AF Daily Friday 22 May

[Loppy lugs]

Hi all, I know what day it is today!

What a mixed day we all had yeterday. It is all a bit real when you're sober!

The first 30 days under my belt but I will never again become complacent. Yesterday once again proved to me that I'm a drunk. I won't go into details but in the afternoon I had a major disappointment. I will get over it but it will take some time. Anyway I sooooo wanted to be drunk. Not to drink but to be at home, on my sofa, totally blotto.

It didn't take me long to realise that I didn't really want to be drunk, I just didn't want to feel that way.... This morning I am still upset and will be for some time but a different bit of me is a bit proud. For the first time in years, I really wanted something. I really struck my neck out for something that wasn't a dead cert. OK it didn't work out but I tried.

Anyway I was due to have dinner with one of my old drinking buddies to celebrate. She is incredibly supportive, which is great, because I wouldn't want to lose her friendship just because I don't drink. It was great she just talked at me until my mood shifted enough to be able to join in and have a laugh.

Tonight I am going to watch myself carefully because I am out with the friend from the ball. As I've said before she is a good person but she wishes I was still drinking.

Anyway enough of me, how is everyone else doing?

Have a good day.

[startingover]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Loppy, WELL DONE!! On so many counts, 30 days and also winning that mental battle.
You are a tough cookie!

[Cinders]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Loppy,

Well done on figuring out where you are. Well done.

Starty, Hi.

Everyone else, have a nice AF day.

I am going to. I will be with hubby the entire weekend - and that is awesome - to go play Blackjack in a tournament. I am excited, scared, silly. Hubby and dad told me "what is the worst that can happen?" They are right.

All I need is this weekend with my hubby and no drinking. It is a chance to be alone with the one I love and no "needs" pressing in.

So, to all, have a great AF day and weekend.

Love,
Cindi

[rustop61]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Hi everyone

Well done Loppy both on the 30 days and the mental battle. Good luck Cindi in the blackjack tournament. How is the new baby doing? plus mother of course.

I am still fighting this cold and feel ugh. Going out for dinner tonight for my daughters birthday and wont be able to taste a thing!! Good incentive not to have desert, whats the point when I cannot enjoy. Every cloud has a silver lining.

Have a great week-end everyone.

Rustop

[Cinders]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Oooh. You asked about the baby.

He is perfect in every way. A little cap of straight black hair, opens his eyes, nurses well and has tugged on my heart in a big way. I spent all yesterday afternoon with them and it was one of those special days. You know what I mean. One of those days that will stand out for my entire life.

Love the babies.

And, Little Bit, granddaughter, came in from school and sat on my lap and gave me lovings, too. She is part of my heart and soul forever.

And, grandsons. 11 and 9. What little roosters. I love them all.

Love silly granny,
Cindi

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Good morning Ab Landers!

Loppy, congratulations on 30 days sober and even bigger - for the new thinking and new realizations you are making. That is such wonderful progress in overcoming Al's ugly grip.

Cindi you sound very excited about your new grand baby and that sure brought a smile to my face - thank you! Best of luck in your tournament this weekend. Mainly, I hope you have a lot of fun and enjoy your "getaway" with hubby.

Rustop I'm sorry to hear you are still feeling craptacular. I hope you are able to enjoy DD's party anyway!

Starting - always good to see you.

I have MUCH catching up to do around here! This week has been hectic. The only bad news is that Dad seems to have taken a turn for the worse and his doctors seem to be playing the finger pointing blame game rather than trying to figure out the best solution. I am grateful that I can deal with this matter much more peacefully today than in the past. "Acceptance" is so important to my peace of mind and yet it's been a very big challenge to start accepting things I cannot change. All I can do for Dad is mainly just love him, and let him know I am available to do things for him when he needs me. I can't fix the doctors or the hampster wheel of a medical system that he is caught in.

Mean time, my truck was in the shop for a couple of days. It rolled over 95,000 miles recently but is still in great shape for an old fart. I hope I'm still driving it in another 10 years. But of course with an older vehicle there are sometimes expensive repairs - this time the brakes needed an overhaul. Oh well. It's still WAY less expensive than monthly car payments!

I'm loving the new Far Infrared Sauna. I hope the longer term benefits that were touted come to pass. Mean time, a sauna, then a shower makes for some GOOD sleep!

I'm trying to get settled in to a new workout schedule with the change in gyms. I am working out longer than I used to at Curves but I'm loving it. I especially like working with the trainer 2X per week. I don't have to think at all - just show up ready to work. It's kind of nice! My brain is always working over time anyway (not usually in a good way either!!)

Since this has turned into a disgustingly "all about me" post, I might as well go ahead and shout from the roof tops that today is one year of continuous sobriety for me. I love my new freedom and life!! My only regret is not ditching AL many years ago.

Hello to all yet to come. Man I'm already feeling guilty about my absence for a couple of days, then roll on in with a completely self indulgent post. For today I will forgive myself that indiscretion.

