Marking the daffodils and running like a Beagle!!!!
Good morning everyone! I'm feeling good and up early today. I think maybe my body is FINALLY adjusting to daylight savings time! I'm glad to have my "me" time here this morning and be going at a leisurely pace, at least for a little while.
AA I understand the frustration you experienced yesterday. Like you and others said, we all have to remember where we came from. I certainly denied my own alcoholism and the solution (abstinence!!) for a very long time. Many years before ever googling on the internet and finding MWO. While I do understand and remember what it was like to be caught in that rut - knowing I need to stop but not really wanting to (which is how I used the "this or that ain't for me..." line), I don't always have the energy these days to fight it (i.e. try to say enlightening or encouraging things. Some days I can, other days I can't. I've had to learn to choose my battles carefully here if that makes sense. I think we all do, or we will burn out and then have no capacity at all to help others here. I truly believe that just by posting here in AF Daily or the AA thread or in some other limited way, this place NEEDS active people who have more than a year of sobriety. New people NEED to see that this is possible for the long haul. And there are so few active posters here that are over a year. (although there are a few more all the time which is great progress). I think just having your posts here for people to see is a very positive thing, even if you don't post on a lot of threads in "Just Starting Out" etc. The people who REALLY want to get sober, I believe, do a lot of reading around the forum. I know I did. I looked for the people who had what I wanted even though it took me awhile to get there too.
Another topic that came up on yesterdays thread was the "lubrication" that AL provides for socializing. You know what I think? I think way more than 1/2 the people on this planet are not particularly comfortable in many "social" settings. If not for discomfort in social settings and using ONE drink or maybe TWO at the most for "lubrication" most normal drinkers would never have any reason to drink at all. I've gotten OK with the notion that I'm not particularly crazy about many social type situations and that I'm OK avoiding them where I can. And I'm a grown adult who CAN get through them when I have to for business or family type purposes without drinking over it, even when I don't like it. I've come to realize that I'm no more of a Huge Social Misfit than most people are LOL. The difference between me and "most people" isn't that - it's that I'm an alcoholic drinker and most people are not. If this makes any sense.
Anyway....it's supposed to get into the 50's today so hopefully the last little bit of that snow still hanging on in the shady spots will melt, and we can get back to spring! What are everyone's plans for Easter? We're not doing any family things (that I know of, thank goodness bah humbug!) so I'm hoping for good weather Sunday so we can til up a garden spot. YEAH!!
DG
DG
Good morning everyone! I'm feeling good and up early today. I think maybe my body is FINALLY adjusting to daylight savings time! I'm glad to have my "me" time here this morning and be going at a leisurely pace, at least for a little while.
AA I understand the frustration you experienced yesterday. Like you and others said, we all have to remember where we came from. I certainly denied my own alcoholism and the solution (abstinence!!) for a very long time. Many years before ever googling on the internet and finding MWO. While I do understand and remember what it was like to be caught in that rut - knowing I need to stop but not really wanting to (which is how I used the "this or that ain't for me..." line), I don't always have the energy these days to fight it (i.e. try to say enlightening or encouraging things. Some days I can, other days I can't. I've had to learn to choose my battles carefully here if that makes sense. I think we all do, or we will burn out and then have no capacity at all to help others here. I truly believe that just by posting here in AF Daily or the AA thread or in some other limited way, this place NEEDS active people who have more than a year of sobriety. New people NEED to see that this is possible for the long haul. And there are so few active posters here that are over a year. (although there are a few more all the time which is great progress). I think just having your posts here for people to see is a very positive thing, even if you don't post on a lot of threads in "Just Starting Out" etc. The people who REALLY want to get sober, I believe, do a lot of reading around the forum. I know I did. I looked for the people who had what I wanted even though it took me awhile to get there too.
Another topic that came up on yesterdays thread was the "lubrication" that AL provides for socializing. You know what I think? I think way more than 1/2 the people on this planet are not particularly comfortable in many "social" settings. If not for discomfort in social settings and using ONE drink or maybe TWO at the most for "lubrication" most normal drinkers would never have any reason to drink at all. I've gotten OK with the notion that I'm not particularly crazy about many social type situations and that I'm OK avoiding them where I can. And I'm a grown adult who CAN get through them when I have to for business or family type purposes without drinking over it, even when I don't like it. I've come to realize that I'm no more of a Huge Social Misfit than most people are LOL. The difference between me and "most people" isn't that - it's that I'm an alcoholic drinker and most people are not. If this makes any sense.
Anyway....it's supposed to get into the 50's today so hopefully the last little bit of that snow still hanging on in the shady spots will melt, and we can get back to spring! What are everyone's plans for Easter? We're not doing any family things (that I know of, thank goodness bah humbug!) so I'm hoping for good weather Sunday so we can til up a garden spot. YEAH!!
DG
DG
Only eight months to go to my ACTUAL one year AF. Haha.
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