Hope everyone's doing well. Lovely sunny morning here.
I've been away visiting my family. Triggers all around...
I was OK for the first couple of days even though my parents drink a lot and there's always an open bottle of wine on the go. My dad even offered me whisky and he knows I never drank whisky.
Anyway, that was all OK. But then my brother and sister and their partners and a few nieces and nephews arrived for dinner on Wednesday and I suddenly wanted to join in with everyone else drinking. We don't all see each other very often and I feels like a celebration to have a few/too many drinks.
So I had a weird evening wanting to drink, with a few people commenting on me still not drinking, so making me think about it even more!
There were lots of specific incidents involving old established patterns, memory, nostalgia, emotion... won't go into them here, but I definitely felt I was missing out by not drinking.
For ages now, even though sometimes I've had an urge to drink, I've been very strong mentally in knowing that I can't drink and that's a good thing, and I've felt very positive about it. Now I think I've slipped into "deprivation mode"... I feel like I've lost my mojo. (Anyone finding said mojo, please return ASAP).
DG - thinking about you and your dad. Hope you both have a speedy recovery.
Everyone have a good day - and hang on to your mojos!
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