AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

[retteacher]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Lila: You go girl...you'll feel a lot better tomorrow. Mary

[ThatGirl]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Good luck to you Lila, I know how slipping feels but if you're trying to put it right and get back on track thats all that matters

On a personal note I've had a really bautiful day today, spent a good deal of it relaxing in the sunshine, listenign to some wonderful music, it's been lovely Hope everybody elses days have been ok,

-TG

[Lila]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

It is a beautiful day, I went and worked out. Soon it will be bike riding weather. I don't know why, but I am in a good mood now. I love spring.
I can still wear my smaller jeans....

[Doggygirl]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Hi again everyone. Lila I'm sorry to read of the decision to drink. I agree with everyone else - we've all been there and the important thing is to take it seriously, and learn from it going forward. Mean time, the skinny jeans fitting still rocks - that doesn't change no matter what!! Journaling is good. We do a lot of that here but my sponsor recommended a spiral pad to carry with me, and I'm glad I got one. Good for the mind and the soul.

Today is a day that I am very grateful to have spent time learning about this addiction and it's triggers over the last 10 months. Otherwise I would be a LOT closer to that dangerous first drink than I am right now. I'm glad I have the tools. And I'm glad I learned about "awfulizing" and where that leads.

I do have a parathyroid tumor. IT IS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD!!! It is most likely benign. It's a little larger than normal (the size of a grape rather than a pea) which sounds bad, but actually is a good thing. One of the risks in surgery is the surgeon having trouble finding it once you are opened up. So there is far less risk of that sort of trouble with a grape sized one. I also am convinced after my experience today that going to University of Chicago was a very good choice. The doctor told me that they do a LOT of parathyroid surgeries and that people from the world over come to them for this very type of thing. So I believe I am in good hands. There are a few formalities that have to take place - they need to send the results back to my regular doc and she will have to officially refer me back to a surgeon at U of C. I've already sent a fax to my regular doc to let her know the outcome and that the results are on the way, etc.

I had a talk with Mr. Doggy about whether or not I should tell my parents in advance. There are some extenuating circumstances - my maternal Grandfather died of cancer which all started with a tumor in his neck. Absolutely NOT this type of tumor (grand dad worked with asbestos for many years) BUT.. I got my propensity for dramatics fair and square from my mother, and I think too much information about this would cause a lot of unecessary upset for her, Dad, AND me. That decision isn't final, but it's important that Mr. Doggy and I are considering that sort of thing. We also need to make sure our Trust is up to date and that we have a current medical power of attorney - just in case.

So you see, staying calm, rational and sober has allowed me to handle this news appropriately, and think about the things that are important just as a matter of dotting eyes and crossing T's that one should do prior to any surgery.

I am grateful to be sober. I am grateful to NOT be "awfulizing" which would lead me closer to a first drink than I am right now. I am grateful to share this journey with all of you because I know you can relate to how my alcoholism COULD complicate my thinking if I allowed myself to go there.

I love you guys!

DG

[retteacher]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

DG: I'm sorry to hear about the tumor, but I know it will be removed & taken care of. My husband had a tumor in one of his kidneys last year which was cancer but very encapsulated & removed quite expeditiously. No need for radiation or chemo. Next year at this time, you'll be looking back on this. Thank God you're sober & going through this. Please, please stay on track w/sobriety, MWO, & AA. It'll only make everything so much better. We did end up telling my mother (Dad has dementia). My husb is like a son to them...his parents are gone. My mother was pretty level-headed about it & said her novena to St. Jude (patron of hopeless cases).

DG, I will pray for you. In fact, I'll dig out my St. Jude prayer (not that you're a hopeless case). My mother swears by it. I've read studies that have proven people are prayed for heal much more quickly than people who aren't prayed for. So, if your bro is a minister, you might want him to mention it to any prayer chain that might be in his church.

Good luck.

Love, Mary

[greeneyes]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Hi all, Quick one here to say hello. DG Sorry you have to have surgery. I will send prayers for you and the surgeon. Aren't you glad you're so healthy and your body will heal quickly. sounds like you're in great hands.