Have a wonderful AF day everyone!

DG

[retteacher]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Cindi: Congratulations for the new addition to your life. Grandchildren really are so incredibly wonderful. I too have 3 g-sons & a g-daughter. They each offer me something unique. Have fun at the tournement. Mary

[greeneyes]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Morning abbers!

Great going loopy! I think moments like that are like great big building blocks. I hope tonight is easy and fun for you.

Cindi, goodness! All that love! What I thought was the sunrise was probably your aura! Have a great time.

Rustop gosh I hope you get over that cold soon. It must be wearing you out, but I'm sure you'll have fun anyway.

It's pretty out and I'm enjoying that "happy" feeling. Some things are not going smoothly but it's so nice to have them in proper perspective. No matter what, AF life is good

Hi mary!

[greeneyes]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

:cheering::cheering:CONGRATULATIONS!!!:cheering:



ON YOUR "OTHER" BIRTHDAY, DG!

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Wanted to just post again after at least reading yesterdays thread! Hello to EVERYONE and here are a few notes..

Speedster I can't even imagine how Mr. D would feel if his trainer cut and ran 3 weeks before a trial. There are no words! Sometimes things happen for a reason though and maybe the other advanced trainer in the area will be awesome. So you like the Kindle, huh? I somehow can't imagine that new fangled technology but now you've piqued my interest. I remember WIP talking about Emotional Alchemy. I added it to my "books to read someday" list but maybe it's time to reserve it at the library. Sounds very interesting - i hope you will keep sharing about it.

Greenie, isn't snitching Mommy's car for a joy ride, including a BS story about "I didn't know you needed it back" and running the gas tank empty something that 17 year olds do????? Geez. Some men will never grow up I think. I can fully understand why you are estranging from him. Great news that you didn't even think about drinking. Those moments are priceless when they start happening!

com1 congrats on 22 Days sober!

Hula - good for you taking the week off. I love the New Adventures of Hula's Wayward Bicycle.

LVT that dizzy / nausea thing sounds awful. Are you feeling better today?

Ruby - you hit a bullseye for me when you said you are trying not to attempt solving everyone else's problems. Orchestrating the Whole Show is a trap for me too. Then when everyone doesn't "behave" as I think they should, frustration, anger, and drinking thoughts result. That's been a tough one for me to work on but like you, I am trying!

Lavande - congrats on 8 weeks AF AND 3 DAYS NF!!! It's so worth it. Hang in there!

Pamina, I think I love you. (for pulling out the party gear!!!)

Hi to HG and Deter and everyone else who posted yesterday and yet to come today!

DG

[Lavande]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

A huge Congratulations to you DG :goodjob:
One year AF is fantastic!
You are my hero

Wishing you and absolutely everyone here a wonderful Holiday Weekend.
We all deserve a little R&R............AF of course.

Peace & Blessings to everyone,
Lavande

[speedster]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Congratulations Doggy Girl!! One year of spectacular sobriety!

DG, you are such an inspiraton and supporter to all of us. I appreciate you making the effort to 'speak' to us individually and your sense of humor keeps us laughing about things that could make us cry.

I hope you have a fabulous, self-indulgent day. You're the best!

Hello everyone, I'm taking today off work and the dog is being a push nose about going for a walk NOW, so I'm off to the trail with my pup.

Have a great AF Friday.

[com1]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

:thanks::thanks: for all the support to all the great folks here.

And special congrats to you!!

com1

[hiddengoal]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Happy AF Celebrations Day!

30 days!, 365 days! And all AF days between, or before and after!!

Cinders & DG thanks for letting us join in your good sobriety feelings! Your successes, your sharing, and your struggles inspire so many others on this path.

I want to speak to the 'self-indulgence' that people seem to be feeling guilty about when their posts are self expressions about their thoughts 'on the journey'. (I have certainly posted about my journey frequently.) I am not looking to absolve myself, but think we should let go of that guilt.

Each of us on on our own journey - it IS about us. We have chosen to share it with this community, where we find support, we support others, but very often we just need to express ourselves and all the thinking our newly revived brains are experiencing. I think this expression is a huge part of the recovery because perhaps we did not even connect with ourselves when we were drinking - we sort of 'jumped over ourselves'.

Now that we are fully tuning in to ourselves, we have a bigger need, perhaps, to express and analyze our thinking. Once the thoughts are out, at least for me, there is more room to think of, and do for, others. Maybe this is the thinking of a truly self-indulgent one, but I prefer to know that it is the thinking of self-actualization. Maybe we have transformed from 'heavy drinkers', to 'heavy thinkers' - ha!

That's my 50 cents! I hope its a great long weekend for everyone and that you experience something that energizes your spirit!!

[momof3]

AF Daily Friday 22 May

Congratulations on One Year Doggygirl
You are an inspiration to us all