What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

[peacenik]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

it's the old "one is too many and 1000 never enough"

[Joanna]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

The Great Deceiver

I wanted to add on here that over the last couple of days, it feels like the lure of AL has started to loosen its grip a little. Which made me realise something I hated and loathed about AL; that while it had its grip around me, it distorted all my truth so that I actually felt like it wasn't doing me any harm and life with it was about the same as life without it. Hey if that was true, then why was I missing it so much!!

Now those blinkers have come off, I am starting to see what kind of a delusional world I have been wrapped up in

[horizonsnew]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Have just read the whole thread..Wow! My life story in a nutshell! I am ashamed to say that 99% of the postings are all too familiar.

I hate that hangovers had become the every day norm...
I hate that i was always too drunk to have sex with my hubby
I hate that my bed was in the spare room
I hate the fact that I drunkenly broke all of the expensive wine glasses my Mum gave me just before she passed away.
I hate my total disreguard for anyone or anything while drinking
I hate that i am unable to wind the clock back and re do the past 8 years.

I love this site:0)

[derrygirl1]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

All of the above
My son saying you've been drinking like crazy since I was five....he's now fifteen ( I just lost 10 years I'll never get back)
I'm like my sister and father.
My fifteen year old went to a party and apparently got so drunk he was falling all over the place and slurring....does he have the gene? Even his friends felt he had overdone it.
The regret and heartbreak that I passed the gene on.
Fighting with my husband and not remembering why!
Having sex and not remembering!
Embarrasment of stupid things I've done and said.
AL has left me bloated, pasty, have a beer belly and don't care much about myself anymore.
The depression AL leaves me in that I know I should be strong enough to quit but I can't.
The sadness, that my children have seen me so drunk I would just collapse on the bed.
The anxiety.


Day 1 again for me, I feel hopeful this time but not being able to sleep at night is what does me in.

[2many]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Hi, I'm brand new and really appreciate all the postings. I know it sounds cliche', but I definetly feel alone. I try to stop and I can't. I try to moderate and I drink too much. I'm much happier when I'm not drinking...I've noticed I have room to think about other things than the decision of whether or not I'm going to drink if I take the option of drinking away, and it feels really good to think about other things.

[peacenik]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

welcome 2many...stay here and keep posting because you ARE NOT ALONE!!!

we are here too, we know how you feel, we understand!

come here when you get a craving or an urge and talk through it...


peace!!!

[SpiritGirl]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

:bump:

This thread is too good to not keep it going...

[Arial]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I should have read through these a couple of days ago, as it may have given me the boost I needed to get beyond the 'just one' won't hurt blow out! So I'm feeling extremely loathing at the moment:

I loath that alcohol makes me a lesser person
I loath that it robs me of my self
I hate it for taking years of my life
I hate that it makes me hurt people I love
I hate and regret that it's ever been a part of my life
I hate and loath it for waiting on the periferals of my life waiting for an opportune time to work it's way back in
I just loath it and hate it - period.

[capricorn2009]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

The person I am when I'm horribly drunk.
Not remembering whether or not my boyfriend and I had sex the night before (I have long since lost him!)
Not remembering the last 2 bars I went to, or who else we were out with.
Waking up fully clothed with smeared make up on the floor of my lounge, near the front door.
Not remembering how I even got there.
Waking up on Monday morning, and wondering what happened to Sunday?
Being terrified of seeing everyone incase I said or did anything terribly embarrassing.
Knowing that when I find out what I did, it still won't ring any bells.
Having to go back to the bar, hung over, to get my credit card back, and worrying how big the bill was.
Getting a call from a random guy I can't remember at all, much less giving my phone number to!
Crying in my bed because "I did it again and I am such a hopeless case"
Being so sick I can't even make it to the shower, or to the shop to by MORE neurofen.
Becoming immune to neurofen and all other painkillers.
That I don't think I'm fun without it.
That it's considered anti-social by most of society to be a non-drinker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that REALLY makes me angry.
The list is endless.... this is a really good exercise!

