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[Janice]

Well I thought I could live without MWO. Think I managed about 90 days "this" time. Now, hereshe is with her tail between her legs.......yep, same old story, I'm back and boy, do I need some help ths time!!!

Found a new addi ction though, since February I'vbe got into ancestory and tracing my family tree - fee that dead family don't cause half as much stress!! Seriously, there's been something quite comforting about it but trouble is over recent weeks I've been weak and needed the old glass by my side.

Wont go into details but I know its time to draw the line.

Jan icexxcc

[mooderator]

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WELCOME BACK JANICE

[Doggygirl]

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Welcome back Janice. Mr. Doggy worked on his geneology before him and I met. He did pretty extensive research. Some of the history is a bit sad but it's all interesting.

There is no turning back for me - if I want to lead a good life I MUST stay alcohol free. I hate the thought of having to do that first few months over again!

DG

[rubywillow]

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Hi, Janice. So good to meet you! I TOTALLY understand the geneaology addiction - I live on property that has been in my family for hundreds of years, have access to tons of old legends, grave yards, etc. My kids were embarrassed by me hanging around cemeteries, but more so when I started drinking. Since I quit, I've gotten involved again, too. Couldn't keep up with all the twists and turns and drink! LOL

[Janice]

Hi

thanks for the replies. Its been 2 years since I joined MWO and I'm not going to bore you with my AF/drinking history. It bores me. I suppose this time I thought this was it and I thought that I needed to break the pattern and that staying away from MWO WAS breaking the pattern. I found a new interest and for a while I didn't need that drink. I started to feel normal.

Researching my ancestory has given me something. Don't know what it is, but something. Think its to do with losing Dad and, in a way, mam even though physically she's still with me. But she's not the mam I know and love...and yet, here I am following in her footsteps. But I keep telling myself I'm fine I'm in control, I'm not like her. And, to an extent I am in control. The house runs fine, I go to work, etc etc etc but then 4.30pm arrives and I need. I need that glass, just one. Oh well, may be a second, this will be my last. Then, the third, this is defintely my last one. And os the story goes.

Its not interfing with my life - welll, I don't think so, but I know I shouldn't have this need that I have. I go out of my way to get it. I hide it. I tell lies for it. I need it.

Its time to come back, its as simple as that.

Janicex

[Determinator]

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Janice, good to see you again. this is a great thread and I look forward to your presence here again.

[july232007]

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Janice,

Good to see your post. Sorry for the bumps in the road, but you know how to see your way back.

July

[rustop61]

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Hi Janice

Welcome back, good to see you on the boards again. I too took up genalogy. I did the first module with a local university and found it fascinating. I started module II but my cousin was ill at the time and I missed four of the first five lectures. They allowed me to defer it. I intend to take it up again when I have more time. My teenagers are taking up too much time at the moment, there is no way I could go back to it. However, something to look forward to in the future.

I am still with MWO chugging along, trying to get more and more AF time under my belt. Have stopped obsessing with days and numbers, just make MWO part of my life and get on with it. Look forward to seeing you around.

Rustop

[SAUSAGE]

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Hi Janice
Good to have you back - I got into genealogy too - really only started researching it after my 1st child was born nearly 5 years ago, partly as I had more time on my hands with not working full time / maternity leave etc and partly I believe because I now had a "descendent" and wanted to be able to hand my research on to someone one day.

It's been a geat hobby - and of course the internet is fantastic for this kind of thing - and i've got in touch with lots of on line relatives - I use genesreunited and ancestry.co.uk . I've made huge progress partlicularly on my late father's side of the family which I knew very little about - just sad my dad died before the internet took off as he would have been fascinated with my research as he always intended to research it himself when he retired.

I'm now just over 6 months AF - I still come to MWO and most days look in on the AF Daily, but I don't post as often as I did, partly because I don't feel I need to and partly because I don't have very interesting stuff to say!!

Look forward to "seeing" you around!

[hiddengoal]

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Welcome back Janice.

"Its not interfing with my life - welll, I don't think so, but I know I shouldn't have this need that I have. I go out of my way to get it. I hide it. I tell lies for it. I need it."

That says a lot that many can relate to. The 'interference' isn't noticed when we go out of our way to acquire and hide. I am figuring out how much I was hiding from my self. Coming out into the sunshine is empowering. Stay close and we are all here to support one another.

[Janice]

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Thank you for all the warm "welcome backs". It must be very frustrating for all you long-termers coming on and seeing people like me pop up again. I know the only person I have let down is myself but at the same time I do feel I've let my friends down here on MWO especially the daily abs thread. I'm sorry.

I do intend to stay close to MWO especially these next few days however I do feel that in the past I became far too reliant on MWO and spent way too much time on here (now I'm spending way too much time on ancestry.co.uk!!). Talk about an addictive personality!!!

I'm away in Switzerland next week for half-term with my husband and mum-in-law and I have to break this pattern of daily drinking before then otherwise I'll be a nightmare to live with. My husband has been on a fitness campaign over recent months and he has totally cut back his wine, being quite happy with his one glass on a Friday, one glass on a Saturday. I'll never be able to do that - I have to be completely AF - but I know he won't take any encouraging to support me. I can tell he's concerned.

Anyway I'll probably check back in later, I need to get day 1 under my belt.

Thank you everyone......


Janicexxx

[Lavande]

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Hi Janice,

Welcome back - you know this is a great place!
I've only been here 3 months myself but it feels like home to me now

You know you have a huge group of people here to support you. That's why I plan to stick close for a long, long time to come. I have 8 AF weeks under my belt now but know that I still could mess up anytime. I am determined to stay with my plan.

Wishing you all the best for your Day 1,
Lavande

[Loppy lugs]

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Welcome back

My little lapse turned into a relapse but I have now been AF for nearly a month.

Hope you get what you need this time. There are worse things you could do that spend time on MWO or the internet. Becoming addicted to Bluewater for example although isn't there a genelogy shop there?

Look after yourself.

[retteacher]

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Welcome back Janice. I know only too well the ups & downs of relapsing. I've remained faithful to MWO but limit myself to this forum only. There are a couple of threads I like (daily & AA thread). I've joined AA after a horrendous incident that happened in Feb. See, you're not the only one! Take care of yourself in any way you can. Mary

[lilmea]

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Janice,

Glad to see you are back with us.