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[Doggygirl]

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You are officially in charge of kicking my ass should I screw up.

You have my solemn promise, as long as you will do the same for me in return should I screw up again, which I am not planning on.

Seriously....The Big One that I threw away was on Day 60 of my first go 'round last summer. I don't need anyone to kick my ass over that one, because I can't believe I still have an ass after kicking it myself so hard. I THREW IT AWAY for what?? Al??? So not worth it. I'm not getting any younger, and there is only so much my body can take at this stage of life. I wasted the last 8 months or so ....just wasted them. Was that "one drink" worth it???? HELL NO.

Love ya Beck! YOU CAN DO THIS!

DG
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[Beck]

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Thankful, my friend,

Thank you. I KNOW you are right. You know how much I value your advice.

The drinking thoughts...they are in my head but I hadn't actually considered how they got there. I let them creep back in. In these past few months I have created a life where AL doesn't belong. I truly do want to continue down this path. In my heart I know it is the right one for me (though I sometimes chafe a bit). While I may have a difficult time banishing these thoughts, I understand that I do not have to act on them. Sometimes I underestimate my own strength and resolve.

This month is a minefield. Guess it is time for me to step up my game and adjust my attitude.

Thanks again,
Beck

[vinophile]

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Oh Beck , you are such a rock here but my heart really goes out to you as I must admit that that last two times we moved were truly the most stressful times in my life. I know you run and that can be a great stress reducer but I know that when I was in the process of moving I could not move one extra muscle, besides for the job at hand...moving.

I'll be thinking of you. Try to stay as calm ad you can, so much of moving involves almost being on "autopilot". Make yourself some chamomille tea before bed and take what little breaks you can.
We'll all be here when you get back. No matter what the "outcome"...and knowing you it will be an AF one I'm sure..... you'll have some great advice for us.
Hang in there and best of luck.

Janet

[Seen the light!]

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Hi Beck

I had a stressful move a couple of years back - and like Doggy Girl said nicotine is similar to drinking. It took me seven years to try and kick the habit with loads of attempts. Anyway I was about two months into my attempt when my move came and at the same time I was having tests done at the hospital. The day after I moved in I had to go into hospital for an anaesthetic and was told I had cervical cancer! (It's all sorted now I had a hysterectomy and now have the all clear) I t was the most stressful and scary time of my life but I didn't cave in like in the past. All I kept thinking was at least I've stopped smoking - one less obstacle in my way.

You have been an inspiration to me since I joined MWO - I know you can do this without Al - don't let the negative thoughts take over and you'll be fineXXXXXX

[Beck]

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Janet, Thank you. What has been bugging me most is that some of the things I have leaned heavily on MWO, running will be out the window for a few weeks. Moving is just physically exhausting.

Seen, where have you been? You should re-join us on the ABS thread. That must have been a scary time for you. Appreciate your kind words and thoughts.

Occurred to me last night that I am the only one doubting my ability to remain AF - the rest of you (some stated, some more subtle) are questioning my willingness. Hmmm...funny how others could see things clearly that I could not. So at 4 mos sober I am capable of remaining that way if I want to. Got it.

Thanks,
Beck

[Janice]

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Beck;337961 wrote:

The drinking thoughts...they are in my head but I hadn't actually considered how they got there. I let them creep back in. In these past few months I have created a life where AL doesn't belong. I truly do want to continue down this path. In my heart I know it is the right one for me (though I sometimes chafe a bit). While I may have a difficult time banishing these thoughts, I understand that I do not have to act on them. Sometimes I underestimate my own strength and resolve.

This month is a minefield. Guess it is time for me to step up my game and adjust my attitude.

Beck

My dear friend Beck, I could have just typed these words myself!!!! You have been such an inspiration to me over the last few months.......lets get through this minefield together.

Much love,

Janicexxx:l

[Beck]

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Janice,

One thing that strikes me about MWO is that there is nothing new under the sun. We really do seem to be in a similar place. We can get through this minefield together. Hell, I'll even go first

Love,
Beck

[july232007]

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Beck,

Print out a few of your favorite threads from here and keep them close by.

Good luck.

July