Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

[retteacher]

Gee, I can't believe that I'm first. Hope everyone is doing well. Mary

[retteacher]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

I'm popping back w/a few thoughts. Last night at a meeting, there were 2 young guys sitting in back of me. Both of them shared that they had stayed sober that day. One of them spoke about being in the park & just asking to have his compulsion to drink taken away. He sounded so desperate that it brought tears to my eyes. I was so struck by the destructiveness of this disease.

I feel the urges leaving me (hopefully forever). I know how they can come out of nowhere, so I'm on my guard all the time. I thought about drinking on Wed. night. We were at a play, & I smelled AL (I think) on the person in back of me. Perhaps he/she had a drink w/dinner. Anyhow, I did think about that glass of scotch (that's what I think I smelled) that I used to have to relax. Then, I realized that I stopped drinking & relaxing a long, long time ago. There was a time when I could have a glass of scotch to relax & stop there. That can't happen anymore unfortunately.

I'm doing well today & won't have a drink for this one day. Mary

[Accountable for Me]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Good morning Mary!

I tried to start a thread earlier, as I was shocked one had not been started at 7:30am my time! But it wouldn't allow me for some reason. It wouldn't give me the subject header line.

So thank you for starting it!

It is a BEAUTIFUL day outside today! This weekend is suppose to be sunny and warm. I am SOOOOO looking forward to it.

My friend who I saw yesterday for lunch has suggested if the weather is nice on Sunday, instead of the pool, we will go to the park and then play barbies with girls. LOL! The way he put was too cute! I would rather be outside; especially when it is so nice!

Have a great day everyone!

[rubywillow]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Good morning, all. I spent a wonderful weekend last week with 'girls' I graduated from high school with, 40 years ago! Some I actually started first grade with! It was raining and stormy, but we had our old yearbooks, and I kept a fire going in our big stone fireplace, and we had a blast. I had told them I didn't drink but they were welcome to have wine if they wanted, but no one did, tho several did go to our local winery. It was not awkward, just the way we were, great old friends. Sobriety gave me confidence to enjoy myself without worrying about about embarrassessing myself in front of my oldest friends.

[Accountable for Me]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

That is great, Ruby! What a wonderful time you must of had and without alcohol! xoxo

[Determinator]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Aloha Friday ABlanders!!!!!!!!

Mary thank you for the start and the inspiring thoughts. I stopped really relaxing/drinking about 18 years ago I think. that's when things started to go downhill. if I were to have a drink now my pulse would skyrocket, I'd become nervous and a sickly warm feeling would crawl through my limbs, then finally the brain-fog would return as I reentered the sedated semi-coma I existed in for so long. I'm NOT going back to that!!!!!!

beautiful sunny morning with a blanket of new snow on the ground. the bunnies are playing in the snow and they look so very cute flinging the powder in the air.

be well friends and all to come

[ThatGirl]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Wow, first page of the thread for once :| Anywho it's day 37 and I feel like I'm makign real progress, I've finally made time to explore my spiritual side and find beliefs that suit me (I was bought up Christian but became more agnostic/atheist at around 14 years old). I also finished a major project today for my a-levels and now an just waiting for the start of exam season -bleh-. Also, Mary, I read about somethign similar to what that young man said about asking that his need for alcohol be taken away, except it was something written by an absolute idol of mine Kurt Cobain (rest in peace) about his heroin addiction, I cried when I read it. Anywho, i hope everybody's well, and I won't be on tomorrow as me and my lovely fiance are going to be having some fun together,

-TG

[ThatGirl]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

UPDATE: Somebody has just thrown a brick through my kitchen window, I am not in a good mood. Not only do we not have enough money to replace that, but the fact that somebody could do that to me in my own home - I have never been so frightened. There's so many conflicting emotions right now, I'm so angry and upset it's unbelievable, I have work in the morning but sleeping in a house after that's happened isn't gonna be easy.

-TG

[Doggygirl]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Hi all and thank you Mary for kicking us off for today. Sounds like maybe there was some sort of technical glitch earlier? At any rate, here we are and it's a LATE check in for me.

