AF Daily - Monday - July 27

[dill]

From the Daily Readings:

"The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I
can change."
--Carl Rogers

Good morning Abbers! It's so strange, this alcohol "thing". So much of my energy must be focused on it it makes me weary. I ask myself why I got myself into this. My life could be so much simpler if I hadn't. Sigh. I always try to look for the positive, and the positve in this is that it makes me appreciate many things in life more than I would have without this struggle; or perhaps more intensely.

I am still waiting for the "Laws of Attraction" book to become available, but in the meanwhile, I have been listening to the "Power of Now" by E. Tolle. It is fascinating to me and I have played some parts over again. The quote from the Daily Readings captures one of the key concepts in the book. Another key concept is "God" and I must say, Tolle has given me a new way to perceive and understand this.

AFM, you did so well in a trigger-filled situation! You should be very proud! And Cinders, I am so happy for you. You are doing great!

Have a great day everyone.

[greeneyes]

AF Daily - Monday - July 27

Morning abbers!!

Thanks dill! That's a tough one eh? We are our own worst critics!

This is quite the puzzle. For me anyway. I'm real confused. I started into this comparison about the idea of law of attraction and soul contracts and got so muddled I deleted it. sigh.

Cheers to all! Have a good one!

[Accountable for Me]

AF Daily - Monday - July 27

Good morning!

I have to agree with Greenie, dill. We are our own worst critics. How long have you been off of AL? I was off of AL for 8 months in 2007 and I was thinking about AL everyday. It was a 'whiteknuckled' time for me. It was complete Hell. I don't know what it is this time around. I truly don't obsess about it anymore. I finally feel at peace with the fact that I cannot drink and it was my time to move on from that life. xoxo

Hello to you greenie!

I have to make this very quick. I didn't get to sleep until after 11, which is RARE for me. It was too hot in my room to settle in sooner than that. I feel great this morning however. BUT I woke up at 5:45 instead of my usual 5ish time.

So I have to boogy! Have a great day everyone!!!

[AAthlete]

AF Daily - Monday - July 27

Thanks for starting off the morning Dill, and I love the quote!

Very true for me, as I had to accept my drinking problems and all the ugly warts that went along with it before I could change. BUT WE CAN CHANGE and it doesn't have to be a constant, ongoing battle. That was a damn hard concept to swallow and it took me a long time but I eventually came around..

Had a good weekend tearing out drywall in the kitchen. The significant other had finally ordered her new countertops and to get ready for them I am removing the old tile back-splash. Should look nice when it is done but I forgot how much I dislike working with drywall - the damn dust gets everywhere!

[Doggygirl]

AF Daily - Monday - July 27

Good morning! Just caught up with yesterdays thread and this mornings posts. Happy Monday!

AFM - I am SO HAPPY for you. Wow - I'm very sure I couldn't have handled that mother / sis situation as effectively as you did. I think that is a GREAT example of effective use of Antabuse as an on-going sobriety tool. You and Marshy both are really smart about that. And Deter too I think. (and probably others!)

Cindi I am so happy for you too. I admire you for never giving up.

LVT - congrats to your kids on their achievements! I know what you mean about the "head back to the camper for drinks / smokes....." and being mortified about that now - i.e. not staying to watch the kids get awards. I've done that many times at dog shows not supporting my friends from the same kennel, etc. AL (and nic) bring sure bring out the selfish worst in me! It's good to be living a better way now.

TG - I hope you are having fun at the festival! I recently watched some Woodstock footage - I hope it's not quite that muddy or wild! Glad you are going to see the doc.

Gyco it is always good to see you my friend.

And hello to everyone else from yesterdays thread!

Dill thank you for starting things off today. I love that quote. "Acceptance" can be challenging, and I think it's most challenging sometimes when we work on accepting ourselves. I love the work you are doing and I always gain insights from your posts about it.

AFM that mental "zone" can be quite baffling can't it? When I first went AF then relapsed, I couldn't get back in a good AF zone to save my life. What little AF time I did manage (a few days here and there) was definitely white knuckled. It's a lot easier when it feels right. I sure wish we could bottle and sell it!

Greenie.. Sadly, it doesn't take anything nearly as deep as soul contracts and laws of atrraction to get me muddled beyond repair. Hello and Happy Monday to you!

AA, we've gone through two significant remodels since we bought this house so just the mention of dry wall dust gives me the heebie jeebies!! Hope the project finishes quickly.

I was up and out early today for leads group meeting. Mr. Doggy helped one of the members with a computer crisis last week. She gave Mr. Doggy some much deserved props (he really is good at what he does). So of course that made me smile and made for a good meeting for me! Then I went to a new chiropracter. Actually I've known her for quite awhile along with a couple of other chiros. I wish I would have gone to her sooner. Last week she did some X-rays and a couple of other scans of my back and today was just a quick adjustment. Thursday night I go for the Big News where she reviews all the tests in detail and recommends a longer term plan. Bottom line is I'm becoming convinced that some of my health problems are originating in my spine as well as with all the toxins and crap. So....I'm sure this will be an investment of my own $$ beyond what insurance covers, but I'm going to make a committment to a longer term program and then evaluate in a few months. I hope it will be worth it but these health issues I'm having while minor now, are scaring me about the path I'm on.

Anyway - enough of that! I need to get down to see my Dad today. I also need to do a lot of work out in the garden. I'm in Zone 5 and am interested in other Zone 5ers and what you are planting and when, and any tips for your fall crops.

And with that, I bid you all a great day! Strength and hope to any who are struggling today.

DG