I thought I'd start this thread in lieu of tossing & turning. Yesterday's thread was fun to reread. And speaking of fun: I think I'm beginning to find out how to relax & have fun wo/AL. Tonight my daughter & g-sons came for dinner. I had simple food prepared & felt completely relaxed & at ease. I asked for help when I needed it (as opposed to doing it ALL). After dinner, my daughter & my husband gave the kids their bath/shower together...a kind of father/daughter bonding experience I would have eliminated if I had stepped in (which I so often did in the past). Instead, I cleaned up the kitchen in a leisurely fashion.
I think I'm learning that I don't have to overdo all the time. Others WANT to pitch in & help. When I wear myself out, that's when I'm vulnerable to wanting a drink in order to "relax" in my previous unhealthy way.
I am so happy to be sober one day at a time. I'm not thinking about the distant future. I'm not thinking about events that might tempt me. I'm just thinking about staying sober today & tomorrow.
Thank you all here at MWO. I keep saying it, because it's true. I COULD NOT HAVE DONE THIS WITHOUT YOU. I had no success on my own. Now, I really feel like I'm knocking the heck out of my alcoholism.
Mary
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