Mary, when I see and hear the very young people in person OR here (hi TG!) I have mixed emotions. On one hand I am saddened by the fact that they are dealing with addiction issues so young. On the other hand, maybe it's a good thing that they are finding this out so young. I hope many of them (well, my hope is for ALL of them) are able to learn things now that will save them years of wasted time and grief. I remember many many nights laying in bed and crying and begging for God ("if you are out there") to take my affinity for alcohol away. Oh if it were only that easy. (I didn't start begging from the foxhole until my late 30's or early 40's)

Deter did you get any pics of the bunnies? Sounds like quite a scene! From your post yesterday...I know what you mean about mixed feelings with toxins, nutrition, etc. We can worry about it until we're old and dead, or we can not worry about it until we're old and dead. Actually, what does concern me are the statistics about the US compared to other developed nations showing that as a nation, we spend more money on health care than most countries, and yet we are way down the list in terms of being healthy. As an example, I don't think I would want to live a huge number of years going through what my Dad is going through in terms of quality. The other thing that drives me nuts is Big Pharma and Big Chem both in bed with the FDA foisting their toxic crap on us and our environment without a care in the world for the long term impact. And this from a non-Democrat!

AFM it sounds like your breakfast turned lunch date was cool! Wow - a Barbie date! That sounds like fun.

Ruby it sounds like you had a great weekend with friends. For a moment I imagined myself there with you. In my hard drinking days, I would have been the friend who was JONSING BAD for booze. Sounds like your friends were the "take it or leave it" TRULY normal drinkers.

TG have fun with your BF this weekend!

I ended up not being able to donate fluids today for that comprehensive test as we determined the blood needs to be fasting blood. So I have an appointment next Friday morning for that test. I also got my consult with the surgeon schedule today - that is not until April 27. Hopefully I can get the surgery out of the way shortly after that.

I'm a bit emotionally exhausted from yesterday. In thinking it through and also getting some words of wisdom on the matter, I think my high emotions yesterday were a healthy thing. Just feelings that I normally would not allow myself to feel or examine. There is probably more where that came from fortunately or unfortunately! A food friend reminded me that there is not necessarily anything that needs to be done about it. They are just feelings.

Well, I am off to make some salmon and veggies for dinner, and then just kick back for the evening. Have a great sober weekend everyone!

DG

[Doggygirl]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

ThatGirl;585927 wrote: UPDATE: Somebody has just thrown a brick through my kitchen window, I am not in a good mood. Not only do we not have enough money to replace that, but the fact that somebody could do that to me in my own home - I have never been so frightened. There's so many conflicting emotions right now, I'm so angry and upset it's unbelievable, I have work in the morning but sleeping in a house after that's happened isn't gonna be easy.

-TG

This must be scary for you. Have you called the police to make a report? Do you have any idea who might have done this? If you don't feel safe, is there somewhere else you can go - like a friend's home or family member's home?

DG

[ThatGirl]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Have got the police here no but in true birtish police style 'if you didn't see them do it, we can't arrest them'. Even though we do know who it is. And sadly no, because the window's out we need to be home to stop people stealing from us, my poor mother was so shaken, and my brother has anger problems at the best of times.

[dill]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Hello everyone, I am only on-line for a few moments as we are on vacation and we're busy visiting with family. I've missed my MWO time!

Flying here I was thinking about reasons why people start drinking. I think there are almost as many different reasons as there are drinkers. Is that possible? Then I wondered about reasons for continuing drinking, and decided there were proably fewer in that category. Then I thought about reasons for quitiing and thought that there are probably fewer, and more universal reasons. Mostly for me, it's to take back control of my life and my health. When did I surrender control?

No need to try to answer that question! I am just sharing what I was thinking about. I wilsh I had more time but now I have to go already!

[narilly]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Thanks Mary for starting the post. I was surprised this am to see it hadn't been started.

TG- sorry about your window. I would fix it for you if I could!

I got up at 5:45 this am to work out- I used to do that all the time and then my hanovers started getting too regular. SO it was a GREAT morning!

Yes Dill it is great to be in control. The drinking definitely was controlling everything I did. (working out, meeting someone in the am, driving anywhere after 6pm etc)
Have a good weekend everyone. I will check in tomorrow.

Narilly

[Mia]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Narilly, I am where you were at the moment. Drinking has taken over my life. Not going to work, not getting up and working out, not being able to drive somewhere after 4 pm on my day off. AL does make you a prisoner in your own home.
Well Mary told me to come here so here I am.
Day ONE for me. And I'm looking forward to waking up tommorrow without being hungover

[Doggygirl]

Daily Thread Fri. - Apr. 3

Welcome Mia! I too was a prisoner in my own home as you and Narily have described. You are sure not alone around here on that one. FREEDOM ROCKS despite the hard work it takes to get here. Hope to catch up with you more on todays thread, and here about how great it was to wake up hangover free! That's a big one never to take for granted.

DG