Well, today I went to an AA meeting! The first time in many, many years. I am so glad I did. It was a speaker meeting and the woman who spoke first has been sober since 2/22/94!! I loved hearing her speak. I always get teary eyed going to those meetings. It feels so raw, if that makes any sense?
The second speaker was a man who has been sober for a number of years, I don't think he said how many. He was a pretty entertaining speaker. What really touched me about him was he kept getting teary eyed, and he would pause for a moment and then he attributed it to all the gratiude he felt. That was so sweet, especially considering how difficult it can be for a man to open up about their feelings.
It was a packed meeting, with all types, shapes and sizes there. I raced in and grabbed a seat and left immediately after. I find that most there seem to smoke and they get there early and stay after for that social aspect. Being the reformed smoker that I am, I have to say that the smell that follwed them into the meeting was a bit unnerving for me, it gave me a headache in fact, but I will not let that detour me from going.
For me personally, I have absolutely NO problem admitting I am powerless over alcohol, or I would have been able to quit by now. I am going to truly persue the Higher Power thing, which is difficult for me, but I am willing to open my mind. Obviously, I have not been able to do this on my own. I would like to look into getting a sponser at some point. I'm so glad I went.
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