Prissy Cleopatra the Mutt But Don't Tell Her That gets to do the marking today!
Welcome knittinggranny from yesterdays thread. Hope you are still with us here for Day 2. This is a tough journey but SO well worth it.
I'm really happy that it's March 1! Maybe it was the upcoming change of months - moving closer to spring in this neck of the woods - that got me thinking yesterday and reflecting how far I've come and what goes on in that pea brain of mine. I've been thinking a lot about nature and how things work. "Every action has an equal and opposite reaction." Ying / Yang. I am getting ready for spring / summer and Mame is getting ready for winter. I was thinking about the voice in all of our heads. Al/Nic/The Hampster on the Wheel/Addicted Voice/Whatever. (al for short) I think I finally understand that concept of one day at a time. "Don't drink today and tomorrow will take care of itself" type stuff. It finally dawned on me that the "one day at a time" thing really works in both directions. Al just wants me to drink for today. Tomorrow's drinking will take care of itself. That's how 30+ years of daily drinking went by. My internal "voice" never pushed me for a committment to drink forever. Just drinking for today was enough. "Yeah!" went my little voice as soon as I poured a drink. Today is covered.
I thought about going through this with quitting smoking two years ago. (Nic and Al could be twins in my head anyway) When I picked a quit date I felt a wave of excitement and relief. I convinced myself it was becuase I was patting myself on the back for making such a good decision! Now I could also get Mr. Doggy off my back! And....the REAL reason for the excitement? I was still smoking in the "today." When the quit date came, I actually did quit that time but it sure didn't feel exciting. At all.
Fast forward to drinking. When I quit the first time on July 11, 2007 I didn't plan it ahead. My MWO supplements and CD's came in the mail, and I just decided to do it NOW. Not much euphoria to that. After I fell from the wagon after 60 days, I would talk about quitting after a trip, or on the first of the next month, or or or. Chief said to me more than once "why not today?" I now look back and realize what he meant. The "excitement" I felt in picking a future quit date had nothing to do with excitement about quitting AL. It had everything to do with excitement that for another day / week / whatever I would be drinking. Al was happy.
Anyone else ponder this one?
speedster I'm glad you left the Lites alone on Friday!
AFM, those deep hurt feelings with family are a buggar. I've got a couple things I'm trying to just let go of that are family related. By "let go" I mean ME letting go of old resentments and blame no matter what happened and who I think started it. It doesn't matter any more and life's too short. Even if I was "right" (which I'm not sure of anyway) the resentment eats away at my inards and makes me feel like crap. Anyway, I hope that you can repair your relationship with your Dad despite his shortcomings.
Hello to everyone else from yesterday!
With all of your input here and confusing myself on the internet, I have settled on the method for cooking this ham. I will be making a sweet & savory glaze that has sugar free appricot preserves, Deter spice, and a few other things. I will put 1/2 of that on the ham and wrap it all up in foil and bake at 300 for .....awhile. Whenever I guess that it has about 1/2 hour to go, I will take it out of the foil and put the rest of the glaze on it. And if it tastes like crap you know who is getting the blame!
(those evil posters at allrecipes.com)I'm going to an AA meeting at 7AM just to make my sobriety my #1 priority today!
Oh!! Back to that Italy discussion. I just figured out that in 2010, the post Olympics World Figure Skating Championships are in Turin. That's got me thinking!!!
Ciao,
DG
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