What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[Trying Tessie]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I just foung this. I wish I would have seen this posting earlier.

1) I hate figuring out what I can drink before I go to an event that will not serve AL.

2) I hate worrying about AL all the time.

3) I hate having to get help for AL.

4) I hate being called a drunk behind my back

5) I hate not feeling worthy to go to church and not worthy to pray for someone who ask me to pray for them.

[Trying Tessie]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the fact that nearly every decision made in the last 9 years has been based around AL. (someone else said this but it is so true for me) Oh I hope I can stop. I want my spiritual connection back. I am going to call a therapist and make an appointment today. I am so sad and unhappy.

I want to love again. I hate being so depressed.

[peacenik]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

i hate that after 31 days of sobriety al is taking up time in my thinking today

[Evie.Lou]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate all the empty cans and bottles and trying to figure out how to get rid of them and not have people see...That was the PITS !!!

[savon19]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I've usually only posted on the ODAT thread, but someone pm'd me to tell me to check this out.

This thread is Fantastic! I can relate to almost every post (except the one where they forgot where they hid their bottle - never had to do that.. and, besides, I'm SURE that's at least ONE thing I'd remember!!! :H).

But if I had to say the single worst thing about drinking too much - it would have to be the Shame & Guilt part. Saying and doing things under the influence that I KNOW I wouldn't say or do if sober... And the shame & guilt which leads to lack of self-respect, self-confidence and basic self-love (the healthy kind). If you allow yourself to hate yourself, how can anyone love you??

Yes, this is a thread that will be revisited.

[Gerrard]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

:thumbs::new:

Doggygirl;337256 wrote: Well, we've got the "What I love about my AF life" thread to go back and read when we need a little extra motivation to stay AF (the carrot). For me anyway, I think I might need a "what I hate about drinking" thread too for those moments requiring motivation (the stick).

Repeat yourself and/or others as much as you want. When AL comes knocking sometimes we forget (at least I do sometimes) how BAD that bad stuff really is. So here goes!

I hate myself when I pour a drink at some early hour like 7AM. I'm mortified that I did it at all, much less in front of Mr. Doggy. (no sense trying to hide it from him) I would die of embarrassment if any clients or friends or family ever saw me do it.

I also hated "needing a nap" (aka passing out) at 3 in the afternoon as a result.

AF life is SO much better!

DG
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[Gerrard]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I am 1 Day AF just reading I can picture this don't go back

[stargirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Good decision Gerrard! I often come to this thread when I forget how bad life was when I drank. Whether it's Day 1, day 10, or day 100 it's a huge step in the right direction.

[Ryder]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

1. actually making a conscious decision to either drink or spend quality time with my wife, the absolute love of my life.

2. passing out on the recliner, and realizing that i could have burned down the house with the lit cigarette i left in the ashtray! holy shit, and not just hurting myself!

3. my wife's niece, 17 years old, visiting us on vacation at the jersey shore, who sighed and said "you know tom, you should stop drinking, it's just ugly."

4. quickly refilling my glass when no-one was looking.

5. i discovered that i was hiding my bottles just like an uncle who i loathed. (shudder) i could not believe that i had become him.

6. the hurt i saw in my baby's eyes when i told her i would stop and didn't. when i finally recognized this and gave it up, i could only hope for the best.

What I love about NOT drinking: it is damn nice to wakeup without a hangover AND be able to remember what happened last night, AND to get a full days work done.

it is still a step at a time, but i can do this, so i will.

[peacenik]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

yes you can do this ryder...

i hate that i wasted so much mental and physical energy on how to drink without anyone knowing...yucky.

[lilmea]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

1. I hate putting booze in my morning coffee so I could sneak it into work.

2. I hate getting up in the morning and checking the garage to see if my car was there and in one piece

3. I hate finding empties I hid in various places so I could go from room to room and drink without anyone knowing.

4. I hate that my husband stopped making coffee in the morning before he left for work because he know I would get up and start drinking and the coffee would just sit and get cold.

[jessie]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

1. I hate the person I become after a couple of drinks. Sneaking and secretive.
I hate the undercover drinking.
I hate myself for throwing empties out the car window to get rid of them.
I hate drinking and driving drunk.
I regret all the opportunities, friendships and days I have missed because I was planning to rather drink, or asleep (drunk)
I hate what I did to my great kids - the disappointment and pain.
My list will take up 10 pages - AL is foul - I must learn to hate it.

[last call]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hated walking around with a bottle of water everywhere I went. Nobody knew it was vodka. :yuk: :shocked:

[CS04]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

To Jessie

Jessie - I remember you from last summer. Welcome back!

[Caroll]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

1. I hate the constant need for another drink.
2. I hate not remembering what I did or said the night before.
3. I hate speaking bluntly to people just because I drank too much.

4. I hate withdrawal symptoms, but see these as progress down a difficult path.

Thanks DG for thinking this up, it's helping to put things straight in my head.
Caroll