June 16

[Loppy lugs]

Morning all,

Sorry I haven't been around much. Work has been manic.

I hope all the Dads amongst you had a brilliant day. Unfortunately nowadays Father's day just makes me unhappy so I spent 12 hours in the office. Maybe this week won't be so bad now that I have a head start.

Still AF which is good but still having huge moodswings which is unsettling. I also still crave, not one drink but the oblivion that lacohol can bring. This facing up to everything is certainly exhausting.

I could have happily spent yesterday unconscious but...... I am learning.

Hope you all have been doing well. Cindi is your sinus infectio better? Janice, how did you cope with yesterday?

Will try and catch up later.

[Cinders]

June 16

Loppy,

Hi there!! Sorry things have been so rough. Take it one day at a time and it will pass. Things will look up.

No, my "sinus infection" is not better. That is why I am up writing at almost 3:00 a.m. I have a feeling it is not a sinus infection but something else. I will get the results of my CT Scan sometime this week.

Of course, I will be out of town when the report comes in. Have to work no matter what. Arrrggghh.

Okay, enough whining about myself.

I hope everyone has a wonderful AF day.

Love,
Cindi

[Janice]

June 16

Morning Loppy, Cindi and all to follow.....I posted on the end of yesterday's thread as I was up really late catching up with jobs while my hubby was watching the golf.

Been away up north for a few days.......seeing mam (which was heartbreaking) and visiting Dad's grave which was......peaceful. I planted some busylizzies which should look nice in a few weeks.

Cindi I'm sorry to hear you're still far from right - good luck with your CT Scan results, will be thinking of you.

Loppy, good to see you, I miss you when you don't post.

Not sure what day I'm on but just noticed I'm about to hit the 1000 posts!!! I've realised that at the moment I have gone back to that ODAT philosophy whereas in the early days of my abstinence I just KNEW I wouldn't be drinking and that was that. At the moment I feel as if I'm walking a tightrope and could fall off any day. I'm trying to hold on tight.....

Have a good day everyone....Beck, how did the move go????

much love,

Janicexxx

[charlee]

June 16

Morning all
Cindi, I am getting a bit concerned about that "sinus infection". I know you said you are flying out today....I know you said you have missed enough work, but flying???.....I hope that is ok.....I will be thinking of you, please keep us posted...
Loppy, There has been a time or two, or three or.....that I too had thoughts of spending the day unconcious...I get the momentary "ahhhh" feeling, but then snap back quickly when I realize I have to wake up.....Those after feelings are playing a big part in keeping me sober. Don't wanna go there!!!. You are right, we need to continue to put in practice what we learn.....
I hope everyone has a great Monday...

[Cinders]

June 16

Charlee,

I am a bit concerned myself. However, since the CT Scan results are not in until Tuesday or Wednesday, I have to work and just put up with it.

I am going to St. Louis this week. I spoke about it on the Antabuse thread. I love to play Black Jack and really want to get on the tournament circuit. It is awesome I have an opp to go and play in the evenings and because of the Antabuse, I can't drink. Yay!!

However, in the back of my mind is percolating the "sinus infection." It isn't one, I guess. The Augmentin hasn't touched it yet. I am living with a horrible headache/facial pain and it hurts.

I will let you know what the CT Scan results are. I have a feeling that will just be the beginning.

Oh well. At least I have one week of fun -- this client's system is tiny and easily worked on -- before I have to deal with what is really going on.

Love,
Cindi

[4theboyz]

June 16

Good Morning Abbers!!!

Boy it is good to be back!! I don't care if we never talk about weather *ever* again as on our vacation we had our share of storms, tornadoes, floods you name it. Still had a great time and I hope to squeeze in some time here later to catch up with you all as work has piled up dramatically and will keep me busy for days I'm sure! :upset:

In the mean time I missed you all and do hope you have a very great AF day.

4tb

[charlee]

June 16

Black Jack!!!...well go figure!!!......Take that opp you have been looking forward to, sounds like fun and who knows...maybe you will become famous....and rich!!!!......

