I went to another meeting last night, and sure enough there was someone I know there, from my professional world. I knew he had been in trouble with his addiction years before... and there he sat. I spent part of the meeting deciding how to handle it... just find him after the meeting and start talking? It was a big meeting and I did not think he had noticed me. That's what I did... and I am glad. Turns out that he was just returning, like me, after a long absence. And he said that he, too had a hard time coming back, because of his embarrassment. And I talked to another guy, similar situation... he said it took him 9 months being AF again (after a long relapse) before he came back to AA...
It reminds me once again of how UN-true it was, when I told myself that it was OK to start drinking again, because I could "always go back" to recovery (to AA, in my case). Which reminds me, once again, how UN-true it will always be, for me, to think that it would ever be OK for me to start drinking again.
I got a temporary sponsor last night, it's a big group and I will need help finding a permanent one. This woman is younger than me, but seems very solid, and I like what I have seen of her attitude. We haven't yet had a one-on-one meeting, but I think she's thinking that I need to do 90 meetings in 90 days. Well, maybe I will. I'm not yet at the point of committing to that yet. I did it the first time around, though, and it was a very good move, helped me get to know people and get very thoroughly involved in AF "culture."
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