Tuesday December 16

[Doggygirl]

Tuesday December 16

Hello all! OMW thank you for getting us started, even without the leg lift.

AA - this is a great quote.

Welcome back 4tbz!

Great to see everyone else. The last couple of days have been really busy, so believe it or not this might actually be a short post! Despite the frigid weather and icy conditions, I made the trek yesterday to bring home the pork, beef and chickens. Turns out they had some extra turkeys that did not get sold at Thanksgiving, so I now have 6 of those in the freezers too. In these tough economic times, there is something very comforting about having a long term supply of food right here.

The business climate is truly scary. Our business is at 50% of normal. We found out that a friend of ours has to close one of his two restaurants. And during my morning travels, a store I shop at had a big "close out - going out of business" sign on the front. I really hope that once the holidays are past and the "changing of the guard" takes place in Washington that things start moving again, for better or worse. For all my abber friends here, I hope the smoothest possible sailing through these rough waters.

One thing is for sure....drinking would NOT make any of the economic circumstances better!

Have a good day all...

DG

[LVT25]

Tuesday December 16

OMW--sorry to hear your family has you stressing out. It's a shame so many things (people) can totally ruin holidays (or life in general). I don't have any real good advice for you, since I'm not sure of your situation. A small trip with hubby sounds pretty go thought if you can pull it off. I'm pretty lucky this year, my hubby is on my side as far as holiday plans with his family.
Just wanted to let you know I care. Don't let them push your buttons--ok?:l

[brittzak]

Tuesday December 16

Have not bailed out on this thread...have not been feeling well the past few days....been reading though!!!! I will be active again very soon. Busy time for us all. Good stuff AA....be strong everyone. Still sober here!

[Tiresias]

Tuesday December 16

I haven't been feeling very well lately either, and really haven't had much to say. But I keep up my reading here, and wish you all well today/tonight/tomorrow.

I guess a couple of things.

I worked a 3 1/2 hour shift at the concession stand during my son's basketball tourney over the weekend. When one person leaned over the counter to tell me want they wanted, I got the strong and unmistakable WHIFF of alcohol, vodka. That was very unexpected and produced quite an internal jolt to my system. There was some oddly formed and sensed craving or something. And there was a shameful and repulsive reminder of what I must have smelled like to others, so so many times out and about in the world, thinking that nobody "knew." Very yucky feelings, both. I noticed that the episode kept my thoughts somewhat distracted for a while, and then I seemed to get past it, and then there were periodic flashes of the memory I couldn't seem to prevent surfacing. Just an uncomfortable overall experience during an otherwise very enjoyable time at the tourney and volunteering the shift on concessions.

The other thing is that circumstances have conspired to keep me from attending a wonderful concert tonight during which my son will be playing a very special opening role and will be singing in a great group, along with other special area groups. I hate the "not being there." I do attend just about every event any of my kids are involved in - from sports games to concerts to plays to school lunches with dad and on and on. I wish my kids could look back some day and say that no matter what else, dad was always there. I realise that with 4 kids and all the various activities and schedules, and my own other obligations that conflict from time to time, that it is at times impossible to manage to attend everything. But there is still a sad pang of .... something at not being there to witness a unique and special moment in one of my children's life. In times past such a sad pang of .... something would have turned me to alcohol for some familiar numbing relief. Now I'm left with the feelings, and efforts to distract myself from them until, I suppose, I can "hear all about it" from my son. I'm sure he will do great and he always makes me proud. I can't believe he and my other kids can do what they do.

Anywho, thanks for being here at this place, as the reading helps me a great deal, and this little bit of writing, which started out to be a simple one sentence post, has helped me work through some things.

Those of you feeling poorly I hope you get to feeling better pronto. Those out and about in some nasty weather, be careful and be safe. To everyone else, take good care for another 24, and thanks again.