AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

[Cinders]

Good Morning!!

Haven't been posting much. I have been kind of listless the last few days. A cold and a bit of worry that I might relapse. I know, I know. I either choose to relapse or not but some mornings I wake up and my heart is pounding trying to recall whether I drank the day before or not.

It has been a while, one would think these thoughts would abate but my brain is fanatic, it wraps around something and likes to stick with it.

I loved reading about the "thoughts just passing" concept and know I am going to work on that visualization myself. Thanks Joanna and everyone else. You all help give me strength!!

Meanwhile, I continue with AA, family, work and life. It is so nice to wake up without the mental and physical anguish that are the markings of alcohol in my life. I do love that.

Each day sober is a miracle to me. So, even if I get in a funk, it is better than being drunk.

I feel very good this morning, I think I am finally shaking this cold, and it does help my mental outlook.

There are too many here for me to say hello to individually anymore and that is awesome. This group has grown tremendously and it is so nice to have people here who are going through the same things I do and talk about them and walking the walk with me. It helps keep the road from seeming so lonely.

Thank you, all.

Love,
Cindi

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Good morning!

Just sniffing!

:H

[Kirova]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Thanks for starting us off, Cindi...I hear you about the brain that wraps around something and stays fixed on it. And the "passing thoughts" concept may be just the ticket to help let it go. I'm enjoying a nice quiet start to my day -- gotta love a peaceful Sunday! Have a great day, all :h

[Willie09]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Thoughts of drinking again pop into my head quite often. I ask myself why and what benefits I'd get...and the list is short to non-existent.

I enjoy waking up to after a sober day and sober night. No cobb webs in my brain.

I hope the "thoughts of drinking" pass with time but I'm not so sure they will for me an alcoholic. Time will tell.

No drink today is the goal. And tomorrow the goal will be the same.

Cindi, hope the cold passes quickly. Stay well and sober.

It's a rainy Sunday morning and I must be off to church.

[gyco]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

hi cinders,dang i hear ya,good to see yur working on AA,ive also been there of late,going back to my old routes,if you cant beat them,lol join them,take what you need and leave the rest,have a wonderful day gyco ps after time it gets better

[gyco]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

for got to add did you try the online aa,you might like it,

[Cinders]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Gyco,

I can't get into AA online, I do love the meetings, though. I always hear something I can use to help me stay sober.

MWO is my online AA. :-)

Love,
Cindi

[Arial]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Hi Cindi,

Thanks for starting the day today and good to see you here and feeling better - congratulations on all your efforts. I found the voice inside my head did get quieter after a time, but now I know I've go to stay on my guard and not get complacent.

I'm really enjoying my 'quiet Sunday' - such a luxury! And another day lived, not passed through. Next week will be a challenge for me as I'm back at work after a week's wonderful break and I know my worst trigger is stress from work and then the routine of 'relaxing' with a wine bottle and falling asleep on the couch. However, I'm on my guard now, am determined this time to make it work so hopefully instead of drinking I'll go for a run or do something else active until the craving passes - and I know I need to establish some new routines and find new ways of 'unwinding'.

Also my girls are back after a week with their Dad tonight which will be great - but it will mean that I have to give up sole ownership of the computer! I won't, therefore, be here so much, but hopefully I can throw them off long enough to catch up fairly regularly!

Keep strong, and enjoy another day further away from AL!! :l to all

[Accountable for Me]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Good morning!

This time change is throwing me off already! I can't believe it is after 9am already. Must shower.

My outing last night with my male friend was very nice. He gave me a huge bouquet of Lily's (my fav! How did he know? He must have good taste.) We had a nice dinner at a Greek Restaurant and then went to a Junior's hockey game. ThenI came home and crashed by 11pm.

Dating takes so much work. I was never much of a dater. I am finding it exhausting. He is really very nice; but this is unfamiliar territory for me. Back in the day I would meet someone and we would be drunker than skunks. Then we would automatically be in a relationship - in which always turned out to be bad. So, meeting someone 'normal' is great; but different. We will see. Change is very good; so I am not complaining. Just tired.

We had a dusting of snow yesterday afternoon. I am tired of the 3 days warm; one day blizzard. I HOPE that this was the last kick of the can for winter! I took the little one to the park yesterday afternoon; hoping to get there before the snow started. Well as soon as I pull out of the garage - SNOW! So we spent just under an hour at the park freezing our touchies off. The wind was what made it suck. It was sooooo cold! Funny how we were wearing light coats a few days ago, and then yesterday back to winter coats, toques and gloves. Ahhh... the West Coast Weather!

Anyway, today must do some laundry. Go grocery shopping and then who knows.......

Have a great day everyone!

[Determinator]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Happy Sunday Aberoooos!

Cindi, wonderful kickstart, thanks dear.

AFM, glad to hear your date has merit and your both socializing without the blurry vision of 'social lubricants'.

Dx and I are off to Tahoe today! fraid I'm suffering from a super bad headache for no apparent reason. owie. I have my skiing gear packed but dunno if I'll actually ski the way I'm feeling. anyway just walking around the lake shore wtih Dx on my arm sounds so nice and relaxing. stopping at coffee shops and playing tourist a bit is always fun.

WIP, you have progressed so dramatically I cannot envision the story of you resorting to drinking in your car after a bad visit with your mum. you've really become a different person and it shows so nicely.

sober hugs to each and everyone here and all to post and read.

be well friends

[hulagirl]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Aloha and Good Morning! Yes, You're right Cinders...the road is not so lonely with MWO. Thanks all for being here.

