evening went to dj evening and was HARD mainly cos I had HUGE nicotine cravings - and I mean huge - tonnes of chewing gum(helps to have fresh mouth)being sober really helped me - could rationalise my addict brain, look at my prompt cards and I really did take it an hour at a time and v consciously ride out the cravings. No way could I have done that drunk, my mind was saying ' too difficult to do both' and trying to trick me.
Some friends tried to convince me to leave car and drink, I explained to them why I wasn't (so I won't smoke, don't feel ready to be totally honest v people yet, tho may well do with them next time, they v good friends and were supportive once I explained) and they were really nice saying I was being very strong and didn't mention it again.
lazy day today then food at friend's house later - she recent non smoker so that be good and work tomorrow so can not drink without the explanations.
found it really helps to publicly not say how long i planning to drink for - i find others rationalisations as to why i should drink/why they won't stop can then derail me (gives my mind more material!)
bear now 16 days af/sf and worked DAMN hard to get it yesterday!!
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