Actually I should have labeled this Inconsistent Moderator, not Abstainer...
I joined MWO back in 2006 and did the moderation program for a while and felt pretty good about it. I dribbled off and now here in 2008 I see I am no different and inconsistent with moderation. I consider myself a moderate drinker averaging 14-24 lite beers or less beer and a bottle of wine in one week.
I am considering re-joining moderators for November. I do a lot of things right like eat fresh foods, grow my own veggies or do most of my shopping at the farmers market. I can go 3 nights AF, but then usually go off and drink a bit more than I had planned. I tend to drink while I'm cooking. Example, I made homemade applesauce, granola, and cooked dinner yesterday and consume 1 bottle of wine.
So many people think I'm so healthy, but I don't feel I am. I would love to cook and bake and not drink. So I rationalize that because I'm eating healthy I can drink, so what.
Then the heartburn starts, the morning regrets, etc. I realize some people would love to be AF 3 days and would not think much of a bottle of wine while cooking for hours. But it bothers me, and I never feel fresh in the morning.
Any solo-cooks who drink out there? I sometimes think I'm too hard on myself, and sometimes I think I'm way too clever and hide the alcohol struggle too well.
Thanks! I look forward to being back.
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