Marking mommy's pretty flowers and RUNNING!!
I really must find the old pic of Buck (in my current avatar) peeing on my Day Lillies. Deter, I was snapping a few pics of him when on my way to out to take pics of the flowers. In one of the pics he turned around really fast and had his tongue out which resulted in the avatar pic. Of course it looks even funnier cropped like that to feature only the head.
Mary I love how you can summarize things and really express your point succinctly. I like your summary of what you have gained from participation in MWO from yesterdays thread.
HG - I am really happy for you from the way you described your session with the counselor! And good for you just going with your own vibe and taking a nap since you felt tired. For me anyway, a big part of my drinking involved feeling one way, but hiding that behind booze and presenting something false. Sometimes being more honest simply means taking a nap when we feel tired rather than trying to be Super Person. I can also say that for me, revealing things I have kept bottled up in side can be very exhausting, but in a really good way. Like dumping toxic waste out of my system or something. So good for you!! This really is a journey about more than just stopping the flow of booze.
Peacenik - I hit a point at around 100 days sober (I think you are around that minus the blip, right?) where I was like...."OK. What now?" The "new" excitement of being sober was wearing off, and I had empty spots where booze used to be that were just....still empty. I still have not completely sorted all this out, but is this a point you might be reaching? It seems many of us go through it. For me, that signaled a time to really start exploring what it's going to take to LIVE....not just "not drink." I think that's what some people mean by "dry drunk" but I've heard that term used so many times and I think it means slightly different things to different people.
Dill!!!! I need to be better about posting some in the Just Starting Out section. BALANCE is something I have yet to master. It has been easy for me to get TOO involved, and then get burned out. It is only natural that many people come here new - just like I did - who are not ready to acknowledge the true level of the problem. People come here like I did clinging to the hope that moderation will be possible (I know it IS possible for some - but was not for me but I sure liked the fantasy!) etc. In my "burn out" times I neglect to post there at all. I know it is important for all of us - at ALL stages of getting sober to participate for the new folks. I know I benefited from many different perspectives along the way. I need to find a happy medium!
One of the business leads groups I belong to - the Friday morning group - is going through a bit of a sad thing. I've belonged to this group for 3+ years now, and Mr. Doggy participated before that. And the group was around for a few years before that. Always meeting at the same old restaurant at 7AM every Friday. As if the bad economy were not treacherous enough, about a month ago one of the local casino's burned down. Well, the actual casino part that is technically on the riverboat didn't go down, but all of the other stuff connected - the hotel, restaurants, shops, entrance to the casino, etc. burned to the ground. The casinos are huge to our local economy. The casino has been VERY good to their employees as they make plans to get re-opened, but there are so many other dependent businesses including this little restaurant. So today is our last meeting in that location and our waitress - we've had the same one all these years - is of course very worried about finding another job the way things are right now. (and with the added employment "competition" with so many casino workers out there looking...) So we have to find another place to meet - not easy since we need a private room and a fairly large group with separate checks. But it's a sad day in so many other ways. Hopefully we can get through the process of finding a new location without killing each other in the process. :b&d:
The sun is up now and it is supposed to get up to 80 degrees today!!! WHEE!!! I have on a new pair of slide / sandals and my toe nail art is showing.
Have a great sober day everyone!
DG
I really must find the old pic of Buck (in my current avatar) peeing on my Day Lillies. Deter, I was snapping a few pics of him when on my way to out to take pics of the flowers. In one of the pics he turned around really fast and had his tongue out which resulted in the avatar pic. Of course it looks even funnier cropped like that to feature only the head.
Mary I love how you can summarize things and really express your point succinctly. I like your summary of what you have gained from participation in MWO from yesterdays thread.
HG - I am really happy for you from the way you described your session with the counselor! And good for you just going with your own vibe and taking a nap since you felt tired. For me anyway, a big part of my drinking involved feeling one way, but hiding that behind booze and presenting something false. Sometimes being more honest simply means taking a nap when we feel tired rather than trying to be Super Person. I can also say that for me, revealing things I have kept bottled up in side can be very exhausting, but in a really good way. Like dumping toxic waste out of my system or something. So good for you!! This really is a journey about more than just stopping the flow of booze.
Peacenik - I hit a point at around 100 days sober (I think you are around that minus the blip, right?) where I was like...."OK. What now?" The "new" excitement of being sober was wearing off, and I had empty spots where booze used to be that were just....still empty. I still have not completely sorted all this out, but is this a point you might be reaching? It seems many of us go through it. For me, that signaled a time to really start exploring what it's going to take to LIVE....not just "not drink." I think that's what some people mean by "dry drunk" but I've heard that term used so many times and I think it means slightly different things to different people.
Dill!!!! I need to be better about posting some in the Just Starting Out section. BALANCE is something I have yet to master. It has been easy for me to get TOO involved, and then get burned out. It is only natural that many people come here new - just like I did - who are not ready to acknowledge the true level of the problem. People come here like I did clinging to the hope that moderation will be possible (I know it IS possible for some - but was not for me but I sure liked the fantasy!) etc. In my "burn out" times I neglect to post there at all. I know it is important for all of us - at ALL stages of getting sober to participate for the new folks. I know I benefited from many different perspectives along the way. I need to find a happy medium!
One of the business leads groups I belong to - the Friday morning group - is going through a bit of a sad thing. I've belonged to this group for 3+ years now, and Mr. Doggy participated before that. And the group was around for a few years before that. Always meeting at the same old restaurant at 7AM every Friday. As if the bad economy were not treacherous enough, about a month ago one of the local casino's burned down. Well, the actual casino part that is technically on the riverboat didn't go down, but all of the other stuff connected - the hotel, restaurants, shops, entrance to the casino, etc. burned to the ground. The casinos are huge to our local economy. The casino has been VERY good to their employees as they make plans to get re-opened, but there are so many other dependent businesses including this little restaurant. So today is our last meeting in that location and our waitress - we've had the same one all these years - is of course very worried about finding another job the way things are right now. (and with the added employment "competition" with so many casino workers out there looking...) So we have to find another place to meet - not easy since we need a private room and a fairly large group with separate checks. But it's a sad day in so many other ways. Hopefully we can get through the process of finding a new location without killing each other in the process.
:b&d:The sun is up now and it is supposed to get up to 80 degrees today!!! WHEE!!! I have on a new pair of slide / sandals and my toe nail art is showing.
Have a great sober day everyone!
DG
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