Hi all! Mary it is so good to have you back. I'm glad you are able to make time for AA and MWO despite the extra time you need to spend with Mr. Teacher right now. Finding a way to keep balance and to stay on top of our sobriety programs is really important I think.
I must have read the Chapter to the Agnostic 20 times when I first went to AA (at the suggestion of someone there given my issues with HP). I didn't get it. It was just words on pages and nothing clicked. It was when I read the Step 3 Chapter in the 12&12, and the specific way it spoke of the locked door, and the key to open it is willingess that things starting working for me. Then I went back and read the Chapter to the Agnostic and it started to make sense - it started to resonate with me. I started with a willingness to accept that I am certainly not the "high power" in the universe, and that acting as my own "higher power" didn't work. At this point I certainly believe there is a powerful positive force working in my life that is beyond my control. Instead of fighting that or over thinking it, I'm trying to just go with the flow.
In today's BB meeting we read the second story in the BB - the one about the guy who I think started AA in Canada or at least one area of Canada. Bill and the team in the US sent him inspiring / encouraging letters DAILY until he had a small group up and going. I guess over 400 letters were mailed to him. That's an amazing commitment to helping that alcoholic. I love the last paragraph of his story where he talks about never wanting to lose the peace and serenity he found. I sense that I'm not even half way there and I still would not want to lose any of the peace and serenity I've found!! I still can't believe how good I feel about this weekend even though I am here (by my own choice) by myself. Mr. Doggy is having fun and they had a good Schutzhund training day today. One of the club members is also an AKC judge for the Canine Good Citizen designation. So they did that today too and now Fergie is a Good Citizen. I had a good day too. After the meeting I met with my temp sponsee and we had some good talk I think. It's amazing how our alkie minds tend to work. Then off to the farmers market and then some work in the kitchen. I'm making raisins in the dehydrator, and prepped another 6 pounds of cukes to make one last batch of pickles tomorrow. Oh - went to the gym too. Life is good.
One of the new guys got his 30 day coin today. That is really really really special when the person comes nearly every day to the same meetings I do. He got a huge round of applause. He is a bit of an odd character and I imagine that maybe he has had trouble "fitting in" in life sometimes. The cool thing about the AA tables is that with our common desire to stop drinking, we can all relate. And that's all it takes to "fit in." I'm happy to be part of a group that I believe TRULY lives that - at least during that meeting - every day.
Well, enough of my rambling. PP, I hope you are hanging in there newly back on the wagon. Phil, I hope you are doing well getting your feet wet with your new sponsor and homework, whatever it is. Hello to everyone else whether you post here a lot, a little, or just lurk.
Strength and hope! THERE IS LIFE AFTER AL AND IT CAN BE A REALLY GOOD LIFE AT THAT!!
DG
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