Yes, God has watched over me too. I started drinking at 13 experimentally and like Det. said something inside me "clicked". Both parents have abused alcohol and drugs although Dad has recovered thanks to years of AA. Alcohol helped me feel happy and outgoing combating my painful shyness and insecurities.
Gradually my drinking increased and it was a daily slam until I would pass out. So many wasted moments and years. So many mornings dragging myself out of bed to function as a spouse, parent, and business professional. I was untruthful with my family, myself and most of all God.
Who was I kidding?
I am so thankful that by God's grace I never killed anyone while I was driving drunk. I pray my kids will eventually forgive me for the hurt I have caused them seeing me drunk. The anger and depression that would follow.
I came to MWO in Sept. and have been modding with many days AF but now I am ready to lengthen the clean days and test the waters of abstaining for the next 2 weeks.
May God bless us today as we keep strong in our commitment.
St. J
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