What a thread yesterday! So many things to really make you think.
Firstly thank you everyone for your concern I promise that I will not hurt myself whatever happens. I will find some other way.
I found the isolation theme very interesting. It is something I do all the time. That and an inability to really ask for help. I found it interesting to realise that I only went on chat after I had exploded I couldn't go on and say "I feel ..... please help" but that I can be very honest after the event. I think that is why I find the whole concept of AA frightening, you have to reach out to a real person and be vulnerable. I am not ready to go even though the longer I come to this site the more I realise it really helps many people.
I wonder how many people here are the "strong" ones in their relationships with others. I am very lucky with most of my friends and many of them would do absolutely anything for me if I asked but I would never dream of burdening them. Although I am certain that at least one of them would be really hurt to know what I am going through and that I hadn't told her. Actually now I think of it more than one.
When to let friends go? Interesting, just as I find it hard to reach out to people, I also find it hard to block out people who are not helpful to me. I have frequently ended up with people pushing their friendships on me and I never know how to get out of it. Sometimes I have even turned my phone off until they stop calling. Very immature but I'm not very good at saying no and often there just isn't enough me to go around.
Anyway need to cuddle a rabbit before I go to work. Rusty or Stew as I've taken to calling him, as in "do that again and you're stew" continues to be a big character. I'm so glad he and Lady M became friends and I was able to keep him.
Take care everyone
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