Is everybody in the UK sleeping in today along with us lazy people in the US who have today off????? :b&d: UP AND AT 'EM!! Oh wait! This is not the abbercizer thread!
I'm planning on a really lazy day today. I didn't get much sleep last night as Mr. D usually handles all the evening doggy duties and also is a night owl so they are all used to being up much later than me. So with Mr. D gone, the doggies are bugging me to go outside numerous times until after midnight, etc. So I need a nap!
I hope everyone is sailing through this holiday weekend (well, in the US anyway) without any AL related problems. My thoughts are especially with our new AFers - sending you all strong sober vibes! I am happy to be hangover free this Labor Day.
Yesterdays topic as it evolved was sure a good one. It got me thinking about my Big Relapse in 2007 after 60 days AF - all the gory details. I really do need to "play that movie" in my head from time to time as a stark reminder of what an attempt at "just one" got me.
It was a beautiful late summer day. It was Saturday dog training day. The weather was perfect and we had just finished up all the dogs. I had been taking pictures and was sure I had lots of good ones on such a perfect day. The "gang" was heading for the porch and the cold beer. I felt so good I decided to have just one Vodka drink. (WHAT ON EARTH WAS VODKA DOING IN MY HOUSE!!! THAT AND WINE WERE MY POISONS OF CHOICE!!!) I had one drink and was really happy that I was able to sip on it slowly and feel that buzz creep through my veins and totally enjoy it. I was thinking that's how "normies" must feel rather than just slamming back the first one or five as I "used to do." The second drink and third tasted pretty good too and I felt I was sipping those pretty slowly considering my usual volumes. That's all I could handle. Maybe I was "fixed!" MAN did I have a hangover the next day. Just from 3 drinks!! Yep..surely I was fixed. I certainly didn't want to drink that day. Wow. Maybe I can have drinks after dog training on Saturdays after all.
Well, I didn't make it until the next Saturday. My hangover was gone by Monday so I decided to try out my norminess on some Vodka in the evening. Or was it late afternoon? By Tuesday I'm pretty sure it was not much later than noon when I poured the first one. Before Saturday I was pouring drinks in the morning again. By Saturday I was back to my old tricks making Vodka drinks in my coffee mug in the AM and being shit faced long before training was done.
What really baffles me even to this day is how difficult it was for me to get back on the wagon. From that September day in 2007 until May 22, 2008 I must have tried to go back to AF at least 10 or 20 times. I think the longest I made it was a week. I just couldn't get my head in the AF game.
The moral of the story for me is that I CANNOT DRINK SAFELY EVER and must not allow myself any fantasies at all along those lines. It took me no time at all for my drinking to return to previous levels and I couldn't stop. Not only do I not WANT to live like that any more, I'm sure I CAN'T live very long like that any more. AL would kill me eventually. Sometimes we forget we are dealing with a deadly substance.
Anyway, that's my story of a difficult relapse. Reminding myself of that story helps me stay sober today.
DG
I'm planning on a really lazy day today. I didn't get much sleep last night as Mr. D usually handles all the evening doggy duties and also is a night owl so they are all used to being up much later than me. So with Mr. D gone, the doggies are bugging me to go outside numerous times until after midnight, etc. So I need a nap!
I hope everyone is sailing through this holiday weekend (well, in the US anyway) without any AL related problems. My thoughts are especially with our new AFers - sending you all strong sober vibes! I am happy to be hangover free this Labor Day.
Yesterdays topic as it evolved was sure a good one. It got me thinking about my Big Relapse in 2007 after 60 days AF - all the gory details. I really do need to "play that movie" in my head from time to time as a stark reminder of what an attempt at "just one" got me.
It was a beautiful late summer day. It was Saturday dog training day. The weather was perfect and we had just finished up all the dogs. I had been taking pictures and was sure I had lots of good ones on such a perfect day. The "gang" was heading for the porch and the cold beer. I felt so good I decided to have just one Vodka drink. (WHAT ON EARTH WAS VODKA DOING IN MY HOUSE!!! THAT AND WINE WERE MY POISONS OF CHOICE!!!) I had one drink and was really happy that I was able to sip on it slowly and feel that buzz creep through my veins and totally enjoy it. I was thinking that's how "normies" must feel rather than just slamming back the first one or five as I "used to do." The second drink and third tasted pretty good too and I felt I was sipping those pretty slowly considering my usual volumes. That's all I could handle. Maybe I was "fixed!" MAN did I have a hangover the next day. Just from 3 drinks!! Yep..surely I was fixed. I certainly didn't want to drink that day. Wow. Maybe I can have drinks after dog training on Saturdays after all.
Well, I didn't make it until the next Saturday. My hangover was gone by Monday so I decided to try out my norminess on some Vodka in the evening. Or was it late afternoon? By Tuesday I'm pretty sure it was not much later than noon when I poured the first one. Before Saturday I was pouring drinks in the morning again. By Saturday I was back to my old tricks making Vodka drinks in my coffee mug in the AM and being shit faced long before training was done.
What really baffles me even to this day is how difficult it was for me to get back on the wagon. From that September day in 2007 until May 22, 2008 I must have tried to go back to AF at least 10 or 20 times. I think the longest I made it was a week. I just couldn't get my head in the AF game.
The moral of the story for me is that I CANNOT DRINK SAFELY EVER and must not allow myself any fantasies at all along those lines. It took me no time at all for my drinking to return to previous levels and I couldn't stop. Not only do I not WANT to live like that any more, I'm sure I CAN'T live very long like that any more. AL would kill me eventually. Sometimes we forget we are dealing with a deadly substance.
Anyway, that's my story of a difficult relapse. Reminding myself of that story helps me stay sober today.
DG
and then I had to go to another bank and queue up all over again :H 
have fun at netball! I can't wait to get back to my gym and spar with my budding. Still slowly rehabbing this stupid ankle. 
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