having an early night
was going to do a long post tonight, but I didn't sleep well last night, so am just about to have a bath and bed.
AF drinks recipes can wait until tomorrow! The top of my list for for trying is Louise's one too - I really love ginger and cook lots of Thai food so always have fresh stuff on hand!
What is the tomato crisis?! I have missed that one ........
DG - hope the pup is doing okay. I'm actually a bit scared of dogs, but my cousin used to have a Rottweiler and it was a big softy thing that just just loved to cuddle up.
Spanky - things sound terrible. Ironically enough, the news here this week has been all about the electricity crisis that we are in the middle of because our lake levels are so low!
Is Beck back on line?
Went to see the hypnotherapist. Just a first consult - explained the process and we talked about some stuff. He was great - lots of things he said made a lots of sense and I thought he was very realistic and not making wild promises. But really centred on the need to be positive and future focussed which I really liked. He taped the session and gave it to me on CD to listen to when I want to - noted that for most of those conversations people forget 50% of what they heard in 24 hours and another 25% in 48 hours. So I'm going to listen to it again and make some notes! There were a few things that I want to write down as a record of how I'm feeling at the moment.
Two things I remember though - he said "Will it be hard? Yes. Is it possible? Yes". It sort of encapsulates how I feel about the whole abstinence thing .... there are days when I focus on the first part of that and other days that I focus on the second part.
The other was our discussion about what my plan is for continuing to be AF. I talked about my friend's 50th on Sat ... and how on the one hand I'm making the plans for my AF drinks so I wont feel deprived and tempted and how on the other there is a bit of me that wants to have a glass of champagne with her (the "subconsciously planning in advance" thing - was it on this thread that we talked about that last week?). He really encouraged me to keep going as I am, and then he said "If you do have a glass of wine on Saturday, can you stick to one? And are you ready to make the commitment to make that the last glass that you ever have again?"
Well that was a bit of a sock in the guts really! Not in a bad way - it just suddenly hit me with a reality that it hasn't hit me with before. And I hasten to say that this guy is not a hard line, wagging finger, "one drop of alcohol and you are down the path to death and destruction" type. It was more like - "OK - you've said you want to stop. I can provide the support. but it doesn't mean that you get to escape the commitment to yourself."
So, lots of thinking to do! See him again on Tuesday for a first "real" session.
I'm remembering some things he said as I write this and they were good to hear. But this is longer than I wanted to be here and I still have to have my bath and clean the bathroom (oh yes - in the current chaos of life chez Mame, that I had completely forgotten that I had offered a bed to some friends coming from out of town for my friend's party! And the only spare room is where we have been putting all the stuff that is being moved from one place/room to the other! So that got sorted out by pushing things into a cupboard, but I really need to clean the bathroom if anyone knows the whereabouts of the cleaning fairy..........!!!!)
must go!
mame
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