I have been "keeping my eye on the prize" of health and harmony, through AF days, since June 1st. Yesterday was my biggest situational trigger to overcome/withstand yet. I had a nice dinner with a friend, who had wine...I didn't, but that didn't bother me. What was the challenge, however, turned out to be a spatial one: I had my condo to myself since I've become AF, and I love (sorry, but it is a certain kind of wacky love) to have wine while I sit quietly in my space, light some candles, and just remain "still." What is clear about me is this: I like to drink alone.
I have had many opportunities socially these past 30+ days to have wine while out with friends. Frankly, keeping AF has been pretty care-free (the supplements I'm taking really do help the cravings!). Even the night before last, my husband and I were at a friend's house with another couple having dinner. Everyone had before dinner drinks, plus wine with dinner. I just kept to my Perrier and lime. No problem.
But last night, it became abundantly clear that my preference and weakness for wine surrounds the solitude of my private space.
I said a prayer, popped some popcorn and tried to watch an old movie, then...went to bed. Woke up today feeling rested, clear headed, and relieved I did not have the regret of bingeing behind me. My pattern in the past has been a bottle + 1/2 of wine an evening.
So, I'm feeling humbled as well as happy right now. Also, I want everyone on this site to know how having this larger community of alcohol-aware-challenged people comforts and empowers me. Thank you.:thanks:
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