Could your sinus possibly be blocked????...I had terrible facial, head and teeth paina few years back and they ended up doing a roto-rooter to de-clog me..Nasty, but it worked!.....

[Pamina]

June 16

Hello Abbers,

4tb, Loppy, Janice - good to have you back! Yes, the storm reports sound truly awful for the US midwest. I actually applied for a Red Cross course last summer when the UK had floods, but they were inundated with volunteers.

Cindi - take care!

I've had a good weekend. I met with two friends, one of whom has been abstaining for almost 6 months now. We compared notes, strategies, experiences, and he gave me his sincere congratulations on my first month. It was SO affirming, I can totally understand why people have sponsors in AA. The other encounter was more surprising, as I only see this American friend every few years. It turns out he's practiced 'predominant abstinence' for the past 3 years and says he's never felt better. He was quite happy to take me to a pub, but when I said I'd stopped drinking, we ended up having a really interesting conversation about his trajectory out of depression through abstinence. People I care about are doing good things for themselves - I LOVE IT!!

Have a good AF day everybody.

[retteacher]

June 16

Pamina: What a great story about old friends. It's great to be on this path w/someone.

Janice: The ODAT approach is great, especially when you're feeling vulnerable. The weekend up north couldn't have been easy. I don't know what else to say except to do what you're doing: staying sober one day at a time. We're always here regardless of what happens.

Mary

[Janice]

June 16

Can't think of a better place to post my 1000th post as a way of saying thank you to everyone on MWO for all your encouragement and support. Much love, Janicexxx

[cowgal]

June 16

congrats!

Janice you are a senior!!! Me too!! Le't celebrate!!! You were in my thoughts yesterday...........

I had a rough weekend, was not AF, not a happy weekend either.............gotta rememeber that!:upset::upset:

Cindi, hope you find out what is going on w/ your sinuses...............soon!

4thb, welcome back, want to hear all about it!

Charlee,Mary ,Pamina stay strong you all sound good, keep it up..............:goodjob:

Loppy thanks for starting us today:thanks:

lots of love,:l

MA

[retteacher]

June 16

MA: I think I'm finally starting to "get" that abstinence is for ME...not for anyone else. Because of my addiction (& I don't say that lightly), I cannot be happy if I drink...even if it's only for one day or weekend or whatever. I can only be happy if I stay sober & fight through any difficulties that come along. The expression "We have to take the good w/the bad" comes to mind. I always wanted to aenesthesize through the "bad." Now I'm beginning to realize that there are no shortcuts. My drinking simply postpones the inevitable.

Hope this doesn't sound preachy. It's true for me only. Mary

[retteacher]

June 16

Cindi: Is it OK to fly w/your condition? I doubt if I could do it. Travel is stressful for me under the best of circumstances. I'll have you in my thoughts. Mary

[cowgal]

June 16

thanks!

Not preachy at all, thanks for the advice, I know drinking is not the answer to ANYTHING, but it is the familiar miserable thing I had always done.....................I want so desparately to break that cycle.................I know I will, I have gotten alot better....................thing is, hubby didn't even seem upset.........I wasted yesterday (most of it anyway) in bed since I drank and just "vegged"..........................Did dinner for father's day, took his dad to lunch for fathers day, did absolutely nothing for the house or me, which had me down.................

We have a major FLEA INFESTATION in our house too..........................YUCK!!! I despise bugs...............have been bombing the house, spraying the dog, putting down borax....................you name it, and they keep getting worse!! They are even in my bed!!! GROSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:upset:
Sorry to vent, will get this under control soon, or I am moving out!!!:upset::upset::upset:

MA:l:l

[Determinator]

June 16

Happy no-hangover Monday ABadingos!

Hooray to Janice our new senior!!!!

Cindi, hope you get results soon on yer poor head...owie!

Cowgal, good to see you are a fighter..that's exactly what it takes.

4thboyz, hows the weather? kidding! glad you are ok and accounted for.

pamina...never heard of that abstinance program your friend is on...any details?

and hugs to the rest of ya XXXXXX

be well