I was just reading through some threads after not coming on MWO for several months. I'm glad to see so many familiar names and glad to hear that people seem to be doing really well.
I guess I'm posting as a way of recommitting to sobriety. The past months have slipped by as a slow plodding ... getting stuff done (slowly), feeling better and more hopeful as I continue to get used to my new community (Aug 2 is our one year anniversary of being back in California). We've almost got the house "done"; painted every room, replaced hardware, light fixtures and window treatments, and are mostly unpacked and fairly organized. I learned to knit and really like it. I'm taking a ceramics class, and really like it. I've planted all sorts of herbs and tomatoes in my backyard and they're doing well despite our living in a fog belt. I manage to get my dog to the beach or on a hike 2-4 times a week (but should do more of that). I'm toying with the idea of getting involved in some community activities but am frightened that I'll let people down because of my drinking.
Yes, I'm still drinking but OH SO want to stop. If there was an operation to take away the drinking part of my brain, I would do it! We've (hubby & I) managed to get our binges down to once a week for the most part but of course that's totally unacceptable. It continues to amaze me that the decision to drink can happen in an instant. Someone here said when AL enters the room, she leaves the building. I liked that and have used it successfully on several occasions. Also I like this one particular self help book I have that puts any change down to the very simple idea of just do it (or don't do it as the case may be). It is hard to stay within that total black and white area when AL seems to lurk in the gray areas, the sliding scales, the self-bargaining ...
Anyway, I'll be back more often now. It did help hearing everyone talk here, though I find it too easy to spend half the day on the computer!
Thanks everyone for sharing.
Cheers.
I guess I'm posting as a way of recommitting to sobriety. The past months have slipped by as a slow plodding ... getting stuff done (slowly), feeling better and more hopeful as I continue to get used to my new community (Aug 2 is our one year anniversary of being back in California). We've almost got the house "done"; painted every room, replaced hardware, light fixtures and window treatments, and are mostly unpacked and fairly organized. I learned to knit and really like it. I'm taking a ceramics class, and really like it. I've planted all sorts of herbs and tomatoes in my backyard and they're doing well despite our living in a fog belt. I manage to get my dog to the beach or on a hike 2-4 times a week (but should do more of that). I'm toying with the idea of getting involved in some community activities but am frightened that I'll let people down because of my drinking.
Yes, I'm still drinking but OH SO want to stop. If there was an operation to take away the drinking part of my brain, I would do it! We've (hubby & I) managed to get our binges down to once a week for the most part but of course that's totally unacceptable. It continues to amaze me that the decision to drink can happen in an instant. Someone here said when AL enters the room, she leaves the building. I liked that and have used it successfully on several occasions. Also I like this one particular self help book I have that puts any change down to the very simple idea of just do it (or don't do it as the case may be). It is hard to stay within that total black and white area when AL seems to lurk in the gray areas, the sliding scales, the self-bargaining ...
Anyway, I'll be back more often now. It did help hearing everyone talk here, though I find it too easy to spend half the day on the computer!
Thanks everyone for sharing.
Cheers.
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