I am planning to say that to everyone who asks me how I feel today. A controlled experiment in constructive mood alteration as I have a challenging day ahead of me.
Well yesterdays thread was incredible. I need more time to go back and read it again thoroughly. I have Jean Kirkpatricks book but got bogged down in her lifestory and haven't finished it. I'll also dig out some Tolle and have a good think.
I have a workbook on relapse prevention which I intend to work through. I am very consious that I am approaching 120 days when so many others have had slips. It is a bank holiday weekend again here and I have no plans except to spend time working on me. Learning from everyone elses experiences will do me no harm whatsoever.
I am keen to learn how to just feel! That is one of the reasons I am refusing to take drugs for the panic attacks which I know not everyone agrees with.
Talking of panic attacks, I am going to a BBQ tonight where I will know only about 4 of the 30 or so people going. Not so much as a flutter as I sit here typing. Obviously I'm a bit apprehensive but I can breathe, see and am not turning into a puddle of sweat on the floor. Actually I think I'm looking forward to it. Progress!
Got to head off for work now. Hope everyone survived yesterdays challenges. My parents where both youngish when I lost them which still feels terribly unfair but my heart goes out to all of you who are just trying to do your best for them in difficult circumstances.
Love you lot
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