AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

[LVT25]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

Hello all!

That girl are you sure you are only 18. You seem very wise and mature for your age. Your life at 14 sounds a lot like mine, but it took me a helluva lot longer than 4 years to figure out how stupid those things were!! Congrats on the 4 weeks as well. I hope you stick with us, I love hearing your perspective on things!

I spent the day watching the blizzard, reading, looking up recipes, facebook, MWO, watching tv and the only constructive thing I did was cook a pot of chili. We ended up with some pretty big drifts, but they cleared a path and we made it to Sunday school, church and back home before they drift shut again.

Today is usually my lazy day, but I better do something. I wish sometimes I was a go, go, go person, but I'm not built that way--I can see disadvantages to both personalities. Like right now, I'm thinking I might just take a little nap before I start cleaning.:H

Have a good one!:h

[SAUSAGE]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

Hi all
Not posted for a few days - partly lack of time and partly I really am struggling with interesting stuff to write. I'm now approaching 6 months (well will be on May 3rd) and I was doing OK but one reason why I thought i'd better post, is last 24hrs I've had quite a few drinking thoughts. It all started yesterday, i'd been out with my 3 year old and we walked past a pub, and it was a lovely sunny afternoon and I could see a woman in the pub garden sipping a glass of white wine - and I thought - if only I could do that .... and i've been dwelling on it quite a bit, and I know that's not healthy so I thought i'd be honest and own up to you all!! I'm starting to actually think I can moderate - STOP THESE EVIL THOUGHTS SOMEONE !!!

Mr Sausage actually said last night, when we were eating dinner "I don't suppose you'll drink again now will you, you seem to have gone right off it" - didn't really know what to say - we try not to discuss alcohol because it always ends up a major argument - so I just said " i'm still taking it one day at a time," and then changed the subject.

Every one else sounds so positive and doing so well - I love reading all your posts and do catch up on the thread virtually every day, although dont' always add much

Take care all

Sausage xx

[ThatGirl]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

LVT: Thank you for your kind comments I'd love to keep talking to you guys, but I also want to try modding, I don't know whether I could still come on this thread (if i didn't mention the moderatign obviously) or whether I'd be unwelcome...

[Determinator]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

thatgirl, congrats on the month AF time! you must be feeling grand.

Sausage, thank you for coming and sharing with us, don't let the critical eye of hubby or anyone throw you off this most important fight for your life. this line of yours made me think:

walked past a pub, and it was a lovely sunny afternoon and I could see a woman in the pub garden sipping a glass of white wine - and I thought - if only I could do that ...

that lady could very well be looking enviously at you with your daughter and also thinking....I wish I could do that. in other words it may look lovely from the outside but maybe she's trapped in the torment of being a problem drinker....you never know. Just food for thought.

I remember being at the checkout once with a big pile of wine to buy (as usual) and someone I knew happened to be right behind me and he said: "wow you must be having some fun this weekend"
to which I said: 'oh yeah, sure". but inside I was thinking: "good grief, this isn't fun....I'm buying this because I have to or I'll go into withdrawals and I'm terrified of living my life without it".

it may look fun on the outside. we know better.

[meditation mama]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

OK.. just checking in before my date. Having no drinking thoughts and feeling pretty relaxed. I'm sure the relaxed part will completely fade on my way to the restaurant! I'm actually very excited..

Juicy details to follow.. JUST KIDDING!

xoxoxoxo

MM

[Accountable for Me]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

Happy Sunday!

Had a wonderful weekend. The weather was awesome/still is awesome.

I must go and do some vacuuming & laundry. TTFN!

[Arial]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

SAUSAGE;572990 wrote: I have urges to drink, and then I re-visit the entire scenario, from getting the alcohol, to drinking it, to the brief feeling of relief/escape, and then quickly to drinking huge amounts more, and being drunk... then blackout... then various types of regrettable behaviors... then hangover... and then hopelessness and suicidal thoughts. No, thanks.

"WIP I just had to highlight that and quote it - What you have just posted is hugely significant / helpful to me and I will apply this entire scenario thing every time I get a craving." (by Sausage)

Hi Sausage - found this in one of your old posts from March - I don't think you need our help to realise why you have chosen the path you have - you have recognised it yourself, so all I'm giving is a little reminder...! Keep enjoying walking past the temptations, and on your new path to your sober future which you have worked so hard to create!

Wonderful to hear the energy and enthusiasm today from people - there must be something in the air! I'm off to get some beauty sleep (much needed!) but thought I'd leave with a quote:

"Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead." Louisa May Alcott (1832-1888) - This is a wonderful image of something I had lost when drinking - any aspirations or real goals - I existed on a daily basis - it's wonderful to see that beauty again... :l to all.

[retteacher]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

I haven't had any drinking thoughts in a while, but I know they can strike at any time. Just try to remember some really awful drinking episode. That might bring you back to appreciating your sobriety. I really commend you on the 6 mos. that you have. Mary

[narilly]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

That Girl-wow, you went through alot as a 14 year old. thanks for your thoughts.

Way to go sasuage- not drinking with your husband- you are a strong person keep it up!

We had supper with friends tonight- they wanted wine and I had none, this is really the hardest time for me. I always want one with supper when we have friends over. I start thinking 'only one' and blah blah blah. It is a constant thing with me. Hopefully it will stop in time.

Sober tonight anyway. Which is great.

Narilly

[Sante]

AF Daily - Sun. April 5th

It's getting toward bedtime for me, but I wanted to make one post before hitting the sack. Today is the end of my first full week AF. I think the last time I had a full week AF was in 1999 when I got a DUI. Yep, a whole week, and then I went right back to the same old, same old for...another 10 years.

By the way, we had a fabulous sail today from Rodriguez Bay to Marathon, FL. We were flying with all of our sails up. It was glorious -- a wonderful, fantastic, all natural high. Just goes to show what fine things in life there are to enjoy...without any help from alcohol.

Good night's rest to all,

Sante