[retteacher]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Hi All: I wanted to check in & say hi. I'm working hard on my program. I feel good about a talk I had w/my daughter about last month's ER incident. It brought the whole thing into the open again which is good. I didn't beat myself up...just talked about it w/her. Also, we had dinner last night w/2 of the friends who were here when I passed out last month. I had to get over an initial feeling of uncomfortableness, but I did OK. I know the incident will be put behind me some day, but for now, I have to continue to process it.

Take care. I'll be back tomorrow. I have an AA meeting tonight which I'm looking forward to. Mary

[narilly]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Hey Everyone! Hello.
Cinders- I think we all have thoughts of drinking again...DON'T do it! We are going to Mexico next week and I was thinking this am "well, I think I can drink some Corona on the beach, I mean it is Mexico anyway, and I can't drink the water, how much pineapple juice can I drink? Corona doesn't make me drunk anyway." YA RIGHT!!!
If I have Corona on the beach, it will not be 1, it will be 3 or 4 and then, of course, tequila or wine at supper and on we go.
These thoughts will kill us.

Mexico here I come - and fizzy water, soda, water, juice, whatever...I will have NO alcohol.

I have no hangover today and it has been 3 weeks without. Happy sober Sunday!

Love,
Narilly

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Hello everyone and Cindi, thanks for starting us off today. I love your new avatar (meant to tell you that previously!). It makes me think of spring! We had a taste of that on Friday. And I suppose you could say a different taste of it yesterday and today with thunder storms and way too much rain. Not the kind of "spring" days I had in mind!!! Keep hangin' in there OK?

Narilly, congrats on 3 weeks sober! You are sounding really good. I love your attitude about Mexico and your honesty about that Corona and what "Corona Road" looks like for you. When do you leave? I hope you have an awesome time.

Mary, I'm glad to hear about the good talk with your daughter. It sounds like that for now, it is good to keep the ER incident fresh in your mind. I know it was so difficult for you but it seems it was a turning point for you which is awesome. Keep doing what you know is good and right for YOU Mary. I think it's the season for that.

Hula, you are right that the road is not so lonely with MWO! And we have good scenery here too - especially with the beautiful pictures always in your siggy line.

Det, I'm sorry you are not feeling 100% but I hope you and Dx have a wonderful time in Tahoe anyway. I thought of you today as I made a soup concoction with plenty of Deter Spice in it. :chef:

Wow. I just noticed that we have some cool new smilies such as :fart: and :hateputer: (that was me yesterday. Not the fart one - the hate puter one!) Now if they would only raise our smilie ration quota!!!

AFM, dating IS a lot of work especially if you are doing it the healthy way instead of get drunk, get in bed, then figure out each others names. (sad to say I did plenty of that type dating in my past!! - not saying you did!!) But I think you will get the hang of it and like it with a little practice!!! At least you won't be left with a hangover and wondering just exactly what happened.

Arial, now I LOVE this from your post!

And another day lived, not passed through.

Gyco, MWO is my on-line AA too. I'm really liking the opportunity to interact face to face with so many folks with so much sobriety - talk about not feeling lonely! They all "get it" and then some it seems. Always glad to see your smiling face!!

Willie, I don't know that the drinking thoughts will ever go away completely. But for me they have gotten less frequent and less intense with time, and with loads of internal honesty. (and even with specific effort, I STILL find Al's bullshit going on in my brain sometimes i.e. the NA Beer discussion!!) The list of good things about being sober is SO much longer than anything good about being drunk. It's worth the effort.

Hello Greenie and Kirova! Greenie you crack me up as usual!

Well, I'm off to do some reading and then early to bed for an early rise and busy day tomorrow.

I really appreciate all of you who participate in AF Daily. (everyone who didn't get a chance to post today included of course!) :h OK - enough mush already! Happy rest of Sunday, and Monday for Mame and the New Zealanders.

DG

ETA a few notes from yesterdays thread!! It feels good to get caught up with ALL the weekend action around here!

Hula, those dreams can be so unsettling until you finally figure out for sure it was only a dream!!! Hope Al let's you sleep in peace for awhile!

The Doctor Deter Show. I like that. Question Doc - is it possible to OD on garlic? If so, how much garlic would it take? Well, can I have another question? Does this garlic clove make my ass look fat? :grannypants: I think we should start a trial run of "Ask Doctor Det" right here at MWO. I bet you would end up with years worth of good material.

WIP - I'm very sorry that your visit with Mom was "one of THOSE" visits. Yuk. It's hard to imagine that ANYTHING could make visits like that one worse, but I'm sure Al would come through as always with the "worse" stuff.

AFM - love that saying of yours that there IS life outside of the bottle after all!

Tom, you made a very good point. It's easy to forget that we "are what we eat" just like we "were what we drank" when it was Al. I really do believe that I feel my best when I'm giving my body the best possible fuel which is NOT caffeine and sugar. I'm so glad that the work week AND the personal week ended on a positive note for you!

knittinggranny, CONGRATULATIONS on your progress if you are reading this. I know what you mean about "action" after many years of "talk." Amen to that. I hope you will keep us posted on your progress and share ideas and tips of your success!

OK - Now I'm REALLY going to sign off!!

DG

[Joanna]

AF Daily - Sunday, March 8

Cinders also love your spring avatar. Still cold in UK but that really cheeerd me this morning