Hi everyone its a month ago today i began this journey with al...and i started out so shaky and unsure, to sheer complacency half way through that i wouldnt never have a drink again..i thought that the people that moderated were lying to themselves and that there must be so much psychological battle in having just one drink that i couldnt contemplate it, such was so much power attached to al...well i have had the odd glass of wine this week two to be exact...the first one i left half cause i just wasnt bothered and second with a friend, not at home either, and i didnt want another didnt give a thought..i feel i have loosened the control of it, it isnt the be all and end all anymore and i could of only done that by having a month al free on here to evaluate what al meant to me...so ive decided to drink on special occasions like i used to and never at home i cant get back into that pattern again...so i just wanted to say thank you to you all for being so supportive this month and having somewhere to come when i was lost was invaluable..not that im going anywhere im not that strong!! but just to say..i was so sure when i started that i had the answer and i was wrong just goes to show we dont always know ourselves that well! it feels like the cloud has lifted:thanks:
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When you can look a thing in the eye,
Acknowledge that it exists,
Call it exactly what it is,
And decide what role it will play in your life,
Then my beloved,
You have taken the first step toward your freedom.
Iyanla Vanzant -
A month today
Good luck with your continued journey! Hope it works out for you and you know where to find us...
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Last first day - 15th April 2012
Goals:
Days 1-7 DONE
Days 8-14 DONE
Days 15-21 DONE
30 days DONE
60 days
100 days -
A month today
Shelley,
Its brilliant both that you have come this far and are doing so well and that you have found this site to be useful.
I agree with much of what you said. I decided to go AF for 2 months to re-evalate my relationship with AL. I am 6 weeks into that period. It was really only the weekends when I would drink anyway, so I have had six weekends to see whats what and its been really interesting. Throughout this period I too have had various thoughts about what I will do at the end. My present thinking and the most likley outcome is what you said. To drink occasionally, special occasions and hoildays only probably and then try to be AF in the rest of my life. The fact that it is a saturday will no long be a reason to drink!
Keep us posted as to how its going and once again well done to you.
Moo"The greatest thing in the world is not so much where we are,
but in what direction we are moving."Comment
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