[Swan]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I am suprised by how many things to which I relate! There is no such thing as an innovative alcoholic :H

I hate what weekly drinking does to my grocery budget.
I hate waking up at 3 am sweaty and hot, needing to drink a quart of water.
I hate the way AL makes sweat smell.

[Murphy]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the way AL steals my life and leaves me isolated from those I love
I only want to drink and sleep not partcipate when I am in the grip of its power
AL makes me fat and lazy
Bloated and stupid
Blotchy and sweaty

I hate drinking
The lies
The dissappointment I cause
The waste
The hopelessness
My regrets and resolve

AF 15 days and carrying a big stick!

[retteacher]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Murphy: I can see that you are new & haven't posted very much yet. Please feel free to do so. If you're really motivated to quit, there are a few good threads here on the 30 day abs forum. The daily thread & the AA thread are both very positive & informative. Don't be shy about sharing. Also, there is a thread here about what we love about being AF. I'll try to find it & bump it up. The toolbox thread is very good as well if you get a craving. Anyhow, welcome. Mary

[MissMerlot]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Brillian Postings Everyone

I have agreed with all but felt a need to vent....

1.I hate being drunk and knowing i've went too far...again.

2.I hate wondering how i'm going to make it to the toilet in a bar without falling flat on my face.

3.I hate wondering how i'm going to make it to the bathroom at home from my bedroom without taking the wardrobe with me.

4.I hate peeing my pants with the force of vomiting after a heavy night.

5.I hate the look on my kids faces when they give me the look that says"you were drinking"....at 3pm and i try to disguise it unsuccessfully by slurring my words or staggering out of the room.

6.I hate that all my family have complained about how much drinking i do when it's old news to me....and they don't know the half of it.

7.I hate that i order chinese and pizza and pay for deliveries because i am too drunk to drive,and not remembering what i ate.

8.I hate the dark depression,guilt/self loathing that accompany's my mind after i've fallen (yet again...off the wagon.

9. I hate that i have to be "on this bleeding wagon"

10.I hate checking every cupboard in the house to see how many btls i went through the night before and hoping i had enough for that night and if not going to buy more to hide

11.I hate the dreadful wd i suffer,sweating,shaking,not sleeping and fearing i will die in my sleep due to poisioning my body..

I cannot think of one thing i like about it but wish i could lose the burning desire to have it.

I hate that this poison contents me???? i feel at ease when i know it's at hand.


phew......
exhausted!
:l

[Ann]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

I hate the guilt and constant self loathing when I look in the mirror
I hate checking to see if I have sleep walked or worse 'sleep peed' on the floor while drunk
I hate needing to down shots while my friends are just having a few beers
I hate lying in bed wasting a day, unable to move, hungover again
I hate the fact that the only time my father came to visit me, ever, I had been drinking. It was during the day.
I hate the bloated face, fat, extra weight
I hate the way my body is beginning to smell, no longer fresh, no longer youthful
I hate that I have night sweats and tingling limbs
I hate that I fear passing out on the way to work before I can make it to my desk
I hate that I can see me in others and I know they have a problem
I hate the fact that I have put myself in danger through being too drunk, in public and while alone
I'll post again on this thread. It is so familiar - again, I'm one of those who can relate to almost everything except the bit about finding half empty bottles - that would never happen.
I hate the fact that I love alcohol. There was a chat discussion the other nite about it being like a bad 'loser lover'. It's true. Why would you stay with a destructive force that was eating away at your life, your energy, your being, your future? The pull of it is strong. I'm trying to learn how to be stronger. Ann

[CS04]

What I HATE, LOATH, and JUST CAN'T STAND about drinking.

Ann, it truly is the "bad boyfriend" that you know you need to break up with, but just can't let go. Read Drinking: A Love Story by Caroline Knapp; she too likens the whole relationship with Al to one where once was in love, but now need a divorce.