THAT much... Sure

3. I hate putting my points on Weight Watchers online tracker... I lie even to my computer.

4. I really hate the red eyes (I know I keep repeating this, but if eyes are the window to your soul...geesh!!)

5. I hate that my wine glass seems to have a slow leak in the bottom. It is always empty quicker than anyone else. Even my friends' glasses, who in my opinion, "drink too much"...

6. I hate that I cant accept compliments... Because I always feel so down on myself I have a hard time believing anything good about me...

I hope to be like Beaches and Seacailin... And even though you are AF I think it's awesome that you remember the "hates" and that you share them ... Thank you

[tuesday]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Haven't drank alcohol in 14days-Going strong

-MEMORY LOSS HAS TO BE NUMBER ONE FOR ME.
who wouldn't want to remember the face of the guy who so kindly took her home after she was too drunk to drive (I mean vomit all over the dash board and wind shield too drunk). While vomiting in the toilet of my apt he jacked off on my bed then dashed out the door(that hurt). I did do laundry as soon as I woke up, but I was helpless against passing out near the pool of 'cum', yeah! that was me. again, that hurt, and I have no clue of his face.

- POTENTIAL OF DRIVING WHILE DRUNK
Not often(like 1% of all trips) but I admit and repent.
worst feeling for me-disrespecting my vehicle and disregarding human life

-WIEGHT/FAT GAIN
my chin got prego and had another chin. This hot mama is starting to look like poop.

-REGRETS
I wish I did not say that.
I wish I did not do that.

-CLEANING VOMIT

-FALSE SENSE OF SELF IMAGE
Please get dressed first and then get drunk, not the other way around

-HAVING TO SHOP AT SEVERAL DIFFERENT LIQUOR STORES
too ashamed to go to the same one often.

-VIRGINIA- I LOVE IT THERE, REALLY
why drinky? you can buy wine at the CVS/Walgreen

-ALLOWING MEN TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME
drinking screws up my emotions. Resulting in getting in a relationship I have no business being in, or plain staying in a bad one for far too long. Or me just being a slut.

[Beaches]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Welcome Tuesday and congrats on 14 days AF (alcohol free). Sounds like you are feeling better all the way around without alcohol.

[MyChoice]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Hello everyone, it has been a long while since my last post. I missed you all so much! Happy to hear you are doing so well. Really-Really proud of each of you!

I hate feeling guilty the next day.
I hate myself for not being strong enough to stop on time.
I hate that I lie to everyone around me by pretending that things are fine, where in reality they could not have been any worse.
I hate guessing and trying to remember what i had done or said the night before: Do I still have freinds? Did I hurt anyone's fellings? How did I get home?
I hate that Iam so dependent on AL.

[Cherbear]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Hello everyone,
This was a great thread, I'm going to make my partial list so I can keep looking at it when I need to

I hate waking up ashamed for drinking too much
I hate that I argued and screamed at my husband for stupid things and criticized for no reason
I hate that I used to drive drunk taking my kids to their activities
I hate trying to hide the wine glass walking past my husband.. like he didn't see it.
I hate constantly thinking about have my glass of wine when I got home from work.
I hate going to the store for wine and lying to my husband saying I needed something else.
I hate the bloating , puffiness.
I hate the loss of memory.. never remembering the movies watched. stuff I'd said.
I hate the numbness, checked out feeling
I hate waking up in the middle of the night needing to chug water.
enough for now....

[Delta Moon]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Today I am celebrating my 14 day AF. I hate the person I became as an alcoholic. I hate the
deception
loss of memory
driving with one eye closed so the road was straight
going to church every Sunday hungover
starting fights
the shakes
dependent on my 'fix'
hiding wine in the car
sneaking
coming up with reasons to have a party
pushing others to 'join in on the fun'
missed chances to play with my kids
forgotten promises
half assed work
broken dreams
hating myself
and the biggest thing I loathe about AL is disappointing God

Thank God for forgiveness