Everybody be well and be strong.

[Mohun]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Hi DG. I hope things work out well for you and your family.

Best wishes.

Mo.

[SAUSAGE]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Evening all

Just a quick check in from me. DG so sorry to learn that you need surgery, I am sure you are in the best possible hands and all want to wish you all the best. Just wanted to say I am thinking of you - I admire how rationally you are dealing with all this, as you say, something that would just not be possible with drining. Do you yet know when the surgery will take place.

Does anyone know, has WIP decided to take a break from MWO again? Not been around much these last few days but i've not noticed her around for a few days either, and I wondered if this was the case from a couple of comments on todays thread that were made earlier?

Hope everyone else is OK too

Sausage xx

[Doggygirl]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Thanks to you all for your kind wishes and vibes and prayers. Mary, I will look up the St. Jude prayer - it must be on the web somewhere! The surgery is not scheduled yet but I'm hoping to keep the wheels greased and moving right along. Now that I know for sure what has to be done, I'm about getting on with it.

I am very glad to be healthier than I used to be in addition to being sober. While I did not end up with perky boobs as I hoped, there was a funny sort of moment. When the ultrasound technician saw the tumor, she went and had a doctor view it to be sure, then they both came in along with an intern (University and all) so the doc could view it some more and also talk to me about it. He asked me how old I am and when I told him 51 he was SHOCKED!! I love when that happens!! (my chest was covered with a towel so he would not have known that my boobs are anything but perky and a dead give away of my age!)

I appreciate the support here and will let you know once a date has been set.

DG

[Accountable for Me]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

:l DG. Although I am sure you must be feeling anxious; everything will more than likely go great! Thank God for not drinking eh????!!!!! You will be in good hands.

[charlee]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

DG, Thanks for keeping us posted, and please let us know when you have a date scheduled. Will keep you in my thoughts.......:l

[Doggygirl]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Accountable for Me;575380 wrote: Thank God for not drinking eh????!!!!!

AMEN. The drinker me would be all kinds of drunk right now, and awfulizing / dramatizing something fierce to justify a really over the top pity party in my honor. Drinking (for me) truly is a selfish sport and I am embarrassed to think about how I would have handled this in the old days. I am VERY glad to be sober, and with enough time and support behind me to be able to handle this situation with some level of maturity.....

Thanks AFM and Charlee.

Until tomorrow..

DG

[Marshy]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

DG - positive vibes being sent your way! It sounds as though you're in very good hands, and you've got a great attitude and as you say you're so much healthier now which will help you to recover quickly. Any idea when it might be scheduled for yet?

[Doggygirl]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Thanks Marshy. I'm hoping we can get this on the books in the next few weeks. They said my doctor should have the ultrasound report in "a couple of days." As soon as that happens, my doc should be able to give the official referral and I'm guessing we can go ahead and schedule the procedure. There is a possibilty the surgeon might want one other scan - it's some....nuclelar something or other that involves radiation which my own doc won't like unless it's absolutely necessary. It may NOT be absolutely necessary since the tumor could be seen so clearly on the ultrasound. (often these tumors can't be seen at all on an ultrasound) BUT...another factor is whether they can clearly see that there are NOT any more tumors on the other 3 glands. Usually there is only one, sometimes 2, much more rare for there to be 3 or 4. I will let my doctor and the surgeon duke that one out.

Next week is world figure skating championships so it's for SURE it won't be next week. Bring on the final season showing of the sequin spangled wedgies and stuff.

DG

[LVT25]

AF daily - Wednesday March 18th

Hi again. DG I had to pop in and give my support also! Even if they did schedule your surgery next week, it would be a great way to recuperate--watching your beloved skating!:H

My dad had his thyroid removed when I was in high school. It sounds like this is something different. Will they just remove the tumor(s)? Then I assume they check the growth for the dreaded C word which I won't even use. Pretty frightening I'm sure. Much, much MUCH better to be going through this AF and NF!!! Like the others have said--your new found health and clean living will help to ensure a speedy recovery!

Best wishes--I'm going to have to write down everyone on my ever growing prayer list!!!:l