My parents sent me a Christmas hamper yesterday as I won't be seeing them over Christmas. They know I've stopped drinking but I thought they'd probably put a bottle of wine in there, and I was ready for that and had visualised tipping it down the sink.
But when it arrived there was a bottle of sherry. I've only ever drunk sherry when I visit my parents (my mother's a big sherry drinker), and I suppose it means warmth, comfort, something 'special' maybe. I don't know if it was the associations or the fact that I was home alone with alcohol, probably the latter.
Anyway, I looked at it, thought about it. Thought I don't have to go to work tomorrow (today) so it won't matter if I'm hungover. Opened it, drank it.
I suppose it confirms that I can't have booze in the house - which I haven't since I stopped drinking. Today I have no desire to drink so it's NOT going to spark a binge. I'm not really sure how I feel about it - kind of deflated. And also I suppose disappointed that after eight months AF I can't be 'sensible' with alcohol.
Damn Christmas :H Oh, and I'm too hungover to figure out how to delete my signature at the moment.
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