Good morning all,
Loads to think about on yesterday's thread. Really got me thinking about relapses. This time is a little different because my head is a little different. When I lapsed at the ball it was because someone I like but see little of was at the bar... I can't buy you a water.... not you.... of all people.... It was someone who had never thought of me as a drunk, just a party animal. A man friend (who doesn't fancy me) and I think there was a bit of me who liked that viewpoint. Now that I am sober I realise that I still like to have a laugh, muck about, bit of dancing ..... but now I do it when I am having a good time. Before I would drink to make a dire evening better, now I go home if I am not enjoying myself.
I was invited to a Eurovision party but I delined because the friend who is hosting it was secretly pleased when I fell off the wagon. She was beside me at the ball and a few weeks later when I was back to really canning it, her comment was... hey we've got Loppy back! She is a good person really but I can't and shouldn't expect any support from her.
Anyway how to describe Eurovision. To start with you have to appreciate that it is only fun because it is so bad it is good. It is a song contest where all the countries in Europe enter a song and then there is a vote and a winner. Abba came to fame when they won it with Waterloo. so it has been going for donkey's year's. Europe is very loosely defined, as Azerbajan is tipped to be the winner this year! In recent year's the voting has been very political and no one takes it seriously as a song contest anymore. Last year Ireland's entry was a glove puppet.
People give parties, dress up and boo, hiss and cheer at the tv screen for an evening. For the last 30 year's the TV commentary was by Terry Wogan who used to have a drink or two over the course to the evening and his comments would get more and more unexpected. I think he is still persona non grata in that Scandinavian country (can't remember which one) where he kept refering to the compare as Dr Death. He resigned last year because the voting had become such a joke. Russia won because all the ex-soviet states voted for them. So tonight we have Graham Norton and his similarly acidic wit. Here is a link Eurovision Song Contest - Moscow 2009 but I suspect to really get it you have to have grown up with it.
So I am spending this evening on my own with my grapefruit and soda and snacks and rolled up bit of newspaper to throw t the tv screen. (easier to clean up than peanuts as I've found in previous years).
Hope everyone has a good sober weekend. Cindi fingers crossed that the baby comes of its own accord before you have to leave on Monday.
Take care
Loads to think about on yesterday's thread. Really got me thinking about relapses. This time is a little different because my head is a little different. When I lapsed at the ball it was because someone I like but see little of was at the bar... I can't buy you a water.... not you.... of all people.... It was someone who had never thought of me as a drunk, just a party animal. A man friend (who doesn't fancy me) and I think there was a bit of me who liked that viewpoint. Now that I am sober I realise that I still like to have a laugh, muck about, bit of dancing ..... but now I do it when I am having a good time. Before I would drink to make a dire evening better, now I go home if I am not enjoying myself.
I was invited to a Eurovision party but I delined because the friend who is hosting it was secretly pleased when I fell off the wagon. She was beside me at the ball and a few weeks later when I was back to really canning it, her comment was... hey we've got Loppy back! She is a good person really but I can't and shouldn't expect any support from her.
Anyway how to describe Eurovision. To start with you have to appreciate that it is only fun because it is so bad it is good. It is a song contest where all the countries in Europe enter a song and then there is a vote and a winner. Abba came to fame when they won it with Waterloo. so it has been going for donkey's year's. Europe is very loosely defined, as Azerbajan is tipped to be the winner this year! In recent year's the voting has been very political and no one takes it seriously as a song contest anymore. Last year Ireland's entry was a glove puppet.
People give parties, dress up and boo, hiss and cheer at the tv screen for an evening. For the last 30 year's the TV commentary was by Terry Wogan who used to have a drink or two over the course to the evening and his comments would get more and more unexpected. I think he is still persona non grata in that Scandinavian country (can't remember which one) where he kept refering to the compare as Dr Death. He resigned last year because the voting had become such a joke. Russia won because all the ex-soviet states voted for them. So tonight we have Graham Norton and his similarly acidic wit. Here is a link Eurovision Song Contest - Moscow 2009 but I suspect to really get it you have to have grown up with it.
So I am spending this evening on my own with my grapefruit and soda and snacks and rolled up bit of newspaper to throw t the tv screen. (easier to clean up than peanuts as I've found in previous years).
Hope everyone has a good sober weekend. Cindi fingers crossed that the baby comes of its own accord before you have to leave on Monday.
Take care
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