Hi All: I just got back from a speaker meeting. A lot of great food for thought. The speaker spoke about willingness. Willingness to be open-minded & work the program even w/some reservations about it. I know I have some challenges ahead of me as I start to open up to my loved ones more & more about my drinking & about what I think & feel. I spent so many years being dishonest w/the people around me & numbing & covering my feelings. It's scary to come out into the open. I must do it...otherwise I really run the risk of relapse.
The speaker had a lot of sobriety, but he also spoke about relapses. He said that just prior to the relapses he "buttoned up." He didn't attend meetings regularly, he didn't contact his support system (AA buddies), he didn't ask for help or reach out...in short, he isolated. Alcoholism thrives on isolation. We drink & the world gets shut out. As a result, we feel lonely & drink...a vicious cycle gets set up.
It's getting late, & I have a big day tomorrow.
Please, if you're lurking, don't be shy about chiming in. This thread isn't just for people who attend meetings. Anyone can share about the ideas here. I do love hearing about other people's experiences w/meetings as well.
Mary
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