Happy July 18!
Sun is shining & the weather is sweet!
I continue to be amazed by all the good things that keep cropping up in my abstinence. I truly never knew that life could be like this. I think I really have come back from the dead! I said it as a metaphor in another post, but the more I think, the truer it actually, literally seems to be. The claws of death had been clutching me and pulling me down, and now I am light and free and noticing beauty everywhere. Walking to work today I had the thought "I'm happy to be alive... another day of my life, another unique day to experience this life!" Hah! 3 months ago the thought on my way to work was very different...more like, UGHHHHHH!!! WHY IS THIS MY LIFE!!?? YUCK.... you get the idea.
I guess it is like coming out of a near-death experience... I was so suicidal last year at this time, spending my weekends in bed, in my darkened room, drinking. Yesterday I was in the sun with my friends, swimming in the ocean and eating organic fruit. And that contrast hit me like the difference between life and death. There are two energies vying for my life, and I hope to heaven that I can stay with this one... indefinitely.
Kathy, let us know how you're doing today ok? We've all got your back! You're in my thoughts all day even if I'm not here til later... :d
Great posts everyone! Thank you for continuing to inspire and support. Even if you don't know you're doing that, you are, just by being here & sharing yourself and your thoughts with us. We really have an extraordinary group of people here, and for that I am thankful.
Blessings,
Deirdre
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The quality of mercy is not strained; It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven upon the place beneath. It is twice blessed, It blesseth him that gives, and him that takes.
William Shakespeare
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